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emma shakes her head- she is Not going to be the reason dana can't watch movies she likes!

so dana asks if emma wants to sit in her lap for the rest of the movie and emma nods emphatically because dana's lap is the safest place.

unlike the other end of the couch- a distinctly unsafe place, especially when the room is a bit shadowy. although that is also MORE safe than the dark hallway leading to the dark bathroom- which are both very very scary and very very unsafe, which is why emma has been trying not to squirm for the last half hour (because sipping her soda to distract herself from the movie has consequences)

she tries not to wriggle when she's sitting on dana's lap because she really really doesn't want the blushyness of dana asking if she needs the bathroom. it's fine, she can hold it.

except it's getting harder and harder and not wriggling is making it harder still and suddenly emma feels a tiny leak.

it's not MUCH...but she also isnt totally sure it wont be visible if she stands up from dana's lap....so now she REALLY cant get up, no matter how much she needs to wee, because she REALLY doesn't want dana noticing and asking if she's had a little accident (again).

so now she's trapped and she can't fidget to help hold it and she can't get up and the warm wetness between her legs is making her think about how much she wants to wee and THATS making it even harder to hold and then another leak spurts out, and then another, and she knows dana will find out she's having an accident and emma starts to cry.

dana is about to ask if the movie is too scary when emma jumps off her lap and tries to run to the bathroom, still crying, before freezing and clutching herself in the hallway, her pjs getting rapidly wetter and wetter-

emma knows that scary movies will.....well not make her wet the bed bc thats embarassing! shes not a bedwetter! shes a big girl! but um....if she does watch something scary, sometimes that makes it a litttttle bit scary to get out of bed for the bathroom if she needs it and um....and anyway she doesnt even like scary movies, so there!

then she gets invited to see a scary movie with trinity and javadi and whittaker and she doesnt want to say no....

this is after a ton of journeys which end in dana and emma getting out of the car and emma has a little wet patch between her legs from leaking

AWWWWW poor thing doesnt want to interrupt Dana- who never needs to stop and always wants to get the driving over with quickly as possible- but it also means that she ends up wriggly-squirmy as she tries and tries not to think about the strawberry milk Dana got her at the drive-through or about how long she'll need to hold it til they get to the motel.

She THINKS shes hiding it well- so it's so embarassing when Dana looks over to her with a gentle 'Need to stop, hun?' that she blurts out 'NO' before she's really thought about it.

And when Dana asks skeptically if she's sure, it would be even more blushy to admit that actually yes she DOES need to go, as if she can't tell.

Aw thank you!

AWWW i love this

The first time, she wakes up first, heart pounding and sick with anxiety that its happened at Dana's house- but its not much and she hasn't got Dana wet and there's a glass of water on the bedside table and she's able to get away with having 'spilled her drink'- Dana is tired that she barely glances over, just stumbles out into the corridor for fresh bedding and Emma just about gets away with it.

But the second time Dana wakes up first and the first she knows of it, she's being gently roused with a soft 'C'mon hun, up you get, gotta do a little clean up-' She's confused- and then mortified when she realises she's wet. She's stammering apologies that Dana just brushes off as she's ushered into the shower.

The third time, she wakes up first and alone in bed because Dana has gone out for a late-night drink of water and smoke break- and has to face the humiliation of being caught by Dana trailing down the hall with an armful of wet sheets in damp pjs. She opens her mouth to try to make up and excuse and bursts into tears.

It's so unfair, she thought she got over this, she didn't DO this anymore.

But she does- and after two weeks, she and Dana are both tired from broken nights and every morning her eyes are red from crying over her accident and she knows that Dana can tell she's trying to limit her water intake. Even as Dana cuddles her and reassures her that its no big deal, that she doesnt care, that she has plenty of spare sheets and pjs, she still hates it.

The pullups appear in the bathroom as if by magic and she's about to storm out and yell that she doesnt need them- when she pauses. She doesn't want to argue about it because that would just open the door to having to talk about her bedwetting which she really doesnt want to do ever ever ever.

So she puts one on that night and sleeps through for the first time in ages and wakes up wet....but with the bedsheets and her pjs still bone dry. She doesn't say anything and neither does Dana but she can feel herself blush when Dana kisses her forehead and says shes looking more rested.

only to have dana notice her wriggles and squirmy fidgeting and ask if she needs the bathroom

denying it while looking so embarassed

and dana raising a disbelieving eyebrow and telling her to try anyway because she looks like shes going to start peeing in her pants any moment, while guiding her in the directiion of the bathroom

watching their eyes get big and their breath catch as they start leaking

asking if they need the bathroom and pointing out the wet patch between their legs when they frantically shake their head

gently reassuring them its ok if they cant quite hold it, that it looks like they've wet themselves a little bit but that its ok because you can take them to the bathroom

leading them to the bathroom as the wet patch gets bigger and bigger with every step

bringing them back dry clothes and gently coaxing them to open the bathroom door as they sniffle

giving them a huge hug and promising to keep it a secret

tucking them under your arm to watch a movie and cuddling them against you as they bury their head into your shoulder

these things are entirely unconnected

tried so so hard to hold it like a big girl

and um

i was entirely successful

weeing in my knickers like a baby wouldve been so embarassing

so um

Being able to stop for a minute, only to start wetting again as soon as you're out of bed.

Being gently asked if you want to wear a pullup to bed so you dont make the bed wet again.

Not saying anything, just....waiting for Dana to notice and take care of her.