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Could you do a Sebastian x Reader angst scene? Perhaps, tired of Sebastian's rejection and cruel treatment, they decide to give up on Sebastian and focus entirely on getting the crystal back. This comes after Sebastian broke them and said many cruel things to her, from not caring that he liked her to telling her she means nothing to him.
Torn In Pieces
Summary: After Sebastian’s rejection and cruel behavior towards you, you decided to reevaluate your goals in the blacksite.
Word count: 2.1k
Warnings: Angst, angst AND more angst, mentions of death, Sebastian gets a bit aggressive.
Tags: Sebastian Solace x female! Reader, heartbreak, angst, betrayal.
A/N: Hey anon! Thank you for the request, and apologies for the ending being a bit rushed or even cringe, I didn’t want to drag out some of the material within this piece. I hope this is to your liking, enjoy! :)
Sebastian was someone who from the beginning you viewed as your ally and eventually your friend. When you two first met he was obviously hostile toward you during your interactions but it’s a given since he was like that with all of the Expendables to be frank.
Your guys’ friendship was one that didn’t happen over night but rather over time the more you came into his shop. You were an Expendable to be exact, but a local and valuable customer in his eyes, he enjoyed your company the more you stuck around and even gave you discounts as well as allowed you to get rest in his shop to replenish your energy after multiple run-ins with the entities around the blacksite.
Over time he eventually started to open up more to you and share his plans on escaping the blacksite with Painter also promising to get you out of there too as well, ensuring your safety and true freedom from Urbanshade and their sneaky affairs.
He was so convincing in his promises that it made you call off your individual search for the crystal and join forces with him and Painter, while staying out of Urbanshade’s radar. You would deceive the other Expendables into thinking that you were just like them; A lonely soul desperately fighting for their freedom, but in your case you were not helping them fight for their freedom but rather to their own demise. What looked like you leading them to perfectly good doors, rooms or even spaces was actually you leading them into traps eliminating them one by one, slowing down their progress towards their main goal.
The more time you spent around and with Sebastian the more your feelings grew for him, and honestly you didn’t know how to handle them.
On days if you were away from Sebastian’s shop, you would stop by Painter’s room and doodle with him, but today he could tell that something was bothering you.
“So what have you been up to lately?”
“Oh nothing much, you know the same old routine I have any other day there’s not much you can change while being stuck here in the blacksite every single waking moment of your life it seems like. But enough about me, how’ve you been?”
He picks up on the dull tone in your voice, “Hey Y/N can I ask you something if you don’t mind?”
“Sure, go right ahead.”
“What’s on your mind? I can tell something's eating at you. It’s okay if you don’t wanna talk about it, I just wanted to let you know that I’m here for you, not just as another individual, but as your friend and I don’t want you to continue suffering in silence.”
You smile at his words, but it doesn’t reach your eyes as it usually does.
“Heh, wow was I really being that obvious? How could you tell?”
“Well for starters you’ve been retracing the same heart on your page and staring off into space for the past thirty minutes. Girl, you’re literally spaced out like an astronaut right now.”
“Touché.” Your grip on the pencil becomes tighter, which causes it to snap into two pieces, not before creating a split down the middle of your page where the heart was sketched.
You take a few shaky deep breaths, “I’ve been feeling a bit scared lately, terrified even.”
“Of what exactly?” Granted, that did seem like a dumb question given the circumstances of you guys being in the blacksite surrounded by disfigured and spooky-looking entities, but Painter knew that was the case for you, he knew how brave and fearless you were, and had seen you on the cams in action, dodging and hiding from entities 7 times your size. He knew that it had to be something else, far worse in your mind, that was too much for you to handle.
“I think…I think I have feelings for Sebastian. Wait, I don't think I have feelings for him…I KNOW I do. I know I’m in love with him and that’s what scares me the most.” You hug yourself tightly.
A small understanding smile forms on his face at his friend’s declaration of love, “What about that scares you? Shouldn’t that be a good thing right?”
“I’m just afraid that if I confess to him things between us would change for the worst especially to have him hate me or reject me because of it.” You try your best to keep down the suffocating sensation of a sob building up in your throat, but your emotions consume any willpower to do so, you let it out.
Painter gives you a couple minutes to regather yourself before speaking again, “I wish there was something more I can do to comfort you better besides talking or watching you cry, I really wish that I could be there next to you physically to give you a hug,” He pauses before continuing, “If it helps, I think you should just go for it and give it a shot, tell him how you feel.”
“But what if he doesn’t-”
“Enough with using the buts and what-ifs in a negative manner, have you even thought of the possibility that he might like you back? How would you even know if you never asked him?”
You let his words marinate in your mind, “Well when you put it like that, what do you think I should do next?”
“Well from this point, I think you should go and talk to him, if you continue to keep this to yourself then you’ll be left with the fantasy of what did or didn’t happen,” He smiles again but more to himself this time, “Plus I like the idea of you to coming together as one, to express your love in ways that’ll be able to repair the brokenness within you.”
You slowly stand up and make your way over to the table he is placed upon, you then wrap your arms around his monitor and close your eyes, “You always know the right thing to say even when I can’t form the words to say it myself, if that makes sense?” Painter’s express mirrors your own soft and gleeful smile, “Heh I get what you’re trying to say, I’m always happy to help you my friend.”
Before you leave his room to head to Sebastian’s shop you flip to a clean page in your notebook and write a handwritten letter to the man that contained a majority of the things you admired about him, you spilled your whole soul into that letter.
“I’ll catch you later, Painter. I'll let you know how it all turns out .”
“Good luck!”
What the two of you didn’t know was that Sebastian heard the entire conversation, word for word, bar for bar, on the other end of the communication line that Painter forgot to mute.
You make your way through the vent, with the letter held gently in your hands. As you enter you’re through off by the darkness of the shop, you assume two things; He was either sleeping or he was out on a run for supplies, which you found to be odd because he would usually tell you or Painter of his whereabouts and what he was up to. But you came to notice a dim light flicker in the dark.
“Sebastian?” You call out hoping to get some sort of a response to see if he was in there.
You hear a distant and cold hum in response and locate the flickering light source to be the bulb on his head, so he is here you think to yourself. “ Can’t you see I’m busy working?”
“Working in the dark?”
He scoffs, “What exactly are you here for anyway?” He already knows what you’re here for but instead he tries to play it off to see what you were really going to say now that you were in his shop.
“I’m here to see you of course, I’ve got something to tell you….something that you may or may not want to hear…something that took a small pep talk and a lots of courage to bring myself to do.” You have a gentle smile as you fiddle with the corners of the letter that you shaped into a heart.
“Speaking isn’t really gonna do me much justice right now because I want to prevent myself from getting too emotional and also no words can really describe how deep my feelings run for you. That’s why I also wrote this letter in hopes of getting some of the thoughts out that I have of you.” He fully turns on the light and his expression is unreadable as he reaches to grab the letter out of your hand, he examines the heart-shaped letter then a few seconds later he rips it in half, it resembled that of a broken heart which he let fall to your feet.
“W-w-why did you do that?! What is wrong with you? Did you even read it?!” You say flabbergasted.
He finally looks directly at you, his expression went from being unreadable to one which said “I hate your entire existence”
He lets out a bitter laugh, “From the very first day that we met, I knew that I’d hurt you eventually. Guess this should be a lesson in not trusting just anyone, am I right?”
“Seb what the hell are you talking about?”
“Do I really have to spell it out for you? I’m a terrible person, a monster even, we were never fucking friends, all I know how to do is hurt people and yet you still went ahead like a dumbass and believed I cared about you. When were you going to realize that I was only using you this whole time?” He sneered at you, “Did you really think that I was going to love you back even though you were just a pawn in my plan.?”
All of your previous fears and worries you’ve felt before coming here completely vanished and went straight out the door.
“You wanna know something funny? I’ve gotten my heart broken so many times but never like this. No one has ever broken my heart like this before and I didn’t think you’d be the one to do it.”
“Maybe it was a good thing that I talked some sense into you then, to keep you from staying in la la land. It’s not like I even cared about you anyways” He makes lazy gestures with his hand.
“So tell me this though, was any moment of our time together real for you? Please help me understand what led up to things getting to this point? I thought we were friends, Seb.”
He looks away with a shrug, “Haven’t you ever heard the saying keep your friends close and your enemies closer? Why do you think I would ever befriend someone who is working for a side that’s fighting their hardest to prevent me from being free?”
“Look me in my eyes and tell me all of that isn’t true.” You firmly stand in place, not making any move to leave, you honestly have a hard time believing that all of what he’s said so far is the truth. It just feels too sudden and out of character for him, all those times he laughed and joked with you, the gentle side he showed you, all the promises he made to you, and yet he claims all of that wasn’t real. You need a real answer from him.
His head turns toward you slowly and his eyes grow dark, “I don’t see a future with you, I never have and I never will. None of it was real and I never wished for it to be real. I wouldn’t even care if Urbanshade decided to detonate you right in front of me, I wouldn’t even shed a single tear for you. I hate everything about you. Get out of my sight!”
“I was ready to give you my heart but you took it and ripped it into pieces. From now on I’ll do everything in my power to prevent you from seeing the light of day above the surface, from now on I want to continue seeing to suffer down here with no way out of leaving this prison. You’re dead to me.”
Without letting him get another word in you make your way towards the exit to start back on your journey toward achieving the crystal, as you make your way into the hallway you notify Urbanshade on Sebastian’s location.
“I have coordinates on the whereabouts on Mr. Z-13 himself, The Saboteur. Make sure you send additional units to this location…”
Imagine you were so tired of doing this mission and dying over and over again. So, you decided to take a quick nap. But where?
As you lazily enter Sebastian's shop with an exhausted face, He looks at you for a second and speaks.
"Geez, you looked bad." He pointed out.
You just looked at him with an annoyed face and told him if it's okay to take a quick nap in his shop.
"Nap.. here?" You nodded. "Hm.."
He briefly thinks for a second before speaking to you. "Okay, you can nap here, but you've got to buy something first."
You agreed to his demands. But then you pointed at his tail, you wanted to sleep on it badly.
"What? What do you want now?" Looking at his own tail, then back at you, he slowly realizes.
"You.. Want to sleep on my tail?" You nodded once again.
"What do you think I am? A pillow? Absolutely not." You frowned when he said that, but you suddenly got an idea and told him that you would pay him a good price.
He hesitated for a bit, and he eventually accepted your offer. Lying down with your head on Sebastian's tail, you slowly doze off to sleep. As you were sleeping, he stared at you for a while before doing something..
Later..
When you woke up, you found yourself wrapped around his tail with him sleeping on his own tail, too. Cozily sleeping. You didn't actually take a nap, but a 2-hour sleep. He didn't wake you up? Why?
Ignoring the questions inside your head, you went to the vent to continue your journey. Before leaving, you remembered something.
Sebastian woke up with him finding you missing on his tail. While stretching, he sees a pile of data on the table, you did kept your promise after all huh?
"Urgh.." Scratching his head he looked down on his tail once again where you had slept, honestly he felt some sort of comfort while you were dozing off. It brings a sense of familiarity that he couldn't recall.
It still haunted him that he couldn't remember every tiny detail from the first. Only small tidbits. A flash of your smile. The shape of you walking away from him. Pouring over each scrap of physical evidence from memories the old him had scrapbooked and saved over the years. A movie ticket stub. A bracelet you made him. A note you slipped in his pocket, 'miss you already' scrawled on a torn napkin - one he found in the bottom of a box you hadn't taken with you when you left.
Maybe by accident. Maybe on purpose.
It was under old hoodies and souvenir mugs from other places he couldn't recall now. He drank from them now, imagined his lips where yours used to be. Bought a bottle of your favorite perfume and spritzed it on his clothes during the bad days.
There'd been a lot more of them lately.
He stared at old albums like they were crime scene photos. Wondered where it went wrong, studied photos where you were still clinging to his side, his arm slung so casually over your shoulder like it was inconceivable to think you'd ever slip away.
Had he flown too close to the sun? Was he just a fool for thinking any version of him deserved you?
The second time he'd fallen in love with you was four days after he'd woken up in the hospital. He'd been disoriented at first, didn't want to accept the fact he'd forgotten years of his life, missed his own marriage and now he was just supposed to what? Move on? Sleep next to a stranger?
But you didn't break.
Didn't look at him like he let you down. Even if he wasn't really the man you married anymore.
You held his hand, told him about himself and showed him photos without crying, just smiling at him while you told him memories like bedtime stories, laughing a little remembering the time he'd gotten sun poisoning at the beach and how he used it as an excuse for months to get you to rub lotion and sunscreen on him any time you went anywhere.
And yeah it was stupid, hypocritical almost, but something inside his heart cracked when you went to sleep in the guest room every night instead of curling up beside him in bed. But he didn't bother putting a bandage over it. Thought it was just another thing time would heal.
It didn't though.
And the distance only started to spread, snipping and severing all the love you had left for the shell he was walking around in. He hadn't seen it though. Too scared, too stressed at the idea that each word that left his mouth, each question he wanted to ask would only push you further away.
That he'd just remind you he wasn't the man you married.
Would you love him for him? Without his memories?
He guessed you weren't the same person the old him married now either. Even if that was his fault too. So he acted awkward, respected your space and secretly hoped you'd invade his. Spilled his drinks during dinner and said all the wrong things when you tried to make conversation with him, hating himself more for every thing he fucked up with you.
And somewhere along the way, he guessed he found out the answer to his question.
You couldn't love him like this. You left.
The papers on the counter and your stuff packed, only the scent of your perfume on the guest room pillows. A promise that all you wanted was his happiness scrawled in your handwriting. He saved it. Some sick souvenir to show he didn't deserve you in the first place.
He tried to move on. Dated a few girls that he never could bring himself to bring home. It felt wrong.
This was your place. Maybe that was why he couldn't sell it either.
He sometimes wondered if you kept his last name, held his stuff the way he held yours. Clung to the him in your dreams and chased his shadows.
You haunted him.
And the third time he fell in love with you, that was all he had left to fall in love with. Your ghost.
Satoru didn't know when it started. Just that his dreams had started to take on a different shape, a different hue. The edges blurred, not all the details there. But you were always the star. In the grocery store or on the sidewalk. Watching movies on the couch or wading into a pool together.
Chalked it up to fantasies until he went to grab a box of pasta from the pantry and was struck by a real memory of you frowning at him, standing almost in the same place he was and complaining that he'd forgotten to buy something at the store.
Some of them were innocent. Domestic. But others were more intense, your skin against his, his forehead pressed to yours while he left a lingering kiss on the corner of your mouth, swallowing every breath because he sorta wished you'd inhale him. Desperate to be inside you in every way possible.
And now, he didn't know where the fuck you were.
His ex-wife.
He couldn't convince himself he was fine with it.
So, yeah, what was wrong for hoping and praying for a second shot of a real romance with you? Of making new memories? Building a new future together, even if he still hadn't pieced together the puzzle of the past?
He almost puked three times on the way to the coffee shop you agreed to meet him at - over text this time, your message short and clipped. A time and a place.
Satoru almost thought you'd just trash the letter. Or that you wouldn't even get it, even though he had to bribe like five different people into figuring out your new address.
You were already sitting at the table, looking out the window at a flock of birds on the sidewalk. And god, you were even fucking prettier than the day you left him.
Hands wrapped around a coffee cup, your fourth finger no longer bearing any sign of him. Another cup was sitting across the table from you, untouched. Topped with whipped cream and syrup. His favorite.
He hadn't even realized he was smiling until he was at the table, pulling back the chair in a hurry, the legs scraping loudly against the linoleum and snapping your attention up to him.
Your face still took his breath away.
There were a few more faint lines, the circles under your eyes a little darker, cheeks fuller. But you looked happier, lighter, like leaving him had lifted some burden off your shoulders.
"Kinda been a while, huh?" He awkwardly chuckled, trying to figure out what to do with his hands. Put them in his lap? Grab the drink?
"I just ordered your usual," You swallowed hard, apparently already regretting that decision. "Do you still drink that? I probably should've waited."
"No," He answered too quickly. "It's fine. I mean, it's good."
Eager to prove it, he quickly stuck a straw through the top and sucked down more than he should've, almost getting choked up on fucking whipped cream.
But you giggled - and even after all his attempts to move on, you were still the only person that made his heart flutter like that. Skip a beat and threaten to stall if it didn't hear the sound again soon.
You covered your mouth though, muffled the last of it when he was still replaying the moment in his head.
"I missed you." He hadn't meant to start with that, but he didn't think there was anything he meant more.
"You look happy," You commented back, and he couldn't even nod. Barely breathing when you were sitting so close to him, all sweet and genuine, the real fucking thing. A candy dangling in front of his face he knew he couldn't taste.
How was he supposed to say, no, he wasn't? Not without you?
"You've, uh, got a little something," You muttered, gesturing up to the corner of his mouth.
"Mind getting it for me?" He tried to flirt, grinning and leaning over, but you flinched. Face falling as you cleared your throat and looked away.
"Gojo, I'm-"
"Stop," He interrupted, a painful cavity in his chest only getting carved deeper at the thought of just becoming Gojo to you. "It's still Satoru. We're married. Or, well, we were but-"
"I'm seeing someone," You abruptly cut him off before he could stick his foot even further in his mouth.
"Oh."
The idea of you sharing a bed, sharing a home, sharing a life with someone else made Satoru feel like jumping through the nearest window.
"There's, um, something else I should tell you," You awkwardly added. And maybe it was leftover instinct, or something he'd learned from the memories of you he managed to scrape together, but he could see how nervous you were, pick up on all the little signs, your finger tapping your cup while you chewed the inside of your cheek.
"What?" There was a hard lump in his throat, the kind you couldn't swallow or shove down, just wait and hope and pray disappeared before it suffocated you.
Hey there I want to know if you do feel like writing about it can I get a dust x reader hc or Drabble of comfort/ angst about dust dating us but still being distant and controlling in the manner of constantly shushing us and ignoring us a lot?
