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in therapy my therapist and i were talking about my own feelings of self worth in relationships. and she asked me to say qualities about myself that someone else would be attracted to, on a romantic and platonic level. so i named some things like compassionate, empathetic, etc. and she said “you named things that you can give someone. ways you can serve, rather than ways that you are” and y'all..my mind was blown that’s gonna stick with me forever like she then proceed to tell me actual innate qualities about myself that she liked and thought anyone else would like as well and i hadn’t even considered those because like she said i was focused on things i could do outwardly to attract and maintain connections rather than who i was as a person..goddamn!!! thats tea!!!

truly believe that there’s like… specific times in your life for you to discover certain music. or sometimes rediscover. like there’s some artists i tried listening to earlier in my life and i wrote them off bc i was Not Ready for them but now they like touch my heart and i get them now. they just click so easily into my life in the place that i am now. i just am so happy i have music in my life like gawd is it such an encouragement and support in a way nothing else is.