Blogging Life Away

me: *is frustrated*

Ok I was not in a good mood last night but then I went on the date and it was actually a really good date and I was in such a better mood.

It’s 6:28 and I have to leave at 6:45. I should really get ready now.

And I am still so into that person that I keep talking about the crush about. And I hate how much that is taking over my thoughts lately. I mean part of me is like, cool, you are very into them. It’s that “can’t sleep, can’t eat, daydream all the time” kind of feeling when you really like someone. But then the other part of me is like “stop daydreaming you’re wasting all of your time. And you’re always tired in the morning because you aren’t sleeping properly because you’re always thinking of them. Get your shit together.”

The annoying this is, is that my day started off wonderfully productive. I got a lot of shit done and did a lot of good things. And then I got a disappointing email about a job I want for the summer (It’s not that I didn’t get the job, it’s that they have to wait until April to see if they can get funding for the job) and that has just put me in the worst mood. I hate uncertainty, and not knowing where I’m working for the summer yet, when I thought I had all of my shit planned out, is just so annoying.

I’m going on a date tonight. With a guy a kind of like. But I’m not sure yet if I really really like him. And all I really want to do is lay in bed all night binge watching project runway. Because I have had the lamest disappointing day, including getting my period. So I would much rather wrap myself in blankets with tea and tv, than go out and make convo with this guy.