Maybe the second character is horror swooping in and making us feel better everytime as reader ends up falling for horror and dust gets his shit together just too late
Alright I like the idea ! First time making a request kinda nervous hehe
Also trigger warning it a toxic relationship. And if you are in the similar situation in certain aspects leave your partner , or else it would be bad for your mental healt but I’m not in y’all life in any way I can’t know how your relationship is like if y’all have a partner.
Anyway I’m talking too much just enjoy this !
-First of all I think Dust would be a great listener and actually remember what your favorite food, drink , shows or movies , pets and activity. And your plan for the day if you tell him that you have a meeting at whatever the hours or the day of it , he’s going to remember it.
-Dispite being a really observant person he won’t see your pain or sadness mostly cause he’s ignoring you a lot of time to care. Or he just ignore it.
-Dust would be embarrassed if you show your affection to him in public that he will keep rejecting the touch especially if he’s talking at someone. If you come toward him at those moment for a bit of affection like a hug or holding hand he will either pull it away either let you doing by embarrassement, he will arguing with you about this once you are both alone he won’t let you have a word on it or listen to your words and keep shushing you at every comeback you have.
-If you love physical touch he will sense it miles away from him so when you go see him for a hug he will keep his distance with a hand on your head without looking at you either , it his way to say no to your touch. He doesn’t always do that but do it a lot.
-Instead of that he won’t mind that you rest your head on his lap when watching TV. Just not when he’s busy with something else if he is he might push you away without any word or warning.
-If you going out alone or with friends if you have friends he want to know where you go and even give you a curfew, he will get mad if you come back late then the hours he gave you and give you the silent treatment for a unknow amount of time. Or if you argue about it he will cuff you to bed and not letting you go out at all. (🚩red flag it’s a toxic comportement don’t romantize it.)
-But If Dust going out alone he doesn’t tell you anything about it and doesn’t answer his phone or message and when he come back and you start to shout out on him for not telling you anything he shrush it off by telling it not a big deal.
-He’s not being distant on propose , it’s subcouscious , with his the trauma he had going through he’s scared that you will leave him or that he had to kill you someday , he tried to not get too attached but failed with it.
-About Horror , for him it doesn’t really matter how you both meet it could be through Dust or you knew Horror before Dust in the end of all he could think about your relationship with Dust is why you date this guy in the first place ? He will judge you. Silently.
-He’s not a good influence for sure but he’s not a total jerk either.
-If you’re crying he will be your shoulder to cry on and hold you if you’re about to fall apart. But he’s really awkward to recomfort people with word that he might propose you a cigarette (he doesn’t force you tho).
-If you lay on his lap he push away the locks from your face as he stroke your hair.
-He will see that you are falling for him , if it reciprocal he won’t get in any relationship with you cause he won’t date you cause he still have some sense of moral as surprising as it would be. If it wasn’t reciprocal he would embarrassed by that but will still by your side anyway.
-Horror going too confront Dust about this situation though.
My head was resting on Horror lap , it 1:00am of the morning and I only stopped crying there was 5minute. The rain pourring outside , Horror was smoking cigarette , the scent fills up my nostrils but it become comfortable. It feel like a tragic romance movie it almost funny.
More comfortable then his presences, all of this because I go out without warning him first. He…ignored me for weeks and I just leave the house too goes at the first person that pop in my mind and of course it had to be Horror , he was more present then Dust for sure and at this point I think I love him way more then Dust.
When I stand at the porch of his home he immediately let me enter and guide me to his couch , he listenned to me and didn’t interrupt my speech once , he surely listen to me more then Dust ever did anyway.
And here am I , too tired to move but too awake too sleep either. But Horror touch was soothing , slow mouvement over my scalp as He stare at nothing particulary.
Until the ring bell it attract mostly the attention of Horror , he pat my head and I lift it up for Horror to get up and check is it. I follow with my eyes Horror action , He walk toward the front door not so far away from here until he open the door. I couldn’t see who it was but I have my guess. Horror look back at me and then back at the person at the other side of the door and step outside letting me alone inside.
…
"Dust she doesn’t want to see you." Horror voice was harsh but firm. I shake my head in disbelief and almost in despair. "It can’t be-" I started but Horror cut me off "Can’t be what ? True ? Possible ? You fucked up man you can’t change what you did to her." I stay quiet to this my gaze down as I hold back my tears.
"I-I love them.." My voice almost broke into tears but I hold myself back. Horror roll his only eyes and fix back at me. "Then prove it ?" I stayed silence once again , he open his door to return back inside and slam the door behind him in the way.
I really fucked up didn’t I..? I though to myself as I stay at my spot under the rain. Until I eventually teleport away.
…
it was the morning and Horror was in the cellar while I take care of the plant on the corner of the living room until I heard a knock at the door.
I look at the front door then the door that lead to the basement , then I get up from my kneel position too see who it was.
When I open the door their was nobody but there was a basket with my favorite snack and a bouquet of diverse flower and a letter. I take the letter into my hand examining it , it was my favorite color and fold in three part. I open the letter to read it :
Meet me at 7:00pm tonight at our spot we going too that restaurant you talked me about. Im paying
There was no signature or anything that could tell who would have wrote it but I knew who. I put back the letter in the basket and take it inside , shutting to door behind me.
He actually listen..
There it is ! I spent most of my day working on this and I don’t regret it I hope you like it ! Also if y’all have advice on how I can amelioring my writting skill give it too me please so it can’t get better in the futur !
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I’m not trying to say I don’t wanna stay, I just know how this story ends.
Use my body against me - and all of our history.
I hate the way you miss me.
Summary:
Fred broke up with you. He made it clear that he was going to have a new life when he opened his shop, and he didn't need you to be a part of it. You being stuck on him was just another joke in a long line of pranks that he pulled.
And life kept on laughing at you when your fear of crippling heights was triggered by a potentially life ending mission the Order put together that had you dangling hundreds of feet over London, held up only by Fred's strength and determination.
So what does it mean when the two of you land, and he's the only thing that can stop your shaking panic? What does it mean when he's looking at you with nothing but love in his eyes, holding you tight like a lover would?
Fred Weasley x Fem!Reader. Exes to Lovers. Emotional Angst and Smut. Set during Deathly Hallows.
Word Count: 18,500
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Warnings: this is equal parts angst fic and smut fic; the reader is a cis woman - uses she/her pronouns and has a vagina; there is no mention of the reader's looks, race, hair colour, etc. in any way; this fic does use Y/N (and L/N as in Last Name); this takes place mostly during the beginning of Deathly Hallows, so there are mentions of dark topics, like death, and the cult-like following that Voldemort has developed; this is Exes to Lovers - Fred and the reader dated for a while during their time at Hogwarts and then broke up; (there is flashbacks in this fic to times during Goblet of Fire and Order of the Phoenix); the reader is half-blood - she has one parent who is a muggle and lives in a muggle city and the other parent who is loyal to death eaters (and there is a later mention of the reader's mother being killed due to anti-muggle sentiment as Voldemort becomes more powerful); there is no mention of what Hogwarts house the reader is in; the reader has a crippling fear of heights (which is a large part of the plot for this fic); mentions of nausea and vomiting (as a fear response) (no one actually throws up during the course of the fic); the reader experiences actual life-threatening danger while on a broom - she nearly falls to her death, but Fred catches her; Fred does struggle to hold the reader's body weight, so it doesn't imply that he has super-human strength or that the reader is particularly petite (I wanted his reaction to be realistic for someone of any body weight); for part of the fic, Fred is disguised as Harry using Polyjuice Potion (but there's no confusion about his identity because the reader knows he took the potion); the reader experiences a panic attack due to the life threatening fall, and Fred helps her calm down; mentions of blood and semi-graphic descriptions of George's canon injury (his ear being blasted off); there is general emotional angst from the characters being in close proximity to danger, death, and life threatening situations; Fred calls the reader 'darling' and 'love' and 'sweets' and 'pretty girl' (in sexual and non-sexual contexts).
For the actual smut section: this is not their first time together as a couple and neither of the characters are meant to be virgins; there is undertones of sub/dom dynamics - Fred is a teasing soft dom and the reader is submissive to him (and there is mentions of the reader experiencing what could be considered subspace) (but there isn't any specifically laid out roles - it's more so one person enjoying taking care of the other, especially after experiencing the emotional turmoil of a near death experience together); there is Daddy kink in this (not until a bit later into the smut section, but it just came to me and I realized it suited Fred so well) Fred calls himself Daddy and the reader is way into it; praise kink - Fred calls the reader 'good girl' specifically because he knows she likes it; lots of dirty talk (Fred has a filthy mouth); oral sex - Fred receiving (she blows him as a thank you for saving her life) (also slight ball worship); mentions of the reader 'choking' on his cock (but there is no major breathplay or breath restriction); slight spit kink (it's a messy blowjob and he loves it); teasing and brief orgasm denial (toward both parties); hair pulling (toward both parties) - not with the intention of causing pain, but to direction someone's attention and to show appreciation and affection to the person; thigh riding - she humps herself on Fred's thigh while she is still wearing clothes; penis in vagina sex; creampie kink (I'm not gonna say breeding kink, because there's no mention of procreation or getting someone pregnant, even in theory, but they are both very turned on by the idea of him cumming inside of her); this could be protected sex OR unprotected sex - he cums inside of her raw but we can all pretend that they used a magical pregnancy prevention method if you want even though it's not mentioned in the fic; cockwarming (reader doesn't let Fred pull out for a while after he cums); I think that is finally it for this fic.
A/N: This fic is titled after a song by All Time Low, which I highly recommend listening to paired with this fic. This is actually part of an idea I had for a much longer multi-chaptered Fred x Reader fic, but I kept thinking about this one moment in the fic and how much I wanted to write it - so I did. And I decided that it would make a good oneshot. And I am actually insanely proud of myself for managing to capture the same emotions in under 20k that I originally thought would take me like 50k or 100k to properly communicate. I think this is fantastic, and it's one of the best things I have written in a while - and I really hope you guys enjoy it! Especially if you like angsty, emotional, exes to lovers fics.
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Very often, you wondered when life had become so complicated.
It seemed that just yesterday, you were a bright-eyed young girl, dancing around a beautifully magical winter ball with the love of your life on your arm - and now, you were a confused woman who was terrified of how your life would end up because of a dark wizard and his cultist followers trying to overtake your world.
These days you didn’t even have that lover to comfort you through all of the confusion and dread that clouded the world around you.
You and Fred used to be perfect. That’s what a lot of people would have called the two of you - the ‘perfect’ couple.
Your story was something straight from a romance novel - the two of you were best friends when you were young, and that friendship quickly blossomed into affection. That affection naturally led into a sweet romance. When you were with him, your life was full of moments where you felt like a beautiful, flowery, desirable protagonist because of how he treated you. Your life used to be full of laughter, full of smiles, full of romantic gestures.
You and Fred were in the same year at Hogwarts, so naturally you knew each other. You weren’t really friends - at least not at first. You knew of each other, especially because you had some classes together.
But you didn’t truly meet Fred Weasley until more than halfway into your first year of classes together. You had the misfortune of accidentally running into a prank that was meant for a Slytherin Prefect - someone who had taken one too many house points off Gryffindor for the twins’ liking. And after being doused with red and gold paint and tripping over a toy rubber snake that had been charmed to hiss realistically when you got near it - you were reasonably frightened and crying, and it left you the laughing stalk of the courtyard - someone to be pointed at and mocked by everyone.
Fred hadn’t meant for it to be you. With the way he looked at you after the incident - full of guilt while everyone else pointed at you and laughed, imitating your frightening screams and attempts to jump away from the fake snake - it didn’t take you long to figure out the culprits behind it. And it didn’t take you much longer after that to plan your revenge. (Especially because, as much as Fred looked guilty, he didn’t simply come forward and apologise. Too afraid to look like a weak moron in the eyes of his brother and his other Gryffindor friends. So - on with your revenge, it was.)
You figured that all good pranksters should be due to be a victim sometimes, too. If the twins couldn’t laugh when they were on the receiving end, then they should stop playing pranks.
So you came up with something that you considered masterful. During your trip home for Christmas, back to Muggle London where your mother lived, you asked her to take you to a shop to buy a couple of greeting cards for your classmates. The ones that sing Christmas carols loudly when the hinge of the card is opened. Something clever, and not needing any magic at all.
And when you returned to Hogwarts after the break, you found a moment where the twins were distracted, and you stole their book bags in order to pull off your epic, amazing prank. You taped those singing greeters into the back of their Potions textbooks - a class that you shared with them, of course, so that you could enjoy the show. And then you waited.
You had trouble containing your laughter when Professor Snape escalated from annoyed to downright scalding angry as his class was filled with the quiet robotic hum of ‘Jingle Bells’, occasionally overlapped by ‘Santa Claus Is Coming To Town’. It was made even better by the fact that both of the twins clearly knew that the music was coming from somewhere in their surrounding area, but they had no clue what the exact source was or how to stop it. And with every snivelled demand of ‘just open your books and get to work’ - the music only started up again.
By the time they had been sentenced to detention for disturbing the class, you were nearly breathless and your ribs were aching from trying to hold back your laughter. Which, of course, meant that Fred easily spotted you out of everyone else - who looked equally confused or annoyed with the low hum of the music. And as soon as the class ended, he brought his textbook to you, thanked you for the worthy prank, and asked you how to stop it. He looked entirely amused and impressed when you pulled the tiny device out of the back, and proceeded to ask you a million questions about it.
You weren’t surprised when the next week, the annoying singing greeter ended up inside the teacher’s copy of the textbook on McGonagall’s desk.
From that moment on, his crush on you steeped inside of him like a fine tea, developing from an innocent adolescent attraction to full-blown, ‘drive you crazy’, ‘I would do anything for you’, love. It was lucky for him that you easily felt the same way.
Through the years of being by his side, becoming his best friend, pulling pranks together and trying desperately to get him to study - it was difficult not to fall for Fred Weasley.
You had been overjoyed when Fred invited you to the Quidditch World Cup. Even though you weren’t the biggest fan of Quidditch (and Fred knew that). The only reason you had started attending the games at Hogwarts was because he joined the team. And you only bothered to attend the games he played in, so your bias could be spotted from a mile away. But in his letter, with the ticket to the World Cup slotted into the envelope, he told you that it was ‘the game of the century’ and you ‘simply couldn’t miss it’.
You wouldn’t miss out on spending time with him, so you eagerly agreed to go.
This left you with only one glaring problem.
You had a crippling fear of heights.
It was one of the reasons that you never really gotten into Quidditch in the first place. You had absolutely no interest in playing, and even less interest in watching if Fred wasn’t involved. The idea of even flying on a broom being something that made you nauseated and shaky just from thinking about it.
The mandatory first year flying lesson was the only class at Hogwarts that you ever failed, but Madame Hooch took pity on you when she saw you crying and fisting the grass after only getting your broom about five inches off the ground. So she passed you anyway - just barely.
When you set out to watch Fred’s games at Hogwarts, you usually had to take some kind of anti-nausea tonic beforehand to make sure that you didn’t puke all over everyone else in the stands. And you usually couldn’t even make it up to your seat to watch unless one of your good friends held your hand. But you were alright once the actual game started, because watching Fred doing something he loved was a good distraction from just how high up you were.
Telling Fred about your intense fear had been one of the most honest, vulnerable moments that you ever had with him. Your friendship was usually all pranks and laughter, which you loved.
But one summer day, when you were hanging out with the Weasleys, they wouldn’t stop nagging you to join one of their family Quidditch matches because they needed an extra player to make the teams even. And after the twins’ endless teasing, saying that you were ‘afraid to lose’ or that you would be ‘too distracted by their daring good looks’ in order to play properly, you broke down crying and stormed off into the woods, because you were too anxious to admit the real reason that you couldn’t play.
Fred was the one who found you off in the trees behind the Burrow, tears still streaming down your face, and asked you what he had done to so greatly upset you. He had been terrified at the idea of making you upset, so hurt that he had been the one to make you cry. And after he found out about your fear, he didn’t laugh or mock you for it or play it off as something stupid like you thought would be so typical of him. No - instead, he wrapped a comforting arm around your shoulders and he told you that he was genuinely sorry. And he promised that he would never invite you to play Quidditch again.
When you had accepted the invitation to The World Cup, you had forgotten how much your fear of heights played into watching Quidditch as well. The giant, impossibly tall temporary Quidditch stadium that had been set up for the event had been looming over you all day, but you didn’t want to quit and go home because of some silly little fear.
You wanted to spend the time with your friends. You wanted to enjoy the event because the people you loved most were having fun there. So you pressed on, ignoring the inevitable, letting yourself get caught up in the pregame revelry. You walked around the seemingly endless campgrounds with Fred and George, in awe of all the decorations and the different wizards from all over the world, showing off things from their homes. You chatted and charmed along with them as they collected bets before the game. You let Fred paint your face with large, ugly shamrocks because even though you didn’t entirely care about the teams or fully know them, you were rooting for Ireland to win simply because he was.
But the unavoidable nature of your problem became very apparent as Arthur guided everyone to your seats, and you climbed up more stairs, and more stairs, and more stairs - and the higher up you got, the more you found yourself shaking, especially when you looked down to the ground and saw that the people down there looked like little more than bugs. You hated it when your mind, naturally, went to what would happen to you if you stumbled over the railing and fell down all that way. You would splat on the ground, squashed like a bug. You would die within seconds.
You held on tighter to Fred’s hand - he would have said that he had grabbed your hand in the first place so that he wouldn’t lose you among the bustling crowd, and not simply as an excuse to be closer to you. You didn’t even realise how badly you were trembling in his touch as you looked over the railing (still a few flights down from your final seats) with intense apprehension.
“You alright?” Fred asked you simply.
“‘m fine.” You mumbled out the lie, giving him a large, forced smile - hoping that he would believe it.
You knew that if you told him how you were feeling, he would insist on escorting you back to the tent. Perhaps he would even insist on staying with you so that you wouldn’t have to be alone. So he might miss out on a once in a lifetime Quidditch game all because you had a bit of petty anxiety from being so high up.
