I have fallen in love

It hurts when he ignores you.

Hello, my name is Nat. I had no idea that at the age of 23 my eating disorder would be so intense. So intense that I am already certain that it's not anyone's fault that I have this disorder. I have a loving fiancé, my own apartment, and I am finishing my master's degree in nursing. Despite the fact that everything is going well for me, further my disorder makes me feel terrible after eating anything, I feel the need to count calories and avoid fat and sugar. I feel the need to starve myself. I thought for a few weeks it was better, but I'm afraid it will never be good. Food is my enemy, and even more of an enemy is myself to myself.

what do you choose?