the reason there aren’t any other options is because these are the only ships thatve ever existed. Btw.

corporate america will destroy your spirit and permanently elevate your cortisol levels

"jk rowling invited Jeffrey Epstein to dinner in 2018, which was 10 years after his first conviction for pedophilia" sounds like something a hater would make up on Twitter but it's real. and it just dropped in the latest files release. wild

i’m really overwhelmed thinking about hudson saying “he’s never had a sexual experience (before ilya) where he wanted to be there or had even a flint of desire.” and shane feeling the lust and the shame and the carnal desire and the rejection towards ilya all at once. sitting on that locker room bench after giving ilya his room number and trying to swallow everything down. not just feeling the feelings but not being able to name the feelings either. not knowing where to put them. what to do with his hands. he’s so good at everything including pushing it all down. he’s not good at this and his body won’t let him push it down. never feeling a flint of desire to the flames of it swallowing him whole. if it’s bad and it’s wrong then why does ilya pushing him against that wall and kissing him for the first time feel like absolution. shane has never absolved himself of anything. what is he supposed to do with that.

also the retroactive grief that comes with realising that every sexual encounter he's ever had - which he thought was fine at the time but is now seeing completely differently after having just had his mind blown by this guy he's not supposed to want at all - has been bad actually. the realisation that he didn't actually want that. that he thought he wanted it at the time but only bc he didn't know what wanting it actually felt like and now he has to process the fact that this whole 'maybe this is just how everybody feels about sex' idea he's convinced himself of is completely and utterly false. and he can't un-know that. but god damn he's gonna try.

now why would you say that.

someone should make a social network (2010) style biopic movie about the rise and fall of panic! at the disco because it's literally the same story. young awkward nerdy guys in the early 2000s make something cool and then have the worst friendship breakup of all time that's reminiscent of a divorce and now decades later the thing they made is lame as fuck. one guy became evil after they split up and the other guy disappeared off of the face of the earth. every man involved was so misogynistic that the story has undertones of a doomed gay relationship (a comically large hook drags me off stage and I am shot like a lame horse)