So you tried your best to push down all your feelings and ignore them, even if it was making you shake and making your stomach churn. When you got to the top, peering over the edge of the railing of the very, very high up seats that Arthur had gotten as a thanks for his work on helping to organise the whole thing (apparently, the higher up the better to actually see the game), you felt an incredible sense of dizziness, and began swaying on your feet.
This was so much higher up than the Quidditch stands at Hogwarts.
Naturally, Fred noticed. It wasn’t something he would easily admit, or even something he did consciously, but he always kept an eye on you. Partially due to a knack for admiring your beauty, that adolescent love-struck feeling always making him more prone to staring at you. But it was also partially due to the fact that he felt a need to watch over you. Whether it be as a friend or as something else, he always wanted you to be safe, and happy.
And right now, your sickly, terrified face stood out like a sore thumb among the crowd of excited, cheering fans.
“Y/N,”
He called out your name in a serious tone that was so uncharacteristic of Fred, something that snapped your attention from staring anxiously at the ground toward him immediately. He cemented your attention on him when he put a hand on top of your tight, tense knuckles on the railing. His touch was warm, as always, and oddly grounding, removing even just a slight bit of that dizzying anxiety that you were feeling.
“Do you wanna go back down? I can bring you back to the tent,”
Of course. Just as you had predicted.
“No.” You easily answered, shaking your head furiously, biting your lip. “I-”
You didn’t want him missing out on such an important event because of you, but more importantly:
“I - I don’t want to be afraid.” You heaved out, your chest tight with anxiety. “It’s stupid - people do stuff like this all the time, right? I shouldn’t be afraid-”
“It’s not stupid.” He said firmly, quickly squashing down any self-belittling that you might be tempted to do. “You can’t control how you feel.”
Coming from him, it sounded like the most firm truth ever.
“If you want to stay, I’ll be right here with you.” Fred added on, giving you a warm, reassuring grin. “But just let me know if you want to go back down, and I’ll walk with you, alright?”
You nodded, hating that even though his words gave you that nip of courage you needed, you were still pulsing with a dull panic. The undeniable reaction that fear caused in your body.
Fred hated seeing you shaking, hated the deep frown that cut through your beautiful features - so what he did next was instinctive. He took his hand off yours and reached that arm, the one closest to you, around your back, planting his hand firmly on the railing at the other side of your waist. This trapped you in a close-knit hold beside him, something that made you feel instantly more secure - even if it was just from the warmth of him at your side.
“I’m not gonna let you fall, yeah?” He said quietly, leaning closer into your ear to be heard - the warmth of the reassurance causing gentle tingles down your spine. “I would never let anything happen to you, darling.”
Between the intense loving safety that he words wrapped you in with the sweet nickname he added on, and the firm cradle of his arm around your back, you knew that you would have no problem sticking it out for the game. But your brain was still trying to cope, your anxiety so incredibly nagging, and you couldn’t help it when your eyes drifted back to focus on the ant-like people on the ground, becoming shaking and nauseous all too soon from staring downward.
“Down look down.” Fred scolded you gently, using his other hand to grab your chin, forcing your gaze back up - it ended with your eyes locked with his, admiring the way the breeze blew his too-long ginger hair into his eyes. “Just look at me, alright? It’s gonna be far worse if you keep starin’ down there. Just look at me, love.”
“Just look at you.” You repeated in a quiet mumble, already so utterly locked in the powerful orbit of his gaze, feeling like it was near impossible to look away from him.
You felt his forehead brush against yours before you realised just how close he had gotten. But you couldn’t bring yourself to mind.
And ultimately, feeling the stands shaking beneath your feet as a particularly hard gust of wind came through and having another swell of anxiety rush through you was what drove you to closing the gap, sealing your lips on his in your first kiss. Fred made you brave, almost stupidly so, and you hoped that you had finally used that bravery for something good in capturing his lips. (Rather than the stupid mischief that the two of you usually got up to.)
Fred smiled into the kiss and George cheered loudly behind him - you thought it was due to the game starting, and when you pulled back sharply to look around for the players, you were met with nearly all eyes in the group on you, clearly gawking at the fact that you and Fred had kissed.
This included Ginny smirking almost evilly before she said:
“Finally. I thought the two of you were never gonna get on with it.”
This left you squirming with a mild embarrassment, and definitely not thinking about how high up you were anymore.
Looking back, the memory was painful - not sweet or fond as it had once been to you.
But it wasn’t nearly as painful as the memory of the day you and Fred had broken up.
He had asked you to be his girlfriend officially only a few days after the World Cup. He wanted you to know what that kiss meant to him, and he wanted the privilege of more kisses from you, on top of the ‘honour’ (his exact wording) of going back to Hogwarts with you on his arm as his girlfriend, making all the other boys in your year ‘pathetically jealous’. Of course, it was everything you wanted, he was everything you wanted, so you said yes.
The two of you dated for nearly two full happy years - right through your sixth year and into your seventh, until in April of your seventh year, shortly after Fred’s birthday, when everything came crashing down around you.
It wasn’t unusual of Fred to pull you away after a class - his hand in yours, igniting fluttery giggles from your lungs as he pulled you down the corridors to whatever secret little spot he had picked out. Even with Umbridge at Hogwarts, implementing more rules and cracking down on ‘fraternisation’ between students, you and Fred still found ways to sneak off to have your private little moments together.
So when Fred took you off to one of those private corners on chilly spring afternoon, you assumed that this was no different. You fell into the natural rhythm of pinning him against a wall, sealing your lips firmly to his in a kiss and waiting for his hand to sneak up your skirt while his tongue ventured into your mouth. You were shocked when this time, he didn’t kiss you back. He was limp and unreceptive against you, and that was when you realised that you had read the tone of the interaction very wrong - even if him dragging you away by the hand always led to making out in a quiet corner, and more than a bit of groping.
You pulled back, looking at him with confusion and disappointment plainly across your face.
“What’s wrong, Freddie?” You asked, well in the habit of using the nickname for him.
Fred’s expression was filled with sullen dread, and it made your stomach twist. It truly made you fearful of whatever he was going to say next, and you took a step back from him, widening the gap between the two of you in the dusty, draughty old stairwell. You suddenly felt too cold, even with your uniform sweater and thick robes on, and wrapped your arms around yourself to compensate.
“There’s something I have to tell you.” He announced quietly, continuing to lean on the wall that you had pressed him up against, staring at the floor, his eyes unwilling to meet you.
What? Had he cheated on you? Did he want to break up?
What terrible thing could possibly make this bright, funny joker so damn sad and serious?
“What is it?” You asked, filling with dread, your throat tightening up more by the second.
“George and I have decided that it’s about time we take our leave.” Fred announced, his eyes only flickering to you for a moment, looking for some kind of reaction. You were only further confused, and waited for him to explain. “The lease for the shop in Diagon Alley finally came through, and-”
“Well that’s great news, Fred.” You said, trying to sound happy and upbeat beyond the tension that was still tight in your chest. You had no clue why he was so downtrodden - the joke shop was his dream, and now that they had secured a location for it, that dream was coming true.
He heaved a sigh, his eyes turning to gaze out a nearby window for a moment before he turned back to you.
“It means we have to leave, darling.” He said sharply.
Your insides became heavy.
You knew it was a very Fred and George thing - so intent on not doing their exams, desperate to escape any further academics. You wanted to ask why they wouldn’t stay until the end of the school year, but you knew that you would get answers about how they didn’t need marks from exams that they were likely going to fail anyway to run a shop that they now owned.
It was something founded on their own talents and ideas, and they didn’t need the approval of professors marking them wrong or right in order to do it.
It was the life they had always dreamed of. And you were intensely proud of them for it.
So why did you still have that overwhelming feeling of dread?
“So - when are we leaving?” You asked, trying to sound confident and firm in your words even though you knew what was likely coming next.
You felt intensely disappointed when the all too predictable outcome smashed you in the face.
“You’re not coming with us.” Fred said quietly.
“Why not?” You argued gently.
You would drop everything and go with them - you felt far more emotional attachment to being with Fred than you did to finishing your year at Hogwarts. You knew that you could be a useful hand around the shop. Any venture helping Fred would be a worthy one to you. But staring you down were the calculating eyes of someone who had been telling you over the past years how much he didn’t want to disrupt your studies with his antics, because he thought you had a ‘brilliant mind’, and you were ‘so much smarter’ than him and George.
He thought that you could actually pull some decent - no, brilliant grades on your NEWTs and truly make something of yourself. The shop was a big dream of his and George’s, but Fred knew that you were destined for something so much greater that truly challenged and fully utilised your brilliance. So he wasn’t going to let you be dragged down to mediocrity by him.
Realising this, part of you still ached. Why was he so intent on leaving if it meant leaving you behind?
“Please don’t be stupid-” Fred sighed, rolling his eyes.
“Oh, so I’m stupid now?” You scoffed.
He hadn’t meant to let the harsh word leave his lips - at least, he hadn’t meant it in such a harsh way.
“Y/N-” Fred used your actual name, something he rarely did, but you barreled right over whatever he was going to say with your next words.
You were hurting now, and you didn’t entirely care what he had to say.
“If I’m so stupid, then why should I even bother to stay here and take my NEWTs?” You hissed, twisting around his accidental slip into something he had never meant. “Or am I too stupid to even work at a silly little joke shop with you?”
Fred scowled deeply. It didn’t suit him.
“Y/N, this ‘silly little joke shop’ has been my dream since I was five years old!” He barked, now taking your heat of the moment words and running away with them. “You don’t-”
“I guess I was stupid enough to believe that I was part of that dream!” You cried out in return, cutting off his words once again.
‘You are.’ He choked down the words. ‘But I can’t bear to bring you down just because I want to be with you. I could never be so selfish.’
“I-” He choked on whatever he was going to say, swallowing it down. “I can’t do this right now.”
He moved to storm off completely, hoping to speak with you later when you both had calmed down, hoping to have a proper, happy goodbye with you before he and George actually left.
But your next words made him freeze on the spot, and wiped away all of those hopes within him.
“Fred Weasley, if you walk away, we’re done.” You said, now choking on tears.
You were utterly insulted that he wouldn’t even fight for you - that he wouldn’t even promise that his heart would be waiting for you after you graduated. To you, it was a sure sign that he was saying that his shop was more important to him than you were. That you were just some stupid schoolgirl fling to him; that along with the shop, he wanted to move on to other women, to find someone that he actually wanted to marry.
You had never been a part of the dream he had for his life - you had just been a passing fancy in his eye.
For Fred, it was all too painful. This was the conversation he had been utterly dreading since he and George had decided to take their leave, and it was going far worse than he had planned in his head. He couldn’t face the pain - he couldn’t face hurting you. He couldn’t face missing you, even during a few short months apart before you did graduate.
So he then did something so terribly stupid, looking to bomb the relationship wide open - hoping to end all of the pain before it even started.
“Good.” He said, barely turning his head to even look over his shoulder at you. “Would’ve been a waste of parchment writing to you, anyway.”
With those final, painful words, he stomped off down the stairs, leaving you to collapse against one of the nearby walls in a puddle of tears - for the first time in a long time, without Fred to muffle your sobs in a comforting hug.
You hadn’t been there to watch him and George ride off on their brooms when they finally gave Umbridge everything she deserved - you had been locked in your dorm, sobbing into your pillow because of that horrible, relationship ending fight. You had only heard from other people later that they had left Hogwarts in a blaze of glory, and you were the only person who knew for certain where they had gone and what their plans were now.
You hated to admit it - but you missed Fred Weasley.
You tried your hardest to get over him. You threw yourself into your studies, and you did pass your NEWTs with some of the highest marks in your class. But then, any thought of what potential career you might take on was tossed aside when the world went into upheaval at the hands of Death Eaters. And unintentionally, you were right back at Fred’s side again.
It was a dreadful thing - being forced to see your ex on such a frequent basis.
The last time being just a few short days ago when he had come into the Apothecary that you worked at in Diagon Alley, looking for some ingredients for a new WWW product that he wanted to make a test batch of. You had still spent last Christmas with his family, at the nagging insistence of Molly. After your mother had turned up dead and your father was missing, and you had to face the fact that he had likely defected to the Death Eaters out of fear (and the stupidity of his ingrained ‘old ways’), you didn’t really have any other family to turn to, aside from the Weasleys.
You saw Fred a lot more often than you should - more often than you wanted to, in fact. Because the more often you had to see him walk into your shop with a grin on his face and bear the small talk he would force you into before he finally put in his order, the more you ached. You wanted nothing more than to be able to get away - to go someplace far away that Fred would never find you, so that you could finally heal, could finally get over the way he had broken your heart.
But the country, and likely the state of all Wizardkind, was in upheaval. So many lives were at risk, and you had your part to play. You had signed on to become a member of the Order the minute you turned seventeen, and you weren’t prepared to shirk that commitment now, just because of a bit of girlish heartbreak.
It was the reason that you were standing in the now empty residence of Number Four, Privet Drive. You had been called upon last minute to replace Tonks on this particular mission, for reasons that everyone seemed tight lipped about. But you weren’t going to question it - you were just going to step up and do your duty so that Harry could be transported safely, and hopefully go on to defeat the Dark Lord once and for all.
According to Mad-Eye Moody, it was all very straight forward. Six of the fourteen members of the group would take Polyjuice Potion to turn themselves into decoy versions of Harry, making for seven Harrys in total, and the other half of the group would pair off with a Harry each to be their escort.
You weren’t a huge fan of the idea of Fred disguising himself as Harry, essentially putting a huge target on his back - but the plan had already been set in place. He had already agreed to it. There was no room for you to protest now.
“We’re not a big fan of the idea either, mate.” George spoke up when Harry protested against the idea of people risking their lives by being disguised as him.
“Yeah, imagine something went wrong, then we’d be stuck as a scrawny, specky git forever.” Fred added on with his usual humorous tone.
You held back a laugh at this comment, and everyone in the room eyed you harshly as you choked on your own breath. Fred smirked, proud that after all this time, he could still draw a laugh out of you.
Your sense of humour about the whole situation was soon stamped out when Mad-Eye mentioned brooms. The group would have to be flying because Harry couldn’t apparate or use any other common form of transport without the Ministry knowing.
“Brooms?” You questioned, knowing that your tone sounded far too panicked. “We - we’re flying?”
“Yes.” Mad-Eye snipped curtly in return. “What exactly about my explanation was unclear, Ms. L/N?”
His sharp tone and his glare in your direction, along with his use of your surname, instantly transported you back you Defense Against the Darks Arts classes in your sixth year, when you had been intimidated by the man - even if, strangely enough, you hadn’t been taught by the same man who now stood before you.
You swallowed tightly, a large lump forming in your throat already - an involuntary, wicked reaction overtaking your body because of your fear of heights. Fred looked at you with sad knowing in his eyes, and you didn’t notice when he clenched his fists tightly at his sides, resisting the urge to swaddle you in a comforting hold.
“Nothing was unclear, just-” You stuttered, breathing in deeply, trying to calm yourself. “I don’t have much experience with flying, and-”
“Weasley - er - Fred, has already informed me of that.” Mad-Eye said, correcting himself when he realised just how many ‘Weasleys’ were on this mission and how utterly confusing that would get. “He’s insisted on taking you due to your lack of experience. Is that all?”
Obviously, you didn’t want to publicly admit to your fear. You couldn’t reveal it as the terrible weakness that it was, especially not when there were so many other worries at play.
“Yes, it’s fine.” You said, nodding, trying to keep the conversation short and keep the attention off you.
“Good. Now if we’re all done dawdling, we need to get to work.”
It was downright strange seeing Fred transformed into Harry.
Even complete with the dorky clothes and the glasses, you still easily spotted him out of the crowd of ‘specky gits’. Maybe it was the years of practice that you had telling him apart from George that made it so easy for you, but he was still so irritably Fred. The fact that he slid his wand into his back pocket - something you had warned him dozens of times would likely result in the wand crunching in half and breaking when he sat down (and annoyed you to the point of you snatching it out of his back pocket to save it, especially before he sat down). The way he reached up to scratch his nose, the smirk on his face when he kept glancing over at the other Harry you were sure had to be George. Especially with the way they were steadily side-eyeing each other, speaking volumes with their looks and having a silent conversation that nobody else knew of.
The fact that his eyes kept flickering to you every few moments definitely helped you to pick him out of the crowd. Even though you were used to a gentle hazel gazing at you rather than that piercing blue, there was still a unique concern behind his eyes when he looked at you from beyond those spectacles - the same kind of gentle seriousness that you hadn’t really seen from him since he had held your shaking hand on the stairs of the stands on the day of The World Cup.
Stupidly, it only really occurred to you how close you would have to be with Fred, tightly riding behind him on the back of his broom, when you went outside and he ushered you to climb onto the back of his broom behind him. It had been a little over a year since you had broken up with Fred, and since then, you had not touched him.
Every greeting had been friendly, but from a distance. Even when he came into the Apothecary and laid his hand on the counter, you snaked out of the way in time to avoid his fingers so much as brushing by yours. You always laid his order on the counter for him to pick it up himself, so that his fingers wouldn’t accidentally brush against yours. You made sure never to have contact with him. And now, you were being forced to climb onto the back of his broom, to hold him tight.
But you couldn’t protest. You couldn’t demand to switch partners now because of some petty angst you were harbouring about a break-up that had happened so long ago. (Would you call it angst, or stupid, longing, painful heartbreak?) You couldn’t complain - not when this was about transporting Harry safely. This was about something so much bigger.
Sure, it wouldn’t be exactly the same as holding onto your Fred (not that he was yours anymore - you had to remember that). He was Harry-Fred right now, so he was much shorter and thinner, and you could easily pretend that he wasn’t Fred at all. Which is what you forced yourself to think about as you swung a shaking leg over the broom and climbed on, wrapping your arms around his waist, preparing for take-off.
It was a bit harder to pretend that this wasn’t Fred when you caught the faintest whiff of his expensive cologne (something he had only started wearing once the shop took off, something you noticed on him for the first time when he came to visit you at the Apothecary). It was definitely still lingering on his skin, something that was so painfully Fred even while you stared at the back of Harry’s wild black hair.
