Bloxxel64 :3

https://ko-fi.com/bloxxel64colonthree

eventually we became "friends" and shit but thats a story in its own right it should have been ok but eventually it wasnt one day i stopped being able to create or talk to frens due to me getting all my devices taken (i was in my teens at the time, thanks mom!) not only did that activate a lot of trauma and repressed feelings (the shit i mentioned earlier) but when i broke, my creativity broke i did comms for a bit but the more i started doing art the worse i felt if you go to deviantart you will see some of my oldest art, i wish i was still that good i regressed, i was worse when i did comms i'm even worse now i hate art i want to do it so badly but i hate trying i feel so much pressure i look at others art and constantly feel like i have to outperform, i need to make better art then other people the worst part that makes me the most adverse and ANGRY is the """"advice"""" "just practice" shut, up im tired of it, no advice, no tips, just "do it and you get better" it makes me mad and upset all i can do is look at my art and hate it, and delete it, like i feel like i should the worst part is following, if i dont do good i get ignored i put need help posts on bsky all the time and no one helps bc i dont make a ton of art and have everyone follow me bc my art is so cool bc its not i give up man, i have so many feelings i want to get out about the supposed "communites" im supposedly a part of and shit too who cares, i just wanna die and feel like i matter in heaven i have nothing to show and im so angry but i cant4 get it out bc idk im gonna go cry or smth, not that im capible of it (stopped being able to like 5 years ago)