Actually just tired

God ... it's so hard to trust others, isn't it?

I believe firmly that being seen - really seen - by another person is the most beautiful experience that we can have.

To be seen fully, to be accepted as we are, to be loved for who we are ... it's ... bliss.

And it's also fucking terrifying to think about.

Oh shit ... they see me ... they see my flaws ... my pains ... my silly dreams ... my hopes ... my feelings ... my inner self ... who I am ... my core ... what if they reject me? What if they hate me? What if ... what if ... what if ...

Scary stuff to think about.

But if you can push through it, push through those fears, you will open yourself to a true connection that will lift you up and help you experience life at a whole new level.

This is not to say everyone deserves our complete trust. Relationships aren't built overnight (usually).

Slow and steady ... get to know someone ... do they accept you or do they judge you? Do they mock you or do they support you? Do they genuinely care about you or do they only care when there is something in it for them? Are they worthy of your trust? Are they worthy of seeing your soul?

Friends and lovers are complex. Of course, you can still be friends (and even lovers) with people that aren't worthy of your FULL trust.

But if you find those people who authentically care, want the best for you, support you - even your crazy dreams or maybe encourage you to have crazy dreams, well ...

It's an opportunity to be brave and go deeper.

It doesn't always work out. True. Sometimes people fade away. Sometimes people fall out.

But touching another soul and having another touch your soul ... it's the A+ of human experiences.

Knowing you have someone who has your back, who knows and accepts you, who sees your true self?

Beautiful and scary.

Fucking devine.

Yanking on my leash and making me choke and whimper as I feel them go faster, rougher, harder clenching around them, feeling how their cock throbs inside me as they tell me not to cum yet. Feeling them press their pretty mouth against my back as I cry and beg, as they bite me and mark me as there own

Your daddy, suddenly becoming extremely nice to you, coaxing you all day, making love to you, you're confused why daddy is suddenly so nice, why daddy is making you wear so many cute clothes, you're so confused but you love it, until one day, daddy brings over his friends. He calls you into the living room to greet his friends and you, being a naive little pet, come to greet daddy's friends when suddenly one of them pins you to the floor while another rips you clothes off, your eyes dart to your daddy, wanting to ask him for help but you see him taking some money from one of his friends, smirking and then leaving the room, your eyes widen but you don't have time to process that your daddy just sold you off as the men align themselves to all your holes, they don't even prep you, just ramming it in in one go, you cry but they just laugh "looks like the worthless toy is crying, you like that don't you?" One of them says as slams extremely hard into your ass, you want to cry but your mouth is gagged by another man shoving his cock down your throat , no matter how much you resist. They're going to get their money's worth, and you have to let them, because they're daddy's friends

we’re at a house party and they pull me into their lap. we chat as their hands wander and we’re both a little high and their face is so close to mine and I can’t stop looking at their piercings and they can’t stop their hand from wandering under my patched up jacket that I refuse to take off even though the air in here is thick and warm

I get up to go to the kitchen. They follow and there’s no one else in here. The music and the noise is dulled and the light is dimmer. They turn me and grab at my hips, rings clacking against my belt chain and they kiss me open mouth all teeth and metal and I can taste the edible we shared. They shove a hand down my pants and find my tdick and press in hard. I’m grinding down into the heel of their palm while they shove a finger in my cunt, then another. My pants and boxers are pushed down lower as they pant into my mouth and I try to keep quiet. I’m clumsily feeling up their crotch while they press their face into my neck

After they’ve worked three fingers into me, they spin me roughly and push me against the counter. My pants are around my ankles and I can hear them undoing their fly and I press my ass back to feel their cock against my backside

We grind like that for a moment, our jackets and pins and chains rubbing together in time with our movements. They reach around to play with my dick, rubbing me between two knuckles while their other hand grabs at my chest, pushing my binder up and tweaking a nipple hard

I groan and feel their dick twitch, pressed between their stomach and my ass and I grind back on their lap and they squeeze my hip

fuck.. ah where do you want me

fuck my cunt, fuck me, need you in me

shit

they groan as they run their cock against my messy boycunt

I whine as they linger there, and their hand goes back to stroking my dick as they start to push in.

I moan outright as they work themself into me, pushing back against them and gripping the counter

Faggot

I groan. They start to move, sliding in and out of my hole, my cunt making sloppy wet sounds as they fuck me against the cabinets. My belt chain collides with the wood loudly as they speed up, thrusting into me hard and bottoming out, their free hand roughly pulls my hips back in time with their thrusts before reaching up to pull at my hair

I’m moaning and keening in earnest now and hoping that the music in the next room is drowning me out. My head is fuzzy and every thrust is pushing me bodily into the counter

Suddenly they grab me by the shoulders, turn me a shove me to the linoleum floor, wedging a boot between my thighs and pressing their leaking cock to my drooling mouth. I take them into my mouth, but they impatiently grab the back of my head, fucking themself into my throat. I suck and swallow and gasp, my hands scrabbling at their ass and thighs. They pull out and i start stroking them off, their tip pressed to my tongue