It pierced your heart a little bit more when he peered over his shoulder at you, striking you as so Fred with those somehow warm, caring blue eyes and gently asking:
“Good?”
To which you replied:
“m fine.”
The most terrible lie you had ever conjured - something that was soon covered up by Mad-Eye shouting some last minute instructions and waving everyone off.
When Fred kicked off the ground, you were immediately met with the most sickening wave of nausea that you had ever experienced in your life. You got way too high up for your liking within seconds, the houses on the ground growing far too small in your view, and you couldn’t fight the urge to shut your eyes.
Unfortunately, it only made you dizzier, but it calmed your nerves a slight bit. You didn’t even realise how tightly you were clutching onto Fred, an utter death grip around his waist, until you heard him let out a grunt of pain from his stomach muscles being strangled by your arms with your fingers digging into him like claws, holding on for dear life.
“S-sorry.” You stuttered out, shivering from the pure fear of it all, rather than the cool breeze that was whipping at your face. “Sorry, sorry!”
“I’m sorry!” Fred replied - it was still strange hearing him speak in Harry’s voice, and you were glad that it was temporary. “I should have told them you weren’t up to this mission, I-”
“I’m fine!” You barked back, hating the idea that your fear would make you unfit for a mission. But in a sense, you knew it was true. You would have spit in the face of any Death Eater, but your fear of heights was so utterly crippling. “Fred, don’t you dare for a moment suggest-”
“We’ve been breached!” You heard someone - Arthur’s voice, shouting from up ahead.
Your eyes whipped open and suddenly, you were filled with an entirely different kind of fear. Smoky black clouds of Death Eaters whipped through the sky around you - somehow, they had discovered the plan. And now, they were targeting all of the fake Harrys, firing off curses in every direction, looking for the real one.
They were targeting Fred.
That was the only thing at the forefront of your mind - they were going to hurt Fred.
“Y/N-?”
“Just get us out of here!” You told him. “I’ll cover you!”
You knew that you couldn’t close your eyes now. Of course you would step up to protect him. No matter if the two of you were lovers, friends, or something estranged - you still loved him in your heart, and you would protect him no matter what.
You grabbed your wand out of your jacket and gripped it stiffly, firing a stunning curse at the first silver mask you saw, still tightly gripping onto Fred’s jacket with your other hand. He used both his hands on the broom, gripping tighter with his legs to steer better, years of Quidditch honed skill coming in handy. His ability to be calm and fly mindfully while Bludgers were flying at his head made him a lot calmer with multiple Death Eaters firing potentially deadly curses all around him. In the back of his mind, he thought that Wood would be proud.
You were still shaking horribly, and a few of your spells didn’t land on the first try, but you kept trying. You centred yourself, remembering what you were doing, who you were here for. In your mind, it wasn’t about Harry, it was never about Harry - it was about Fred. It was because Fred had approached you about the last minute replacement, it was because Fred was the one on the broom in front of you, the one you would have died to protect.
You didn’t see when someone Apparated in a thick cloud of black smoke behind you, and raised their wand in your direction, hitting you squarely in the back with a heavy jinx. It was the force of a brick wall smacking you, something that sent you and Fred tumbling end over end through the sky and sent you flying cleanly off the broom because you didn’t have the instinct to grip the wood with your thighs like he did.
You let out a shrill scream as you felt yourself falling, your worst fear coming to life.
Thankfully, Fred was quicker than gravity - quicker than death.
He laser focused on you, and suddenly, everyone else was gone. All the supposed danger, all the Death Eaters - even other members of the Order who might have needed his help - they all vanished in his eyes.
It was only you.
He turned the broom into a deadly nose dive, racing down toward you, reaching with his hand out, and in seconds, while you were still hundreds of feet off the ground - he snatched you. He had your wrist gripped so tightly in his hand - slightly sweaty, already slipping. But he wouldn’t have let go of you if Lord Voldemort himself commanded it.
He likely would have died with that tight grip still around your wrist in those moments if someone had hit him with the killing curse.
He slowed the broom down, turning up out of the dive, intent to get you away from the fight, driving forward. Scarily, his arm muscles were already shaking from holding up all of your body weight.
You stared up at him with tears of pure terror dancing in your eyes, and though he was wearing the mask of The Chosen One - in those moments, the terrified, caring, loving eyes of your Fred were staring right back at you.
As much as you trusted him, you felt yourself slipping out of his grip, and more fear swelled inside of you.
“Freddie, help me!” You screamed, shaking, flailing under his grip, trying to reach your other arm up to help as he struggled to hold onto you. “Freddie, please, I don’t wanna die!”
“I’m not gonna let you die!” He replied, desperation gripping his throat. “Just - look at me. Don’t look down.”
Of course, you were distinctly reminded of that day at The World Cup. And somehow, you felt the same sense of safety with him now that you did then - even if you didn’t have the railing or even the gravity of something under your feet.
His muscles shook harder, and he knew that he wouldn’t be able to hold onto you for much longer.
He had to pull you up.
“I’ve got you.” Fred huffed, straining with the effort. “I’ve got you-”
He tried pulling you up, but his muscles shook harder in protest, and he let out a harsh, murderous scream of frustration. And then he did the only thing that he could think to do. He gripped onto you tighter, and he used his legs and his other hand to do a sickeningly sharp barrel roll, twisting the broom completely around by leaning with his right shoulder. He flipped the entire broom with the hopes that you would get the chance to be flipped back onto it safely.
Luckily, even though you let out another terrified scream, you got the hint and hooked your leg around the wood mid-air, holstering your shaking body back behind him. You gripped onto Fred even tighter then, and one glance around told you that luckily, or unluckily, the fight had cleared off from around the two of you.
Perhaps they had heard you call this imposter Harry by the name ‘Fred’, perhaps you had given the real Harry away and ruined the whole plan. As you squeezed your eyes shut again and shoved your now tearful face into Fred’s back, selfishly, you couldn’t bring yourself to truly care.
The rest of the trip went on too long for your liking - you were still crawling with anxiety and eager to have your feet back on the ground.
Toward the end of it, you felt Harry-Fred’s body shift back into the tall, more muscular form that you were familiar with (somehow a bit more muscular than you remembered, but you tried not to get caught up on that detail). You were more than relieved when you felt your feet brushing against the ground with the landing. Distantly, you heard the familiar, comfortingly worried baulking of Molly’s voice, and you opened your eyes to see that Fred’s head was much higher up than it had been before, and his hair was thankfully returned back to its bright red state.
Molly rushed over to Fred, and there was some conversation, but you couldn’t make it out - blood was thumping in your ears, your body still overtaken by all the horrible symptoms of your fear. The moment that Fred dropped the broom in order to step away from it, you stumbled off into the grass on weak legs.
You hardly realised that you were hyperventilating - you simply felt dizzy, felt your chest aching from the lack of breath; you noticed that your vision was blurred with tears, and you knew that you weren’t getting enough oxygen. You pressed now muddy hands to your face in desperation, trying to usher more air past your lips, and it was then that a streak of orange fell into your view as Fred dropped to his knees in front of you. He had heard you gasping, and of course, rushed to you with nothing more than concern flooding his system once again.
“Hey, hey, look at me.” He murmured, trying his best not to panic himself at seeing you like this - he gently took a hold of your face, guiding your vision toward him. “Look at me. You’re alright now. You’re safe.”
Of course you knew that. You knew that you would always be safe with Fred.
But your body hadn’t even registered the fact that you had landed yet - the panic only now fully setting in, bringing with it the most cruel, shocking symptoms you had ever experienced. You did the only thing you could think of - the only thing that would truly make you feel safe. Something you knew would truly ground you after experiencing such chaos so high up in the air.
You launched yourself toward Fred, pressing your face into his chest, wrapping your arms tightly around his waist in a firm hug as you tried to stifle down sobs. He easily accepted this, his thick arms coming to cradle your back, selfishly thankful to have you back in his arms. He gently rocked you back and forth as he peppered more soothing words beside your ear.
“You’re alright now, darling.” He said, letting the pet name slip so easily that it frightened him. He rubbed a hand up and down your back, feeling your gasping panic all too quickly soothe away under the firm warmth of his touch. “You’re alright.”
Almost instinctively, he laid a kiss on your temple, not entirely realising that this wasn’t necessarily something an ex-boyfriend would do - he was so ripe with the urge to comfort you, the need to make your pain go away. He couldn’t help but take a little something selfish as the empathetic waves of your panic echoed over to him.
“I was never gonna let you fall.” He whispered, almost speaking these words to himself - a sacred promise.
He had regretted every day since the break-up, and even if he couldn’t be your lover, he was never going to let you get hurt.
You gripped him tighter, your breathing almost back to normal now, and you pushed your face tighter into his chest, relishing in the firm warmth of his body against you. This was something you hadn’t felt in far too long. Fred placed another kiss on the top of your head. He was about to say something entirely dangerous when another bit of chaos came tumbling through the garden, distracting him away from you and causing the words to die off in his throat.
Remus, hauling George across the grass - and George, slumped over, a massive amount of blood dripping down the side of his head.
“Georgie.” Fred gasped quietly.
Your head whipped around at this, and in sync, you and Fred scrambled to your feet, rushing to see what had happened to him. Fred lifted George’s other arm to help get him inside and safely rested him on the couch.
It was a horror show.
The flesh of George’s ear had been blown to bits, blood smearing down across his face and spilling down the side of his neck; he was sickly pale and barely conscious. His eyes only flickered, giving you some sense of life in him when Fred called out his name after making sure he was resting comfortably on the couch.
“Georgie?”
There was a rare quiver in Fred’s voice that made your stomach quake. Fear. You were not accustomed to hearing Fred fearful, not of anything. Even when he had abandoned Hogwarts and dove into a career as a shop owner without a single clue if he would find success, he did so without a single bit of fear in his heart.
But of course - seeing his dear brother like this, knowing that someone he loved had been so close to danger - it made him terrified.
“Hey, Fred.” George croaked back weakly.
At least he was conscious enough to speak. That gave you quite a bit of relief.
“How’re ya feeling?” Fred asked.
“Saint-like.” George replied, a tired smirk gracing his lips that told you he was forming a joke - something that was utterly hilarious in his mind that would only make sense to others when he delivered the punch line.
You wanted to sob, you wanted to laugh, you wanted to scream. Of course he would be making jokes only moments after nearly being killed.
“Come again?” Fred said quietly, tentatively.
Perhaps it sounded partially dangerous to him like it did to you. Perhaps George felt Saint-like because he was too close to death.
Both of you and Fred held your breath as you waited for the reply.
“Saint-like.” George grinned. And then he lifted a tired hand and gestured toward the bloody hole on the side of his head before he delivered his glowing punchline. “I’m holy. I’m holy, Fred. Get it?”
Fred grinned, and you let out a gasping chuckle that you knew was mostly tears. Behind you, Molly inhaled sharply through her teeth, running a hand over her forehead with the stress, and Ginny shook her head as she exhaled an exhausted sigh.
“The whole wide world of ear related humour, and you go for ‘I’m holy’?” Fred replied, unable to resist humouring George. “That’s pathetic.”
You knew that if either of them knew anything about the story of the Muggle painter Van Gogh, then they would have been making jokes in that lane.
“Reckon I’m still better looking than you.” George added on tiredly.
“You were always better looking than him.” You said, your voice throttled by tears, unable to resist.
When you turned around to retreat, you saw Ginny clutching onto Molly, clearly hiding tears in her mother’s shoulder, Molly’s face dancing with a kind of sadness you had never seen before. You knew you couldn’t run from your pain. You had known the Weasleys for so long, loved them too much. You had a distinct kind of duty here.
“Molly, do you have a cauldron around?” You asked, hating how choked with tears your voice was. “I can whip-up something for his pain. I do it at the shop all the time. And a Sleeping Draught, so he can get some rest.”
It was true - one of your many duties working at the Apothecary was making and bottling simple, common potions to sell (pregnancy test potions, simple multi-use pain potions, Dreamless Sleep Draughts, cures for warts and other common rashes) - many people liked the convenience of coming in and buying a potion for everyday uses rather than having to make it themselves.
“There’s no need-” George began to protest, but Fred easily cut him off.
“Come off it.” Fred hissed toward his brother, not taking kindly to ‘selfless’ idea of George not accepting something for the pain he was clearly in. Then, Fred rose up from his place beside George and turned to you with a look of intense concern on his features. “Whatever you need.”
…
You had barely begun to set up everything you needed for the brewing when the others finally came in, bringing more chaos with them. Remus accused Harry of being an imposter, which was quickly proven false. Apparently the Order had been betrayed, which explained the presence of Death Eaters on the mission so easily. They had used inside information to know when Harry was being transported - it was only luck that they had been thrown off by the Polyjuice Potion, having to chase down multiple Harrys and not knowing which one was real (even if George got gravely injured in the process).
Mad-Eye had been killed.
You weren’t sure if what you felt was mourning for the man. You hadn’t known him all that well. Not the true version of him, anyway. You continued to weep quietly as you worked on the potions, but you knew it wasn’t specifically for him. His death only served to remind you how truly dangerous the mission had been - how close you, Fred, and George, and the others had all come to death. How lucky it was that nobody else had been killed.
You tried not to let the suffocating gloom that had overtaken the Burrow due to the near failure of the entire mission disrupt the process of making the potions needed for George. When Molly didn’t have some of the ingredients that you needed, you gave Fred your spare key to the Apothecary and he popped over to get them for you. Mr. Michaelchuk, who ran the place, had always told you to ‘take what you needed’, and this was the one time you had actually taken him up on the offer.
When Fred returned, he fussed at George’s side, helping him change into pyjamas (when everyone else had cleared out) and tucking him in comfortably to a makeshift bed on the couch, with lots of pillows and extra cosy blankets, to the point where he got annoyed with Fred coddling him. You always knew that the two were good friends in addition to being brothers, as close as two people can be, but you had never seen so much abundant affection between them. It was sweet.
Molly came back downstairs wearing a plaid dressing gown, with a pair of tiny reading glasses balanced on her nose, her slippers scuffing along the floor. She mentioned that Arthur was already ‘snoring away’ - but of course, she had no intentions of going to bed herself. Because of course, if George was down here on the couch, it was so that she could watch over him while she busied herself with knitting - much like she had when Arthur had been on the ward at St. Mungo’s after he had been attacked by the snake. You had gotten a particularly nice jumper for Christmas that year, one that you still wore often when it got particularly cold outside.
Fred had settled to sit on the couch by George’s feet, and the two had fallen into a hushed conversation, though you didn’t hear most of it. And of course, it wasn’t long before Molly rushed Fred off to bed, just like she had done with everyone else, wanting to give George the space to rest without distractions from visitors.
“-just get her back, you idiot.” You hear George hiss in a whisper before Molly pushed Fred toward the stairs.
He couldn’t possibly be talking about…?
No.
No, he wasn’t.
You didn’t think about it. Instead, you let yourself get lost in the meditative process of brewing, making sure that the potions were perfect. You made sure that George was pain-free and lost to a deep, restful, healing sleep (with a few pre-brewed bottles of the potions to spare that would keep his pain at bay for the next few days) before you finally went upstairs, ready to collapse with exhaustion.
You passed by Fred and George’s room on your way to your final destination, Ginny’s room, where you would be staying with her and Hermione, from now up until Bill and Fleur’s wedding. After which, you would return to your apartment above the Apothecary and try to resume your best sense of ‘normal’ life. All of your things were already unpacked in Ginny’s room, and you had a sleeping bag set up on the floor there.
But of course, you naturally came to a stop at the mouth of Fred’s open bedroom doorway, letting an instinctive caring overtake you and participating in the need to check on him.
The sight you saw made your heart ache.
Fred was sitting on the edge of his twin bed, his posture slumped with pure exhaustion. He hadn’t even changed out of the now ill-fitting Harry clothes that he had to wear for the mission: jeans, a tee shirt, and a grey sport jacket that were now coated in dirt and traces of George’s blood, all oddly short in the limbs and emphasising his tallness, his hands still stained bright red in a way that couldn’t be washed off.
His face was marked with tear tracks, and his tired, dead gaze was fixated on George’s still neatly made matching twin bed. A space that was hauntingly empty across from his - a sign that his brother was missing. A sign of just how easily someone precious could have been taken from him that night.
“Freddie?”
You croaked out, the nickname slipping out in a way you couldn’t control once again, causing him to snap out of whatever distant, depressing thoughts he was caught in. His head jolted toward you, only now realising that you had been standing in the doorway for so long.
“Y/N,” He responded, his voice choked by tiredness, sadness.
It was so alarmingly strange to see someone who was usually the pinnacle of laughter reduced down to this. You had never seen Fred Weasley so sad before.
You had seen him angry, on occasion - like when someone insulted you, or when he had been banned from Quidditch for getting into a fistfight with Malfoy. You had seen him annoyed - like when he found out that the age to enter the TriWizard Tournament was seventeen, and he was only a few months away from being eligible. (You were thankful for that one, and secretly thankful when his Ageing Potion had failed).
You had seen Fred go through a lot - but you genuinely believed that was the first time you had seen him so deflated in the face of the world.
He rose to his feet, turned his back to you, almost as if trying to hide. He raised a hand to his face, and your heart ached more when you realised that he was trying to wipe away tears.
“Come on, let’s get you ready for bed.” You said, moving forward, gently putting a hand on his shoulder, moving up to peel the sport jacket off him.
You knew that the sadness, something he so rarely felt, had paralyzed him. You knew that sleep was what all of you needed right now - some rest to get your heads on straight. And you wanted to help him in any way that you could.
“I can’t-” Fred huffed, stepping away from you, putting some distance between the two of you in the small room. “I can’t do this right now.”
Your stomach curled into a horrible knot as he echoed the words he had spoken to you on that horrible day, when he had broken up with you and relinquished himself from your presence without a second thought.
It truly hit you then - he didn’t want your help. He didn’t want to be near you now. He had only held you close a few hours ago because it had been a matter of life and death. He had helped to calm you down because it was the friendly thing to do. He didn’t want you here now.
“Okay.” You choked out, nodding, taking a step toward the door. “O-okay.”
