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Bonnie was speechless, but she didn’t think she was mad. She didn’t have a real reason to be mad. They danced around things too much for Bonnie to be mad. But now…this wasn’t a dance, it was a declaration. “Are you…I’m not mad. I just wanna understand….Marcie, you’re just really confusing? Are you trying to tell me something or are you messing with me?”
Marcy blinked, honestly more prepared for her to be mad than anything else. She didn’t know why. Maybe because she’d never had things like this go well in the past. “I… I’m not… I just,” she didn’t even really know how to respond. What does she say? “I guess sometimes I want to be confusing, because you’re confusing. Or, at least you make me confused. You just… you always act like everything is about science and work and all that biz, and you act like love and relationships and junk is stupid and weird and a waste of time, and it makes me feel like I’m stupid for thinking of…” Marceline shook her head. She wasn’t good at any of this kind of talk. Feelings were something she kept locked deep down. “So if you want me to just be messing with you because you’re not into all of that or it’s easier if that’s all I’m doing, then fine, you can think I’m just messing with you, and if you want me to stop I’ll stop.” She looked down for a second, feeling so fucking stupid. Her face felt hot and she hated that she ever did this. She didn’t even want to go home because Bonnie would show up there soon enough. “But if you want the truth, I… I think I’ve made my feelings pretty clear.”
It never occurred to her once that the way she came off about non-scientific subjects could hurt Marcelines feelings. Bonnie honestly never really thought she could hurt Marceline like that. Their past was complicated and things hadn't ended well last time they had a talk like this but they were kids then. At least Bonnie felt like a kid in comparison. Now, she knew how she felt but she just thought Marcy was playing games with her, which she tried her best to stay unbothered about but it did in fact bother her a bit. But she guessed she must have been just as confusing and that wasn't fair. Bonnie really had been going about this the wrong way. "I'm not... telling you to go fuck yourself?" An attempt to lighten the mood even though she wasn't sure it would work. "I....I didn't wanna mess up again. I have really hurt you in the past and I didn't wanna do that when we started talking again. But I did and I am so sorry Marcy. But that doesn't change the fact that I care about you more than anyone else on this island. I'm a tough girl, I can handle the world on my own. But I would rather have you by my side. And not just as my best friend."



















