How can I even bother to look at all this shit on my fucking Tumblr? Everything was you, us, and now its all gone. And everyday, all I can think about it just ending it, biting the bullet, but I don’t. And it hurts more that I don’t, I don’t have anyone anymore. Nobody that can assure me that I’m ok. Just me, suffering everyday. I don’t want to be here anymore, in fact the only reason I am even writing this is because I know that nobody will see it, I’m venting to the wind. Asking the clouds for help but expecting nothing. Of course, she’s all I can think about, I wish she was here. But I messed up more than once, I thought I was doing right but I wasn’t, I made the same mistake over and over and now I’m scared it’s all gone forever. And it does nothing but add to my emotions; sadness, hopelessness, loneliness, regret, selfdoubt, anger, frustration, suicidal. But the days must go on apparently, it’s the hardest thing I have ever done, but I keep going. I just hope that my pain will end sooner rather than later, or I’ll have the strength to keep going. But I don’t think I do.