A hot tear rolled down your face, and you moved to make your way toward Ginny’s room. You were harshly whipped across the emotional spectrum again when Fred stopped you.
“Y/N, no.” He said, reaching out and grabbing onto your elbow. “Wait.”
“What, Fred?” You wheezed, your body breathless and exhausted from the horrible roller coaster that you had been on that night. You knew that you glared at him horribly, but you couldn’t help it. “What is it that you want from me?”
Fred took a step back, as though you had burned him, running stiff hands through his hair. You could have easily run off, turned your back on him and never spoken to him again. Just like he had done to you on that day so long ago. But you waited with your chest tight, waiting for him to finally give you an answer. Did he want to be friends? Did he want you to disappear from his life completely? Did he want-?
“I can’t-” He choked out, clearly struggling for breath. “I can’t…”
He swallowed around a fat tongue, and after a heavy moment, he finally got the words out.
“I can’t lose you.”
The words spooked you more than the sight of George’s bloodied, blown-apart ear.
You stared Fred down with a ghost in your eyes, somehow more terrified than you had been when you had been dangling hundreds of feet above London. He was frantic, rapidly searching for more words to explain himself.
“I - I almost…” He gasped, his throat tightly constricting again. “You almost slipped out of my hands.”
He spoke the words as though they were a horrible curse, raising his hands in front of him as if to demonstrate the point, as if to demonise his own limbs for not having enough strength to hold you up. His hands shook with undistilled anxiety, with anger towards himself.
His declaration gave you that sickly sense of nausea, as though you were back up in the air again. You realised that maybe he hadn’t been sitting on the edge of the bed, mourning about potentially losing George - but instead, he had been thinking about you.
“I didn’t. I didn’t slip.” You replied, the words choked off in your throat, rushing to assure him of the good he had done.
You were unable to resist the urge to reach out and take his hands in yours, steadying his grip with a firm anger of your own. You were unsure how he could be so cruel toward himself when he had saved your life only hours before.
“You held me up, Fred. You didn’t let me fall.”
He let out a huff, shaking his head negatively.
You knew there was something more troubling him - something deeper that he had yet to speak of, or perhaps wouldn’t tell you at all. He grinded his jaw tightly and slipped his hands away from yours. You stood there, looking at him tensely, wondering if he was going to clue you in, or if he would simply say goodnight and let himself stew with whatever horrible emotions he was feeling.
“I can’t live like this.” He declared harshly, his throat raw. “I can’t live with you at arm’s length.”
So what? Was he saying that… he was upset about the break-up?
Was he saying that he hadn’t actually wanted to be apart from you?
A look of pure confusion knit across your features, and in the murky silence, Fred moved on to explaining.
“I let you go once before.”
He whispered, the words so quiet on his lips, a crazed type of regret dancing in his eyes - in an instant, you knew he wasn’t talking about the mission or flying. He was talking about how easily he let you go from his life - the break-up.
“I let you slip away from me far too easily. And it was the stupidest thing I have ever done.”
“Freddie-?” You choked out, more chaotic emotions rocketing through your body now. Anticipation, anxiety - that love for him that you had bottled away slowly creeping back in. But you couldn’t bear to let it flow through you, not yet, not until you knew.
“If one of us were to die tomorrow, I couldn’t live my last day knowing that I wasted it not being yours.” He declared, the pure passion in his words causing every small hair on your body to stand up on end, making you dizzy. “I know that I’m the biggest git on earth for what I did to you, and for not apologising sooner, but please, please, please, darling-”
You couldn’t take it anymore.
You grabbed both sides of the sport jacket and used it to haul him down toward you, planting your mouth firmly onto his, moaning into a kiss that you had longed for, having so sorely missed the touch of his lips on yours.
You had missed him so damn much.
Fred was quick to keep up, letting out a delighted sigh of his own, his stomach doing flips in delight, almost in disbelief of just how lucky he was that you hadn’t slapped him across the face and stormed out.
When your hands ventured down, smoothing across his body - he became even more delighted that you seemed to want more than a kiss out of him. And he was quick to prepare.
He reached to his back pocket for his wand and pointed it at the still open bedroom door, performing a quick spell that slammed it shut and locked it. In the back of his mind, he was thankful that his bedroom had some silencing wards around it from the days when Weasleys’ Wizard Wheezes had been in its infancy, operating their prototype experiments out of this room in the darkest hours of the morning. (Percy got sick of being woken up by the twins’ excited voices and the sound of sputtering cauldrons, and put the silencing wards around their room for his own sake, not knowing how much more it let the twins get away with.)
Fred was surprised when you took another fitful grip on the front of his shirt, using it to direct him back toward his bed and shoving him down onto it with a strength that he barely knew you had. He fell sideways across the small twin bed, his knees crumbling along the side of the mattress, leaving him sitting with his feet on the floor and his body half collapsed against the tightly tucked-in covers that his mother had prepared before everyone’s arrival.
He was utterly weak to your whims, anyway, and would have gone wherever you put him.
He was expecting you to climb on top of him, something needy inside of him yearning for the feeling of your body on top of his after missing it for so long. And he found himself further surprised when you dropped to your knees in front of him, settling your shoulders between his spread thighs, forcing him to spread his legs wider apart to accommodate you. The action spiking a sharp breath out of his lips when you shoved up the hem of the shirt that technically wasn’t his and reached for the button on the jeans that fit him even worse as his cock grew to life underneath them.
“Y/N, darling-” He choked out, breathy and sharp through his teeth, an intense wave of lust hitting him all at once.
All night, both of you had been through the emotional ringer - calm determination, fear, possessiveness, mild relief, grief. All while trying to hold back your emotions for each other, balancing right on the edge. Trying desperately to hold each other at arm’s length.
And now he had you right where he wanted you, where he had been dreaming of you being for months since the break-up; and for some stupid reason, some part of him still felt that it was wrong. That part of him screaming that he should be the one on his knees serving you, that he needed to better apologise-
He reached for your shoulder, clearly trying to coax you back up onto the bed with him, and you swatted the touch away.
“Don’t-” You choked in return, continuing on your determined path, ripping his zipper down and tugging at the waistband of his jeans. “Freddie, please. Let me do this.”
You looked up at him with a glassy heat in your eyes that he had never seen before. All the times he had pinned you against walls in quiet corners at Hogwarts, with his hand up your skirt - he had never seen you so wild, so desperate.
Something utterly possessive rippled through you - something that screamed that you needed to have him weak and moaning for you, that you needed to worship him, to thank him for doing the impossible and saving your life. He was a strong, wonderful man and you needed to taste that strength. You needed to know that you were the only thing that could have him weak, quivering, begging.
“Fuck-” Fred hissed out when you reached past the band of his underwear and grabbed his cock - your warm touch wrapped around his shaft felt like a deadly awakening, especially when it had been so long since anything but his own had had touched his cock.
All too soon, he surrendered to you entirely and lifted his hips, slipping the fabric of his jeans and his underwear down completely past his thighs, letting you have whatever you wanted from him. He supposed that’s how it always went with the two of you - he would let you have whatever you wanted, even before you asked. (That’s why the break-up had gone down the way it had - it had been the one time he had been stubborn on something, not simply letting you have your own way.)
You took him in your hand, slowly pumping his length as you admired him, gently re-familiarising yourself with his body, feeling like it had been far too long.
“Did you miss it, darling?” He asked, looking down the length of his body at you with a cocky smile stretched across his soft lips.
You rolled your eyes, hating the possibility of making his ego any larger.
“Oh yes, your wonderful big cock was the thing I missed most about you,” You griped in return, hoping that your sarcastic tone was more than apparent.
“I knew you only wanted me for my body.” Fred chuckled.
As much as you wanted to deny it - Fred Weasley’s cock was a marvel that you couldn’t have forgotten if you had tried.
During your time apart, it haunted your heated dreams, turning them into nightmares of pure want, your mind dangling something in front of you that you couldn’t have. It made things even worse when he would come into the Apothecary, flirting with you and flashing you a smile, showing off his broad shoulders in those fine tailored suit jackets and making your eyes flicker to his zipper in an utterly whorish way.
Now, you felt spoiled to have it in front of you again - the perfect beastly eight inches, lean and tall just like he was, curved off slightly to the side, sticking off from a sparse patch of ginger hair.
Your pussy clenched as you thought about having him inside of you again for the first time in so long, giving you that perfectly full feeling that your fingers never could - but you craved his taste first. You wanted him under your control - you knew part of it was driven by all the fear you had experienced that night, all the chaos that had made you feel so powerless. You needed to feel alive, needed to wield power over someone, something.
You got your mouth on his cock with a downright feral hunger.
Fred let out a deep moan and threw his head back, collapsing onto his elbows as the heat and wetness of your mouth enveloped the heat of his cock - it sent another wave of lust zipping through him, reminding him just how throbbing hard he was, just how much he needed you. This was made even worse when you moaned around him - you couldn’t help but to enjoy the feeling of his cock in your mouth, perfectly full, making you choke in such a beautiful way when you dropped down to take more of him.
“Fuck, darling, shite-”
You quickly became drunk on the feeling.
Your eyes fell closed and you simply let yourself enjoy it, loving the fullness of his big, beautiful cock filling up your mouth. With a hand loosely wrapped around the base of his cock, your jaw wide as you began bobbing your head. Your tongue flat against the base, tasting as much of him as you could while you enjoyed the feeling of him so fat and thick in your mouth, gagging you slightly whenever the round tip hit against the back of your throat. It was a perfect, slow rhythm that agonised him and delighted you, and soon had spit pooling around your knuckles.
The wetness drove him even more insane, especially when it allowed for your soft lips to move slicker against his shaft.
“Goddammit, please, please, oh-”
You could feel his thighs begin to quake and quiver beside you, and you wondered if he was close already.
You couldn’t resist the urge to pull off - wanting to tease him a little. Part of you wanted that bit of revenge, wanting to get him back for the pain he had caused you when he had turned his back on you that day. Though you weren’t entirely cruel, and you didn’t leave him hanging out to dry completely.
You kept your hand pumping on his now spit-slicked cock (it was that slow, agonising rhythm that caused him to pant like a needy dog), and you moved your mouth downward, giving in to the personal urge to lick and suck on his heavy balls. You did want to drive him a bit more insane, and give into your personal curiosity about what the heavy sac would feel like against your tongue.
“Fucking - oh - darling, what are you doing to me-? That fucking mouth-”
Fred wasn’t sure if this was heaven or hell.
It left him stuck in some sick purgatory where the woman he loved had turned into a sex-crazed vixen, but wouldn’t let him touch you everywhere he wanted to most. Instead, he was sentenced to stare at you as your gorgeous mouth teased his aching cock, making him harder, driving him madder with every stroke of your little devilish tongue. He couldn’t take it anymore - not when your pretty fingers gripped around the base of his cock just right and your lips suctioned so perfectly around one of his bullocks.
He wouldn’t waste the night cumming over your fist without getting his hands on you properly first.
He weaved his fingers into your hair and yanked you back, caused you to let out a small yelp - not one of pain, but a bitter sound of complaint as you were pulled off his cock too early for your liking. The sharp tingle of him pulling on your hair caused your tongue to lull out, trailing a filthy bit of spit back to his balls that had him growling.
Before any words could form, he leaned down and used this grip on your hair to guide you to his lips, shoving his tongue into your open, waiting mouth - something that had you moaning once again, and easily following his lead as he guided you up to sit on his thigh.
“Don’t expect that I’m gonna waste it all over your hand, darling.” He murmured against your lips between heated kisses. “When I cum tonight, it’s gonna be deep inside your sweet cunt, yeah?”
You moaned loudly at this.
You had devolved past the point of words now - having his cock so thick and heavy in your mouth only making you fuzzy-headed and more needy for him. You unconsciously canted your hips against his thigh, grinding your pussy against him through the fabric of your jeans, needing more. You panted against his cheek as he moved deft fingers to undo the button and zipper of your pants while he continued to speak.
“I need you, pretty girl.”
He growled lowly in your ear, the pure passion of the declaration causing such intense waves of lust through you that you would have collapsed - if not for the brick wall of his muscled body holding you up. (Hold you up for the dozenth time that night, only for a drastically different reason this time).
“I need to see you cum on my cock. Missed this pretty cunt so much, can’t wait-”
He trailed off in his crazed lustful ramblings when he shoved his fingers past the now open fly of your jeans and into your underwear, quickly finding a distinct wetness and landing on your clit with a firm touch like a magnet.
“Freddie!” You wept into his neck, bucking into the touch as you tumbled into a madness of your own.
He began circling quickly on your clit, enjoying your gasps and other sounds, enjoying the feeling of you bucking so wildly on his thigh. All too soon, he was overtaken by a little pinch of mischief that always crept up on him. The urge to get you back for your earlier teasing. He quickly removed his hand and felt a smirk spread across his lips at the deflated little whimper you made, your eyes snapping open just in time to catch him licking your wetness off his fingers.
“Fred-” You began to protest, sharp demanding in your tone.
“Come on, get these clothes off,” He said, giving you a firm pat on the ass that made you far too weak to his whims.
“Freddie-” You whined this time - and rather than giving into you, he brought up a fantastic point.
“The faster you get your clothes off, the faster I can get my cock in you.” He whispered hotly against your ear, making you shiver.
You hated that he was right.
You stood up, moving to strip your shirt off over your head, glaring at him the whole time while he also began to strip himself.
“Go on, good girl.”
You hated how those words made you even wetter. You hated how easily he manipulated you based on weaknesses he knew so well.
“I hate you.” You mumbled quietly, absolutely no heat in the words as you reached to unclip your bra.
“Oh darling, if only that were true.”
He said pointedly, mourning peeking through that bit of mischief in his eyes. Something you didn’t have too much time to decode as stood to his full height to untangle his jeans from his legs, knowing that you would quake in his shadow and become even more turned on from this.
Once you were both naked, he ushered you down onto the bed, making sure that you were comfortable with your head on the pillow as he captured your mouth in another needy kiss. You moaned against his lips, easily sucking his tongue in as you tangled your fingers into that fiery red hair and gave an appreciative tug. You then tucked your knee up over his hip, opening yourself up to him - this caused his heavy cock to brush against your wetness, making you gasp into his mouth as the two of you made contact for the first time in far too long.
“Freddie-” You gasped, unconsciously bucking your hips up, causing your pussy to wetly slide against his cock in a way that forced a deep groan out of him. “Oh, fuck, oh-”
“Shh, darling, Daddy’s got you,” Fred replied, palming across your forehead and your hair in an almost gentle way while he further parted your thighs with a firm knee.
His words caused you to choke on another moan.
You had heard Fred refer to himself as ‘Daddy’ before - but much like everything else in his life, it was always a joke. He would be buying his favourite sweets and mumble ‘come to Daddy’ before tearing open the package and devouring them. He would say that his codename was ‘Big Daddy’ when setting up a particularly epic prank. (George was ‘Big Red’ and you were usually ‘Darling’ or ‘Garden Flower’. They were not the most useful or top secret codenames.) You had heard him jokingly shout ‘Daddy’s home’ when returning to the Gryffindor common room, only to have the expected laughs and jokes in return.
You had never expected that the name would turn you on so much. But you had never, ever expected to hear it in this context. You had also never expected that it would sound so natural in this context. But it suited him so well. It seemed to only compliment the gentle kind of caring he gave you - how protective he was over you, how safe he made you feel.
“Daddy,” You moaned in return - Fred gripped your hip with a deadly, bruising grip and looked at you with a fierce heat in his eyes.
Hearing that word from your lips turned him on in a way he couldn’t explain. And in that moment, it took every bit of his personal will not to slam his cock into you and hammer his hips forward until you said it again, and again, and again. Until you screamed it.
He took a hold of his cock with the other hand, and you expected him to slide into you, finally giving you both what you truly needed - but instead, he began rubbing the round head of his cock against your clit, further teasing you. You let out a gasp and looked at him with pleading in your eyes.
“Freddie,” You whined, attempting to angle your hips up, fruitlessly trying to trick him to slip his cock inside of you. You knew him too well, knowing that once he got the tip in, he wouldn’t be able to resist fucking you senseless. But he held you down with the hand on your hip, making you barely able to move at all against his muscular hold and the awkward angle he had you pinned with.
“Come on, sweets,” He purred, laying a kiss on your forehead, and then your cheek, trailing kisses down your neck as he murmured against your skin. “Tell Daddy what you need. Say the word and I’ll give you anything you want.”
He began roughly smacking his cockhead against your clit, making you jolt and gasp sharper, making your pussy leak furiously against the bed. You cried out and gripped his hair tightly, almost meanly, desperate for the teasing to end. You didn’t see the way he was staring at your cunt, mesmerised by the sight of your swollen pearl kissing against his cock, glistening, wet and needy. Something that he would burn into his brain forever and most definitely revisit on lonely nights.
“Please, Daddy!” You moaned, hoping the name alone would goad him into giving in. But you knew what he truly wanted, and you couldn’t wait any longer. “Please - fuck - I need your cock. I need you to fuck me, I need-”
Perhaps he was truly satisfied by this, or perhaps he couldn’t take the teasing anymore himself - either way, he finally guided his cock down to your pulsing entrance and pushed in, swearing hotly under his breath when the tight, wet, perfect heat of your cunt began sucking him in for the first time in over a year.
“Oh, oh fuck, Freddie,” You moaned, tugging on his hair. “Oh-”
“Fucking perfect,” He swore into your ear. “Dammit, I’ve missed this pussy so much.” He choked on a groan as he continued slowly inching his hips forward, splitting you open with his massive length, making your pussy ache and burn in the most perfect way. “Good girl. So good for me. So good for Daddy,”
You both moaned loudly once he was fully seated inside of you - you, feeling that deep satisfaction of feeling so perfectly full once again, and Fred so deeply enjoying the wet warmth of your pussy around him that was so irreplaceable because it was you.
Sensing your need, especially after all his teasing, and after spending so long without him - he didn’t make you wait any longer.
Fred began rocking his hips into yours at a gentle, even pace, not wanting to hurt you. From the sound of your gentle whines and the feeling of you squirming beneath him, he could tell that you needed more. He could tell that now wasn’t the time for holding back.
He let out a gentle grunt and you became even more heated and curious as he began shifting around, some clear intent on his mind. You let out a sharp gasp when he raised himself up on his knees, poising himself in the perfect position to fuck you hard, deep, and powerful. Then, he made it even more deadly when he grabbed you by the backs of your thighs, making more air hiss out through your lips when he pressed your body practically in half, pressing your knees up toward your chest before he hooked his arms under your legs to keep them there and planted his hands firmly on either side of your chest.
The two of you were even closer, even more intimate, and you felt him so much deeper inside of you.
“Freddie,”
You croaked out darkly, already feeling him so much deeper as he settled in above you. Your pussy was leaking furiously around him now, clenching tightly and waiting for him to move as a ghost of dark mischief danced through his eyes that promised you were in for the sweetest kind of hell.
“Good?” He asked, smirking at you.
“Yes, but what about-?”
You wanted to warn him not to make too much noise, not to break the bed, which was already creaking in protest underneath the two of you - but he didn’t entirely care. Fred never truly cared about the consequences of his actions once he got an idea in his head - to him, the thrill was more than worth whatever pain may befall him.
The only time that hadn’t been true was when he had made the foolish, heat-of-the-moment mistake of breaking up with you. And now, he had to make up for it.
He put all the power into his muscled thighs (the same muscled thighs that had saved you just a few hours ago by gripping onto his broom and steadying the flight) - and ploughed forward with intense power. This began an unforgiving, hard rhythm of pounding into your cunt in hard, deep, fast strokes.
In seconds, you were putty beneath him - he had you perfectly pinned in place so that you couldn’t have moved an inch if you wanted to, all you could do was lay there and take it. You were weak against the savage movements of his long cock fucking into your swollen pussy over and over again, filling you up in the best way you could have imagined, becoming everything you needed in the world.
As the room filled with the harsh, wet slaps of his skin against yours and your weak moans, followed by his increasingly animalistic grunts - all there was in the world was you and Fred, the space where the two of you met, the place where he had your thighs pinned open so that his cock could absolutely ruin your pussy.
“Good girl, such a good girl for me,” He growled against your lips - you moaned pathetically in return, flooding even more wetness around his cock, making the sound of him fucking into you embarrassingly slicker. “Never should have let you go. Should have kept you right here, right where you belong,”
You wanted to tell him that perhaps the fight was both of your faults, that you should have reached out to him sooner and told him that you wanted him back. That the time apart had been so dreadfully tender for you too.
But your brain was soup, only further stirred up by the tip of his cock poking around in your guts. So any words you could have said chased out of your lungs with every passionate thrust of his hips up into your wet pussy, and all you managed in return was:
“Daddy! Fuck, oh-!”
“Shh, darling, I know.” Fred mumbled into your neck, taking a sloppy, greedy lick of your skin. “I know, sweets. Daddy’s gonna give you what you need. Gonna keep you fucked n’ full. Never gonna let you go again. Never gonna let anyone else touch you-”
Fred’s hips stuttered and you tightly squeezed around his cock at the words.
Perhaps it was a wink of his personal insecurity peeking through. The horrifying idea that because he had broken up with you, you might find somebody else. When in fact, you had been so caught up on him, only thinking about him, waiting for him. (The whole time, thinking that he had broken up with you because he no longer had any favour in his heart for you.)
“Just you, Freddie.” You breathed out, desperately trying to get air past your now very chapped lips. “Always yours-”
“Yes, mine.” He replied, that crazed desperation returning to his voice. “Mine, my girl.”
He sealed his lips against yours, grinding his hips tightly against your pelvis rather than fucking you with any kind of rhythm now - showing you just how deep he was inside of you, just how much he owned you, truly, from the inside out. It was something that made your stomach clench, made your body buzz with electricity, and made you whine around his tongue.
You were close.
Fred knew this - he knew you too well. He moved a hand down to your clit, letting one of your legs drop slightly, and had two determined fingers on your throbbing clit while he picked up the pace again, pulling his lips back from yours.
“You gonna cum for me? Gonna cum for Daddy like a good girl?”
His words, his velvet voice speaking to you so commanding yet so sweet, were what truly brought your orgasm to life in your belly. His voice made the fullness of his cock and the sharpness of his fingers on your clit all the more electric. You likely could have cum just from his words alone if he kept speaking to you that way.
“Yes, Daddy.” You moaned in response.
“Good girl. Come on,”
He breathed hotly against your chin, his eyes now eagerly dancing from your face to the space where your cunt hugged his dick, leaking around him in such a wonderfully filthy way. Clearly, he wasn’t sure where he wanted to look, what part of the show he was more eager to witness after missing out on you for too long.
“Come on, cum on my cock. Cum for me, love, good girl-”
His heated words trailed off as your head snapped back and your eyes squeezed shut, your fingers digging sharply into his bicep as your orgasm rocked your body. Fred grunted as he continued to fuck you through it, his eyes glued to you, taking in every single inch of the sexy beauty that was you, the love of his life, as you thrashed and moaned and came on his cock. It was the most perfect sight he could have imagined, and he easily ingrained into his mind forever, praying that he would never have to miss out on it - to miss out on you - ever again.
“Yes, yes darling, so good for me, so good-” He practically choked on his own words, his voice so thick with lust that it barbed the insides of his throat.
As he felt the last weak spasms of your pussy around his cock, he stopped rubbing your sore clit and became possessed with a new need, becoming slightly selfish now. He fucked his hips forward even harder, determined to find his own pleasure inside the sweet, soft walls of your cunt.
“Fucking hell-” He choked out a groan, dropping his head into your neck again as you petted through his hair, encouraging him through it while he unintentionally sent sharp zaps of overstimulation through your pussy with every needy, sharp push of his hips.
“Freddie,” You breathed out. “Come on, Daddy, cum for me. You’ve been so good to me, come on-”
He let you another loud growl and pounded into you harder, dropping his hold on your other knee and letting your legs rest to cradle around his waist as he blindly chased his own end inside your soft, wet cunt.
“Gonna fill you up, gonna fill you up so good,” He whispered into your neck, chanting like a man possessed, sending another unexpected wave of heat through you that made you moan weakly. “All mine, all mine, darling, all mine, gonna give you what you need, fuck-”
He tried to silence his moans into your neck as he stiffened his back and finally came - his own orgasm hitting him like a firework. He shoved his hips forward stiffly one last time, seating his cock deeply inside of you, stuffing you full, just like he had promised. He gentled grinded his hips against yours in mindless, stuttering strokes while he pumped spurts of hot cum deep inside of you - something that made your body buzz with even more heat and made you moan in return, clutching onto him tightly with your legs around his waist and your arms around his shoulders.
“Oh darling, oh-” He muttered quietly against your neck as the last waves of his orgasm washed over him.
It was so perfect, and made you feel so utterly connected to him. It was a distinct reminder of everything you had missed - his warmth, his caring, the thrill he gave you while at the same time making you feel so damn safe.
When Fred moved to pull away from you, moving to break that connection, every instinct in your body screamed that it was wrong. You clenched your legs around him, digging a heel into his lower back to keep him close, and he let out a grunt - still dizzy from his orgasm and unsure what you were doing. But he settled back into place, creating a filthy ‘squish’ between the two of you.
“Just hold me.” You said, having no clue when the tears had returned to your eyes, making your voice so clearly wet. “I missed you. I can’t lose you.”
“Hey, hey shh.” He said, leaning up to kiss along your cheek, rushing to kiss away those tears. “I’m right here with you, darling. I’m not going anywhere. You’re not going to lose me.”
He wrapped his arms around you, wiggling his grip between your back and the mattress to do so. This created the most stunning cocoon, forcing your two bodies even closer together - it wasn’t long before he became soft inside of you, but he stayed there for as long as he reasonably could, kissing along your forehead, your cheeks, your neck, uttering quiet reassurances that you weren’t going to lose him, that you wouldn’t have to miss him any longer.
It made you incredibly content and warm. At least while it lasted.
When Fred finally pulled out of you, you felt a deep sense of dissatisfaction and loneliness, which you tried to ignore. Especially because you weren’t sure if he would want you to sleep in his bed - which was something that you wanted very much, especially after the long day you had. But you weren’t sure if he wanted to be left alone to contemplate all of it, to be sure of his decision to take you back.
You jumped to get out of the bed as though it were on fire, and when you looked to your rumpled clothes on the floor - your jeans still stained with dirt from when you had collapsed in the garden, your shirt likely reeking of sweat from the nerves of everything that had happened - the idea of putting those clothes back on wasn’t exactly appealing.
Then, something else came to mind.
“My things are in Ginny’s room…”
You sighed, realising that if you wanted a pair of pyjamas for the night, or even a fresh pair of underwear, then you would have to waltz in and wake her up - and likely be interrogated about where you had been. She was all too knowing anyway, and any excuses you gave about spending the time caring for George or simply having a ‘talk’ with Fred would be seen right through by her.
Fred hummed, and stood, and you were surprised when he comfortably went over to the chest of drawers against the wall at the end of his bed, going right to the top drawer. The drawer where you used to keep some of your things when you stayed with the Weasleys on holidays - and surely enough, a small collection of your things were still in there.
Things that he had never returned to you after the break-up that you had never thought to ask for. You had no idea that he often came to this drawer, sneaking mournful whiffs of your scent - even used your shirts as a pillow case if he was feeling particularly lonely.
He pulled out a pair of your comfortable sleep shorts and a large, soft, worn green tee shirt with a large shamrock on the front and a ‘94 on the back that he had bought for you as a souvenir from The World Cup. It had been your all time favourite sleep shirt, and you had wondered where it had disappeared to when you moved into your apartment above the Apothecary once you started the job.
“I hope these still fit.” He said, handing you the clothes.
“They should.” You said - quiet, careful not to acknowledge the elephant in the room. The fact that he had kept your things all this time.
“Unfortunately I don’t have any panties for you, so…” He trailed off, a filthy grin plucking up over his cheeks once again when the implication hit the air - the fact that you would be commando underneath your clothing.
“Yeah, very unfortunate in your eyes, I’m sure, Fred.” You huffed, turning toward the door. “I should go get cleaned up.”
You let out a small squeak when two strong arms encircled your waist, pulling you sharply back, causing you to collide with the wonderful, bare, muscled, now slightly sweaty body. You couldn’t help but to melt into the touch, and you let out a quiet moan as he began kissing your neck - not in a particularly lustful way, but in a way that was purely loving and affectionate.
“Don’t think you’re getting away from me that easy, darling.” He whispered in your ear. “Please, do come back afterwards. You know I like to cuddle,”
You didn’t think that you had ever heard Fred Weasley say ‘please’ for anything so plainly in his life. But, as usual when it came to him, you wanted exactly what he wanted.
“Only if you insist.” You joked lightly, smoothing a hand over his arm that was still tightly encircled around your middle. “I suppose I can clear some time in my very busy schedule for cuddling,”
Fred quietly let out a ‘yes’ in celebration, and hesitantly let you go. He then collapsed back onto the bed, relaxing spread eagle, still confidently naked against the covers with his hands behind his head against the pillow. You couldn’t help it when your eyes did a once-over of his body, admiring the soft planes of his muscles that had come from hard work rather than a distinct workout routine and the beautiful bit of fat on his lower belly that made him so warm and nice to cuddle. Of course, when your eyes met his, he was smirking at you.
“I’ll be waiting, love.” He told you with a wink.
You rolled your eyes at this, biting your lip to suppress a smile at his somewhat deserved cockiness.
You moved to leave the room with your newly acquired clothes, wanting to freshen up in the bathroom a bit before going to sleep (the bathroom was right across the hall, so you would have to sneak across the way naked and hope that nobody would catch you, but it should be fine at this time of night). But when your hand twisted the knob and it didn’t budge, you remembered that Fred had locked it earlier.
He moved to grab his wand from the pocket of his pants, splayed out in the middle of the floor, but you reached for the jeans first. Your wand was still downstairs beside the cauldron that had brewed the potions for George, but often, you found that Fred’s wand worked fine for you.
Ollivander and other wand experts said that a wizard couldn’t find the same kind of success using a wand that wasn’t their own, but you found using Fred’s to be just as natural, like an extension of your own arm. Perhaps it was because his core was a Dragon Heart’s String, and that heart beat for you just as fondly as his own did. Either way, it was a fine substitution. You unlocked the door easily and tossed the wand back to him where he was sitting on the bed, and then you snuck across the hall to clean up and get dressed.
When you came back, Fred had crawled under the covers and was starting to fall asleep. When you crawled in alongside him, you found that he hadn’t bothered to get dressed, so you locked the door again, just in case. It was a basic charm that anybody could get through, but it would give the two of you a few minutes of warning to make yourselves decent if somebody did come knocking.
It felt like the most wonderfully natural thing in the world to settle beside him, wrapping an arm around his waist while he slept on his back, putting your head on his chest and feeling his sleepy fingers brush across your head from behind.
“Goodnight, love.” He whispered, so quiet as though he was afraid to break apart a beautiful daydream.
“Goodnight, Freddie.”
…
You wondered if all of it had been a dream.
Fred apologising to you, begging for your forgiveness, the two of you having amazing sex - it was something you had dreamt about many times before. It was something you had wished would come true, only to find yourself waking up alone in a cold bed. So waking up next to Fred, with his large, warm body coiled up against your back like a koala was one of the best ways you could have come into a new day.
It wasn’t long before the smell of Molly’s cooking reached your nose - the wonderful fatty sizzle of sausages and the bready warmth of toast that told you she was frying up a full English (likely because she had been having trouble sleeping after the events of the night before). Your stomach gave a painful pang, making you want to get out of bed to eat just as much as you wanted to stay cuddled up with Fred.
You gently petted a touch along Fred’s heavy arm that was wrapped possessively around your waist, and soon, he sucked in a sharp breath as he too began to stir.
“Merlin, I missed this.” He said, leaning in to smother you with more of his perfect warmth as he somehow crowded tighter against your back, kissing along your clothed shoulder and up your neck once again.
Your heart fluttered with the sweetness, the fondness of it all, and you wondered how such a hellish night had made way to such a perfect morning.
“I wish we could stay in bed forever, Freddie, but I think your Mum is making breakfast.” You remarked, finding yourself more aware of your hunger as you woke up more, and more drawn to the delicious smells.
“We can stay here for a bit longer.” He hummed into your neck.
Just then - his stomach let out a loud groan of protest, and you giggled.
“Come on, Big Daddy needs to eat too.” You said, using the nickname in a more playful, joking manner as you patted his thigh, untangling yourself from his arms as you got out of bed.
You were surprised, and slightly victorious when you saw a slight blush tinging his pale cheeks because of the teasing, the way you had used the nickname. It was amazing to see someone like Fred go from so powerful and confident to fluttering with shyness.
“I have to find some trousers,” He remarked, suddenly remembering that he was naked.
“I’ll meet you downstairs,” You grinned, walking across to the bathroom, lucky to beat anybody else there before the others started waking up.
When you hit the bottom stair, Fred was standing at the back of the couch with his back to you, now fully dressed in a pair of comfortable plaid sleep pants and an old Chudley Cannons shirt that must have belonged to Ron. (It was only because of many winding discussions about Quidditch among the boys that you hadn’t even wanted to hear that you knew the Cannons were Ron’s team and the twins hated them.)
Fred was leaning over, clearly talking to George, who was still laying where the two of you had left him the night before. You hated that your instinct was to stand back where neither of them had seen you and listen in on their conversation - but you had only learned such matters from Mr. and Mr. Extentenable Ear themselves.
“...well, yes, I would say that it did go well, but I would still have to classify the nature of the relationship as dubious. Or friendly at best.” Fred said in a rushed whisper.
Your stomach gave a twist. This time you had to assume that the twins were talking about you. Talking about what had happened between the two of you the night before.
“Dubious?” George’s voice baulked, clearly trying to stay hushed himself, but having a hard time restraining his volume due to frustration - frustration at not being able to get a better answer out of his brother. “The two of you had sex and you’re classifying the nature of the relationship as dubious? Are you an idiot or was the sex that horrible?”
You choked down a laugh at this, not wanting to be caught just yet, and resisting the urge to speak up and clarify that the sex was, in fact, great.
“No, she seemed perfectly satisfied, thank you very much.” Fred hissed back, full of sass. You would have said more than ‘satisfied’ - for once, Fred was actually being humble. “But I just didn’t think to stop and ask: oh, by the way, does this mean that we’re back together and you still love me? Or were just scared and lonely after almost dying and wanted a decent lay? Can you fill out a post-orgasm survey to clarify, please, and make sure to-”
An arm came up from the couch with a pillow, smacking Fred clear in the chest - hard enough to force a small grunt out of him. George was certainly feeling better. You were glad to know that your potions had done him some good.
“You should have just asked, you numpty!” George scolded him. “You’ve been mooning over losing her for-”
“Y/N,” Fred cut off his twin’s words by saying your name, announcing your presence as that smack with the pillow had caused him to finally turn his head and spot you there.
“Fred.” You grinned, not at all ashamed that you had been caught.
You walked over to the couch, leaning over to find George grinning at you in a way that said he was holding back a barrage of stomach shaking laughter because of the conversation you had caught the two of them in.
“For the record, I would call the sex more than satisfactory.” You said, a mischievous grin coming over your lips. “And I do still love you.” You announced, turning toward Fred. “I was lonely and scared last night, but that’s why I came to you. You’re the only person I want to go to when I feel that way. I missed you. And I want you back if you’ll have me.”
“Merlin, of course I’ll have you.” Fred breathed out a sigh of relief, now grinning as well. “I love you more than anything, darling. You have no idea how much I’ve missed you.”
“I have some idea, and it was bloody annoying.” George muttered out, only to be ignored.
You leaned in for a kiss, naturally, but just as Fred’s lips brushed yours, George let out a loud, fake gagging sound - one that had Molly running into the room, clearly fretting and worried that George was actually ill.
“I’m fine, Mum.” George groaned as Molly began patting down his head with a wet cloth - clearly, his night had been filled by the annoying, but loving fuss of his mother watching over him.
“Yes, yes of course.” Molly nodded, hesitantly putting the cloth down. “It’s time for breakfast anyway - do you feel up for sitting at the table, dear?”
“I would love to get off this bloody couch.” George groaned.
Fred rushed around to help him up, and after a moment of struggle to his feet, you grabbed his other arm to help him along into the kitchen.
“I suppose it all worked out for the better.” George said, smiling at you. “Even if you did end up with the less attractive twin.”
You rolled your eyes, biting back a smile at this.
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A/N: This fic is a oneshot, and there will not be a continuation or a 'Part 2'. This is a capsule story meant to be read independently, and in terms of the narrative, there will not be a continuation. If you are going to leave a comment, please comment about the body of work that has been written here, do not comment asking for more. If you would like to read more of my fics, please take a look at my Harry Potter Masterlist, more specifically, my other Fred Weasley fic - Kisses Like Fire Whiskey. Thank you if you have gotten this far, and happy reading!
a how to (not) get rid of a crush perspective reversal
Modern! Ryōmen Sukuna x reader
summary: having a crush isn’t an usual thing for Sukuna, and he when he catches sight of you it throws him in for a loop — or — how Sukuna works his way to making you his.
c.w.: switched perspective (same story but sukuna’s view of it all). language. silly goofy shit. fem reader. college au. no curse au. modern au. suggestive here and there but no details. misunderstandings. silly stuff. awkward reader and awkward sukuna. heeeeella fluff. 6.9k.
a.n.: and this is it! It’s the very last part, I love this little au with my whole heart and it was super enjoyable to write. it only became a series because I couldn't let go, so here we are! Thank you for all the support on all this time! 💕
𝕄𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥 ✿◡‿◡
this series' masterlist
1. Acknowledge you have a crush
Learning that his little brother has a girlfriend within a month of him being in college was not on Sukuna’s bingo card. This is important because of who that girlfriend is.
First of all, she’s on the cheer squad, which in all honesty is… not bad, there’s a sense of pride there. Choso literally met her when he was trying out for the team and she asked him out on that same day, in the boldest fashion. Now, Sukuna has been aware of Tsukumo Yuki’s existence for a while, since the cheer squad and the basketball team often trained in close proximity. They even often hung out.
Yuki, Utahime and Yorozu being in the same year as Sukuna, they were essentially all part of the same friend group. They had known each other for a year already when Choso and her met. He never expected to be grateful for knowing Tsukumo, though. He had been for a while. Specifically, because of you. And Choso dating her only gave him more room to be grateful.
It’s random, the way it all started. All the way back last year, on his first year of university.
One day he opened his Instagram account, after Choso — who happened to be visiting the university for a couple of days, something their parents had recommended since the high schooler was on break — told him, “You should post a selfie or something, your account is so dead” to which Sukuna’s dumbass roommate Satoru, agreed.
So, he did that.
Not because he liked to follow their advice or anything, but to get them off his back for a while. Why they insisted on him posting on his account, he wasn’t sure. He looked around the app, bored as hell, and randomly clicked on Satoru’s little profile picture where the stories were, then let each story run. It went through all the friend group’s profiles while he was not really paying attention.
Then there was a flash of red.
It was a picture of you with Tsukumo, both of you were at the beach.
And your face felt familiar, but he didn’t think he knew you from campus. No. It was probably earlier than that. But where? You were smiling in the picture, and in the one that followed. And you were wearing the cutest bright red bikini.
But how come you’re never around? You seem close with Yuki, so who are you? You’re not in the cheer squad, he’s never seen you at parties either. Who the hell are you?
It takes him a few days and your familiar face plagues his mind. Usually, he wouldn’t get hung up on a girl. Maybe he’d look at a few pictures and then move on with his day, but not you. The next time he sees Yuki, he has to ask, and he learns that your name is ○○○, and that you and her, are roommates.
Your name is familiar too, which bothers him. Eventually, on a weekend visit at home, he decides to check inside his yearbook. It’s an odd thing, he’s not sure what compelled him to do it. He hasn’t opened it since graduation, because he didn’t ever feel the need to. He had enjoyed high school, sure, but he never needed to reminisce. College was a lot more fun. He doesn’t know what he’s looking for in there until he finally sees you, a bright smile plastered on your face and holding a camera, standing with some members of the basketball team.
The photographer girl!
He remembers seeing you often, up until the last few months of high school, then it’s almost like you had vanished into thin air. It’s weird how he can’t stop thinking about you after seeing you in the yearbook. And it’s weirder how he’s trying to subtly ask Yuki about you. It’s not like he knows you personally, but he can’t seem to lose interest.
What’s with you?
It goes like this for a while, even if you’re almost impossible to see anywhere. And he’d like to say he kind of got over it, forgot a bit, but it would be a lie. He’s not the type to share these things but his roommates notice how he sometimes looks at Yuki’s story — and it’s the only one he watches. You make a few appearances here and there, “cute as ever,” he can’t help but think.
Suguru asks him if he’s into Yuki and Sukuna’s so offended he has to come clean. He tells them about how you “live rent free in his mind” — Satoru says that, not him, but maybe Satoru’s right. He threatens to chuck them both out of the window if they ask “so you have a crush on her” again.
He sees you in the flesh long after that bikini story. Months. You’re both in your second year by then. Choso’s already met you, since you’re his girlfriend’s best friend, and he’s mocked Sukuna for all his questions but still indulged his brother. You’re in the performing arts department, you’re a double major, you have most of your classes in an entirely different building. You are super busy all the time and you also have a mysterious part time job. You have been to one date since the beginning of uni and it’s only because Tsukumo set you up, but it didn’t work out. Sukuna’s thinking “thank fuck for that,” and he says it out loud when he hears about it, which earns him mockery from devil 1 and 2 who serve as his roommates.
You show up at the gymnasium one day to bring your roommate something, and you’re so fidgety. He’s looking at your movements from afar, and he can’t really hear you, so he gets just a little closer. His teammates are a little perturbed by this, but they say nothing. Then he gets to hear you laugh at something your friend say, before coach Fushiguro yells “Ryōmen, what the hell are you doing all the way over there?” And he hears you say “fuck,” before you’re effectively hurrying out. He’s not sure why you did but he has a feeling now, that maybe you’re actually avoiding him. It might be stupid to assume so he’ll have to hound Tsukumo about it.
After training, his roommates and his brother are giving him a look, so insistent that he ends up asking “what the fuck do you want to say?” And they tease him about his close proximity to the cheer team, how he was listening in on a conversation like some creep. Satoru is singsonging “ooooh Sukuna and ○○○, sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-” and he’s completely unable to respond, because he has to face it. Seeing you is what truly cemented the feeling in his chest.
“Okay, I have a crush,” he says, finally admitting to something that was completely evident to them, but it is a step.
2. Don’t leave her all alone in your bed
It takes a while for him to convince Yuki to bring you a house party. Or it’s more like it is very hard for her to convince you. You’ve got a lot of very good excuses.
a. You’re busy.
b. You have to find time in your schedule.
c. You’re tired.
d. You have an exam.
e. You don’t want to go.
Every time Yuki tells him of one of your excuses he wants to blow up the neighborhood. Just come to one party so he can speak to you for fucks sake!
He doesn’t know what Yuki says for you to finally agree, when he receives her “she’s coming tonight” text. Finally. He promised her something expensive if she managed to convince you to come with her tonight and it is so worth it. He’s a bit nervous, really, but he’ll finally be able to approach you.
Except that is not what happens.
You’re awfully sneaky at the party, he looks around and doesn’t see you, but he does see Yuki, who tells him she doesn’t know where you’ve disappeared. He caught a glance of you for maybe four seconds, before you suddenly vanished.
Yuki told him you said you used to have a crush on him in high school. When? How? How come you didn’t tell him? How come he didn’t know? Is this really worth avoiding him? He’s losing his mind over it.
The party is now only a source of irritation. He decides to retreat to his room. And that’s how he learns that he’s probably the luckiest bastard in the entire universe.
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He can’t believe it’s real. It really is you, in his bed, in his arms. He really got to kiss you and to hold your naked body. This really happened. He’s fidgety now that you’re asleep, he looks at you, gawks even, he can’t help it.
He’s not sure how things took this specific turn.
He found you in his room, just your pretty self, playing a game on your phone, isolating from the noise of the party downstairs. There are two guest rooms in the house, in addition to Satoru and Suguru’s room, you could have walked into any of them, but you got into his.
Luckiest. Man. In the universe.
It’s a little all over the place now, his plan to get you to date him. Sleeping together was not supposed to be this early. He’s been so obsessed over you. He wanted to court you.
But then, he had drunk a couple of beers, your lips were warm, your skin was soft, and your voice made him ascend to a higher plane. You had been so responsive to him when he pressed his lips on yours and he couldn’t find the will to stop after that.
It’s alright, it’s a little chaotic, but it’s fine. You’re here with him now; your face is tucked in the crook of his neck. He can smell you on him, and the taste of you is lingering on his mouth. He is in heaven.
He feels incredibly erratic though and he’s scared that his agitation is going to wake you up.
So, he decides to move, he’ll go downstairs for a bit, let you rest without his over-excited-self staring at you. He slips out of the bed as swiftly as he can, looks around the room to see his clothes — and yours — thrown haphazardly and his chest feels weird. He looks down at you a little bit, softly presses a kiss to your forehead before he gets dressed.
On his way out of the room he notices the panties he hastily pulled off of you a couple hours ago and he inhales sharply. The memory shakes him in the most delicious way, so he turns back to look at you again. He is so lucky. He takes your underwear and shoves it in his pocket. He’ll bring them back to you when he comes back, after he’s let your rest for a bit.
He doesn’t know at that moment, that leaving the room was possibly the worst thing he could have done.
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When he opens the door to his bedroom about half an hour later, after he’s been downstairs trying to calm himself down, he expects to find you there, sound asleep. But you’re not. Your clothes aren’t there. It’s empty and his smile falters almost instantly.
It’s embarrassing how quickly he feels himself spiraling. Did you seriously just slip out on him? Was it so bad you had to run off secretly? Oh, he’s about to explode. He’s going back downstairs, where the party’s still going and he’s not sure what he’ll do.
Suguru asks “what are you going back down here?”
“She’s gone,” Sukuna says, and he doesn’t mean to sound so pissed off, but he is. This fucking sucks, royally.
“Oh yeah, I saw her leave like ten minutes ago,” Mei Mei interjects, why she knows who he’s talking about, unsure. Mei Mei’s been very good at knowing things without being told directly, it’s a little scary.
Fuck.
If he hadn’t spent so long overthinking it, he would have come back earlier. Maybe he could have talked you into staying over. Or maybe you would have told him he sucked to his face. Whatever the case, at least you wouldn’t have slipped out of his grasp like this. He regrets being hasty now, he should have stopped himself before going too far. Sex could have waited.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
“Hey, S’kuna, dude, calm down,” Satoru says.
He’s the one who notices first. It’s not like he’s ever seen his roommate go through this. He’s never even seen him lose his composure. Okay sure, he gets pissed of occasionally — after all Satoru works hard to irritate him. But the heavy breathing is definitely a sign of panic in Satoru’s book. He grabs Sukuna’s arm, nods at Suguru and heads upstairs. For once, there’s not sign of protest from Sukuna — usually he’d pull his arm out of Satoru’s grasp.
All three of the house owners walk into the first room they find, one of the two guest rooms.
“Okay, take a deep breath and tell us what happened,” Suguru demands after closing the door.
His friends listen quietly, attentively. And at the end of it, while he’s spiralling over you not enjoying the experience, he hears a loud, irritated, sigh, before he gets a slap behind the head that interrupts him.
“Did you make her come or not?” Suguru asks.
“Twice, once on my mouth and once on m-”
“Nobody asked for details!” Satoru interjects with an expression of disgust that all but irritates Sukuna. Awfully audacious of the white-haired freak to make a face when he and Suguru are sometimes a nightmare to live with. “Are you sure, though?”
“Yeah. Yeah I’m sure. She was very… vocal about it.”
“Okay good. That means she probably enjoyed it.”
“Then why did she leave?” And his roommates are too scared to point it out, but he’s actually pouting as he asks. Oh wow, you got him wrapped around your finger.
“You left her alone.”
“Yeah. To rest…”
“Sukuna. You fucked her and then you left her alone.” Suguru says, slowly, for the information to hit his roommate. “Imagine being her. All alone. In your room. Like, ‘wham, bam, thank you ma’am,’ then you went back to party.”
“No! No that is not why I got out of the room! Fuck!”
“She doesn’t know that, though.”
Months, they’ve been observing Sukuna simping over a girl who is somehow never around. They’ve seen pictures of you through their own “research” — i.e. being nosy — but almost never crossed paths with you. Sukuna isn’t super vocal either, so they’ve had to piece the situation together.
It’s a great source of entertainment for the two of them because before they officially started dating, he’d absolutely mocked them and once asked “can you two quit flirting through bickering and fuck already?” and at the time, neither of them thought it was so obvious, which was embarrassing. Now, how the tables have turned.
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He spends a few days trying to figure out a way to approach you. Maybe being direct would be the best course, but what if — just by chance — you actually get really pissed off at him? He’s a little scared that you’ll just straight up reject him, which he’ll never admit out loud.
But then, a first opportunity to speak to you arises anyways, thanks to Tsukumo. The problem is that there’s a little voice in his head that’s saying, ‘there’s still a chance she left because she didn’t enjoy it,” and he can’t get it to shut up. He can barely speak to you. He listens attentively though, hoping to catch any details that could help. He tries to ignore the need to grab Mahito by his greasy hair and fling him across the cafeteria for speaking to you — which is a bit of a disproportionate action — but the conversation takes a turn.
He learns that you work in a nightclub, and in all honesty, what a surprise. It’s not that you seem like you don’t frequent places like that, because what does he know? It’s more like, how do you work at night and handle your classes? Doesn’t that tire you out?
“You work in a club?” He asks while fully knowing your answer, but he’s just trying to get you to talk to him. You don’t. You don’t even look at him, you just nod in response. And he hates how frustrated it makes him. He doesn’t say another word until the end of lunch, and you leave. Even if Yorozu is talking his ear off — he doesn’t hear a word she’s saying.
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The second opportunity to speak to you makes him think that you’re a lot braver than he is. And that maybe he could just show up at your apartment.
He hears Satoru yell, “S’kuna! ○○○’s here for you!” from downstairs and he’s running before he can think about it. He then takes a step back, looks over at himself in the mirror, changes his shirt, quickly runs his hand through his hair, sprays some deodorant on, before he’s out of his room like there’s fire in there. He does miss like five steps and lands in a big ruckus, but he’s quickly at the door.
He has to stare Satoru down for him to go away — why is he even still here? — before he turns back to your face. You look very flustered, and his heart is thumping in his chest as he greets you. Before an absurd conversation unfolds.
“Hmm… This is so fucking stupid but uh. Okay. Your girlfriend is what’s up. She-” you begin and he’s about to have a stroke.
“My what?” Is all he’s able to ask, because it’s the first he’s heard of this.
“Yorozu.”
“That’s not my girl,” he says almost immediately because, what the hell? Since when?
“Well, she’s showed up to my department earlier today calling you her man, so… whatever. I don’t care what you two are to be honest, I told her she could have you anyways, I’m not about to be caught dead fighting over boys. The reason I’m here is because you told her…” you take a deep breath and then add, “you told her we had sex?”
“I didn’t tell her shit, ○○○. It was probably Mei Mei, I think she saw you leave the party. What do you mean she can have me? What the fu-” He’s actually irritated now. He is not dating Yorozu. She cannot have him. Why the hell did that pest go and add issues for him?
“Doesn’t matter. Let’s just act like that never happened and avoid interacting in the future, and never speak about it to anyone ever again and goodbye,” you say before you’re running off and all he can do is watch.
Now, he could have taken this exchange as the last interaction between you, but it’s gotten him agitated. He’s actually feeling like being in your space and correcting whatever misunderstanding you keep on finding yourself in. He likes you, why in the world is this so complicated to get across?
That same afternoon, there’s a training session in common with the cheer squad, and Sukuna is genuinely pissed. He can’t throttle Yorozu, so he gives her a talking to. He thinks of it that way, but whoever witnessed it was too scared to tell him it was actually a good old moment of intimidation.
He should have told the cheerleader months ago, that he had no interest in her, nor would he ever suddenly develop any. He just didn’t care enough to say it before. Until she went around and told you some nonsense.
Does he yell at her to stop telling everyone they’re a thing? Maybe so. That’s almost fine, compared to how low and threatening his voice gets when he tells her to back the hell away from you and never ever speak to you again.
“Harsh,” Yuki comments when her teammate excuses herself to the toilets. “But it had to be done. Go get your girl now.”
“You better not tell ○○○ about this,”
“Sure, big boy, you got it. You need help getting to see her?”
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After that, it’s almost like he appears wherever you are. First at your apartment, where he makes you omurice and tells you Yorozu won’t be bothering you again. You find that ominous but don’t comment on it. Plus, you’re too off-put by how sugary-sweet he is talking to you the whole time.
He gets to ask you about how you blocked him, also. He learns through Satoru that it’s the reason why he can’t find your profile. He hasn’t followed anyone since Satoru took his phone and followed himself.
He’s of course part of the group of people Satoru drags to your workplace. And he loves it there, he learns, because to speak to you he has to be very close. And it noticeably flusters you — reassuring him that all hope is in fact not lost, even if you’ve not unblocked him on Insta yet. When you agree to meet him after your shift, he’s close to flying, if he were to be honest with himself.
And when he walks you back home and manages to get you to unblock him — after a long rant about how he uses his social media only when forced to — he’s tempted to fist bump the air, but if you were to see him it would be majorly embarrassing. When he finally gets to follow your profile, although there’s one single picture of your face in there, he immediately screenshots and saves it. He’s already thinking of creating a folder of your pictures.
3. Tell her how you feel
It’s been five months now. Five months since he’s somehow managed to get you to date him. He’s feeling ridiculous because all you need to do is look at him for one second too long. Then his heart beats so hard he wouldn’t be surprised if it jumped out of his rib cage. He doesn’t just like you, he’s in love and really, he’s as embarrassed as he’s elated about it.
It’s overwhelming, this love thing. He’s finding himself wanting to say it to you so often it’s starting to alarm him. Where’s his self-control? The thing is, he sees your face and any ounce of pride and attitude vanishes. You’re soft and sweet, and if you have a pout on your face for whatever reason he gets the irrepressible urge to kiss it off.
He sits with this unbearable feeling for a couple of weeks and starts to imagine how he’s going to bring it up. Part of him is logical, wondering why he’s stressing out so much over it, after all, it’s not like he’s proposing marriage.
The other more irrational part of him is terrifying, though. The thought that you might not share his feelings, or that you might laugh at him. You wouldn’t, though, he knows this, you’re so mindful and kind. Or maybe if you do laugh, it’s that nervous one you have sometimes.
Funnily — well, that depends on one’s definition of fun, because it isn’t his — he gets to stop thinking about how to confess his love to you soon enough.
You’re on the phone in the middle of night, it’s two in the morning, he’s walked you home from work an hour and a half ago but when he texted to know if you were asleep, you weren’t. He’d prefer it if you rested, you looked exhausted when he came to pick you up at the club. He’s still happy he can call you and hear your voice before bed, though.
These calls aren’t usually long, he listens to your little bedtime routine, asks a couple of questions, you ask him more things about his day. And on nights where you’re particularly tired, you fall asleep on the phone, and he gets to listen to your soft breaths as you succumb to sleep.
Tonight, you’re well enough to say goodnight — which is a bit regrettable but it’s okay, that means you’re not too tired. When you are ready to end the call, you say, “Love you, Kuna,” which sets his whole body aflame. He can’t say it’s just his heart because he feels that shit all the way through his spine and down to his toes.
After you say it, there’s a silence, followed by a gasp, before you say “I- oh my god!” And then you’ve cut the call in a panic. He lets out a laugh in disbelief because he didn’t expect to hear your words, or for you to hang up on him.
It does give him a golden opportunity though. You’ve already robbed him of the chance of saying it first, so he’s got to find a way to fix that. He hasn’t fully thought his idea through that he’s getting dressed. He’s out of the door within fifteen minutes. The drive to your apartment is dead quiet. He’s on a mission.
He’s about to disturb the quietness of the night by ringing your doorbell when he realizes it’s really late. And while the drive didn’t take long you might have fallen asleep. He doesn’t want to wake you up. He opts for a text.
3:15 am.
Baby are u still up?
When he sees the “…” he’s immediately relieved. He doesn’t even let you reply.
3:15 am.
I’m outside.
He immediately hears steps from inside and the door unlocks. You’re wearing one of the shirts he left behind and he thinks he’s about to collapse. But he is on a mission.
“I love you.”
He didn’t anticipate your reaction. The way your mouth opens in surprise, your hands coming up to cover your face, the following giggle, before you open your fingers to look up at him. And finally, the sob. Why are you crying? He doesn’t have time to ask because you’re pulling him down into your embrace and wrapping yourself around him.
“You could have just called me back,” your words are whispered against the skin of his neck, where you’ve buried your face.
“No, I wanted to be first to say it to face to face.”
“Could have done that tomorrow.”
“And have my girl stress out and think maybe I don’t love her? What do you take me for?” He chuckles.
His hands softly travel down your back, until they reach your butt, which he briefly grabs with both hands before he taps behind your thighs to signal you to jump up.
“Yuki’s crashing at Choso’s dorm,” you indicate.
“You’re not sleepy?”
“Not even a little bit.”
“I can fix that,” he says, you giggle at his words.
He lets out a hum as he pushes the door closed — thank you automatic door locks — and immediately walks towards your room. He needs to make sure you rest.
4. Figure out how to ask her the big one.
A few months after you both graduated university, Sukuna woke up in your bed in your new apartment — a studio you insisted on getting because you really wanted to try it out — and had an epiphany. This was caused by the sight of you, asleep, cuddled into his side and drooling slightly.
And all he can think about is how certain he is that he wants to see this forever. On his way back to his own place, he stops by a jewelry and looks for a ring. He discovers that it isn’t so easy, picking something you’ll wear for the rest of your life. He ends up finding the proper ring about a month later, after asking his mother for advice and trying to subtly find out what kind of ring you’d like.
A year after you move in together, he has to go on a business trip for an entire week. Now, you’ve been separated, before but for the past year, you’ve been doing most things together. Your mother has even joined his family for the holidays, and the most he hasn’t been with you is two days. A week is a lot of time — it’s what you whine to him when he tells you — and he totally agrees.
During his trip, he keeps mentioning you to people at various occasions and unprompted. The whole time, he refers to you as his wife and can’t find it in him to stop. He realizes he loves the sound of it.
The night he comes home he tells you all about it. You say “hmm, calling you my husband sounds nice,” and he realizes then, that he’s ready to ask you to marry him — and mostly, that you seem ready too.
When he sets himself to do it, he starts carrying the ring he bought you almost three years prior everywhere with him. He does it for good luck and maybe because he hopes taking it in his hand to look at it longingly at work will inspire him.
He could simply pop the question out randomly and hope for the best, sure, but he wants to give you more than that. He knows you wouldn’t enjoy something too grand, or too public. He’s got to think of something that’ll convey how much he wants to marry you, without going overboard with it.
Given how he has no experience in the proposal department, he decides to get advice, specifically from his father. After all, he managed to make his mom marry him twice, he must be good at it.
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Itadori Jin is a loving husband and father. He’s sweet, kind and attentive. And while Yuji kind of inherited most of those traits, Sukuna hasn’t taken much from him. He is attentive and he is kind, of course — to you. But he is also blunt, and he makes other people feel awkward. Jin doesn’t dare mention he got that from Kaori — she would totally deny it and sulk. He loves his wife but she’s scary, even when she doesn’t intend to be.
He feels very honored that he’s eldest son came to him for advice, after all, Choso went and proposed to his girlfriend before he even discussed it with him and Kaori, and before even graduating. While he expected it to happen, with their middle child being so infatuated with his girlfriend, he was a little disappointed Choso didn’t even come up to him for a little man to man discussion. Okay, he’s a big boy and everything, but Jin has had this fantasy about his sons asking him for advice about these kind of things.
Girlfriends, marriage, parenting.
He was devastated when Yuji came home with Megumi and said that they were now dating, then thanked his mother for the advice — completely skipping asking his dad. When Sukuna introduced you to the family, he figured he’d lost any opportunity to give romance advice to the boys.
Until now, that is.
Sukuna called him and asked to meet for lunch, just them. Now, it’s not like he doesn’t see him often, but he’s not the kind to want a one-on-one lunch with the parents. He’s been independent for years — which Jin still feels a bit guilty about. After all, they got a divorce when he was little and he had to adjust. He’s still persuaded that if it hadn’t happened, his son would have been a cuddly kid who counted on them for everything. Even if his wife said Sukuna was not like that in the first place.
“I bought a ring a few months after graduating university, for when ○○○ and I would be ready. And I think we are now,” he gets right to the point. His father cannot hold back the grin stretching his face.
“And you’re sure about your decision? This is what you want and who you want it with?” And he knows it is, but he has to make sure Sukuna’s happy with his choices. Although, he’s always been the kind to be decisive. If he’s even telling him about it, it can only mean he’s ready.
“Yeah. To be honest I was ready when I bought the ring. But with us just getting out of school and starting jobs, I wanted us to be settled first. And ○○○ wanted to try living alone, so marriage wasn’t a priority. I want to be her husband, though,” he explains his process, then takes a sip of his drink. “How did you propose to mom, like the two times?”
“Well…”
It’s an embarrassing story. Jin proposed at first sight. Kaori was pretty and interesting and she looked cool. And at the time, he was a bit of a reckless little jerk — his own father’s words, not his. He went on dates for the hell of it but had “no rizz,” Yuji would say. Eventually, he went to a blind date with a girl who most definitely didn’t find any interest in him and was apparently having a bad day, and decided to take it out on him.
Kaori was the waitress at the restaurant, and she witnessed how bad the date was going. She eventually decided to intervene because the poor guy was pitiful — her words. When the date left, huffing and puffing over getting scolded, Jin’s first words to Kaori were “marry me.”
“That can’t be how you got married,” Sukuna says, and the look he gives his father is half amusement and half horror.
“Oh no, we dated for a bit and then it was a whole shotgun weddi-” Jin stops and stares at his son, then away, before he clears his throat. “Anyways, there wasn’t any proposal.”
“Okay, how about the second time?”
This one is also an embarrassing story. They got divorced over petty fights. Jin can’t recall what even made Kaori start the procedure, but the papers cited “irreconcilable differences,” and he was too distraught and annoyed at the time to question it. They ended up getting a no contest divorce with split custody.
Except once all the energy from getting divorced fell down, Kaori was busy taking care of her brother’s funeral — and of his son, Choso, who she took full responsibility for after the accident. Jin was ever present, helping out the best he could with both kids and the family, which led to him and Kaori never quite taking distance. Actually, they had too much proximity.
Two years after their divorce, Kaori was pregnant with Yuji.
“So, you didn’t propose then either?”
“Well, yeah but it was very methodical. You know, we had two kids with another on the way. It was just logical to get married!”
“Why am I even asking you for advice again? Might as well look at some YouTube videos,” Sukuna snickers and they both laugh.
“Well, for what it’s worth, I genuinely wanted to marry your mom both times. And while we had to be hasty for our first marriage, I got her a ring anyways. The second ring was an heirloom, something that belonged to her mom, who gave it to me so I could re-propose.”
While he didn’t get much advice on “how to propose,” he kind of found comfort in the idea that if you love each other it will work out. Plus, it won’t be too hard to do better than his father in terms of setting.
A month after that lunch with his father, and he’s finally planned the proposal. Everyone close to you both is aware that it’s happening. He even went so far as asking your mom for your hand in marriage. Which she found hilarious but wouldn’t explain. He doesn’t know that when you told her that you and him were dating, she called you a “successful fan.” She refrained from suggesting that you should be the one to ask for his hand to his parents, given how you’d been so obsessed with him at some point.
He’s about to whisk you away to an expensive private onsen for a weekend, he’s got Yuki to take you to get your nails done — she said it would be good for the pictures, so he figured it was a good idea. And you are blissfully unaware, or so he hopes.
In the future, he would have loved to tell your children about how it was all perfect. How you cried tears of joy, you kissed, all was absolutely amazing. He didn’t account for how much he loved you and for the words to fight their way out of his mouth though.
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The Friday night before you depart for the onsen, he has an amateur basketball game. He joined the neighborhood’s team just to “keep his level up,” and every once in a while, they have friendly games with other neighborhoods.
Tonight, you’re in the bleachers with Yuji, who brought his boyfriend, Megumi — and you know this kid not because of Yuji but because of his mother, who used to be your boss and who’s now one of your friends.
While he’s usually pretty laid-back during games, tonight is different. Maybe it’s the nervous energy from knowing what he’s about to do this weekend, or maybe it’s the simple fact that he can see you and you smile at him every time he turns around to take a look. He feels like he’s one fire, which makes him play a bit differently, with a lot more fervor than usual. He’s scored four three-pointers in a row, making Yuji comment on how maybe his brother should have just gone pro, since he’s got the height anyways.
You’ve always loved watching him play. There’s just something about how cockily he smiles after he scores then gives you a look, that gets you going. He also knows about this because you get clingy after his games and confessed about it while you were still in uni. He can’t help but smirk when you latch onto his arm once it’s time to leave. Even with Yuji and Megumi in the car — so he can drop them off onto their campus — you hold his hand as he drives with the other.
When you get home, you can finally touch him the way you’ve been wanting to. It’s not your fault he looks particularly delectable after he exercises. Now, he also frequents the gym twice a week, so you get like this quite often, but post games you’re even more interested in him.
And he gets the urge — like he’s been having multiple times a day for a while now — to ask you to marry him again. He’s not sure what makes him get on one knee, right there in your living room. He’s all sweaty, he should wait until tomorrow, go with the plan. But you giggle at his gesture, completely unsure why he’s doing it. You’re so used to him doing all kinds of things, you’ve seen him on his knees before, it isn’t anything new. He drags his sports bag closer, hastily rummages into it and pulls a red velvet little box out.
“Kuna?”
He looks up at you with glistening eyes and a warm smile he only shows you. He can’t help but chuckle when you bring your hands to your mouth in surprise.
“I had a plan you know. I was going to do this on a sunset backdrop, after I had you all relaxed at the onsen. And you’d have been all dressed up for the occasion. We’d take pretty pictures for Instagram and everything… I look a mess, I’m sweaty and I love you so fucking much I can’t think of anything but becoming your husband, you know that?”
You grab his face, you want to kiss him breathless, but it doesn’t seem like he’s done talking.
“Remember when I asked you to move in together? How I wanted everything with you? I-” He takes a deep breath, stares at you with so much adoration in his eyes you think you might fall to your knees, “○○○, be my wife, please?”
You can’t answer verbally because all that would come out would be a pathetic sob, probably. Instead, you get to the ground too, frantically nodding your head in approval. And you quickly realize your crying your eyes out. You’ve never cried this much due to joy, it’s very peculiar. You’re overwhelmed with the amount of love you’re feeling, and surprised you have the capacity to love him any more than you already did.
“So, I take that as a yes, then?”
You let out a watery, “yeah.” You notice how shaky his hands are as he takes the ring out of its box and slides it onto your ring finger. And he adores you for barely paying attention to it and wrapping your arms around his neck immediately after he’s done.
“I love you, baby,” he mumbles into your neck and squeezes you to him. You respond to his declaration in between pecks pressed to his lips. It’s all messy, your eye make-up is running, your tears are on his face — and maybe some of his are on yours — you're laughing, crying, and kissing.
You get to your reservation at the onsen a day later than you're supposed to. It was very hard to stop celebrating after he proposed. He had no regret though, because it didn’t matter to you where he did it, you’d have said yes regardless.
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a.n.: I tried to work on keeping the whole thing coherent with all previous parts, I hope that worked out! thanks for reading ♡♡♡
fyi. kaori and jin are one of those couples who break-up and make-up constantly. Like a second divorce would eventually turn into a third marriage.
fake dating your best friend gojo satoru is a lot harder than you imagined.
not because he's not good at the faking part, he's really good at that. in fact, he's so good that you sometimes forget it's all an act. something to get him closer to the girl he's been crushing on since freshman year, and you closer to a guy he thinks you've been crushing on for forever.
thank god he doesn't know his assumption is completely incorrect.
so, yeah, maybe agreeing to fake date the guy you've been in love with since you were playing in sandboxes wasn't your brightest idea, nor was it particularly smart to help him try to get together with the girl he likes but so what? this was probably your only chance to truly experience gojo.
your friends were all shocked when the two of you came out with the news. they looked at your with furrowed brows and parted lips, not knowing whether to say congratulations or i told you so.
and it get's even harder tyring to protect yourself as this whole scheme continues because he's just such a good fake boyfriend. like that time you flunked an exam? you could've sworn he was playing with your feelings just for fun at this point.
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"what's wrong?" his muffled voice came out from behind your bedroom door. the two of you agreed to meet up for a "fake date" that would be plastered across your socials to make geto and suki jealous, but you had missed out on his last phone call, his plethora of texts, and weren't responding to his onslaught of questions.
you groaned into your pillow, face dry with old tears as you sat in a hunched and curled up position. you were so mentally exhausted from studying the past week and failing so miserably that you didn't even have the energy to open the door for him.
"was it that test?" gojo asked, and you just groaned louder at the thought of it, wiping at your nose.
you could hear him sigh, getting his answer from your weak excuse of a response. even when the two of you were in high school you'd kick yourself down over these sorts of things. now, in college, it seems to have gotten ten times worse.
"look...can i come in?" he knows you don't want him there, but that's the exact reason he's pushing this so much.
you swallow, sniffiling again as you raise your head from the pillow just a bit so that he could hear your groggy voice.
"i looked pooped out," you tell him, "i don't think i can make it tonight."
there's a pause,
and then he opens the door.
you groan in annoyance, looking at him from over your shoulder with a wrinkled brow and ready to berate him for being so emotionally inept when you spot the mountain of things in his arms.
snacks, food, his laptop (for movies, never anything work or school related), and that peach ice cream you love so much but is never in stock.
he lays it all out on your desk with a pleased smile, watching you roll over on your bed to take it all.
"kinda pieced it together when you didn't pick up," he explains, pointing to all the things he knew would cheer you up, "thought this would help."
you slowly lift from the position you'd been rotting in for the past three hours, going on wobbly legs as you make your way over to where he was.
fresh tears well up in your eyes because this isn't even fair, you still flunked that test, and the guy you love is acting like he actually cares about you.
at your reaction, gojo's smile drops, a worried expression taking over his face as his hand shoots up to your arms, caging you in between his strong body as you lean your head back and let out a strangled wail, one reminiscent of a cat.
"hey, hey, come on," he shushes, bringing you in for a tight hug, one reserved only for you, or so you hopelessly tell yourself, "it's okay, it's just a test."
your breathing quivers, "a really important one," you say, muffled against his chest, "a really really important one."
gojo shrugs, one hand rubbing up and down your back, the other one gingerly cradling the back of your head.
"and you'll do really really good on the next one, yeah?" he says softly, all teasing gone from his voice. you hate this, you hate that he's actually nice and not some jackass who's just using you.
you nod limply.
"maybe you could just buy the grade for me?" you say through a hiccup, looking up at him through watery eyes as his face of concern melts into a more relaxed one, rolling his eyes as he pinches your side.
"always thinking about my wallet, huh?" he chastises you, pushing you away by the flick of your forehead, shoving some chips into your outstretched hands.
"it's something good to think about," you mutter weakly, opening it as you look at the ruffled chips, rubbing at your nose as another hiccup escapes your chapped lips. it's stupid, you know that, but you can't control it.
"hey," he calls, his voice dipping a little, the one that forces you to look up at him because it means he's being serious, "it's gonna be okay. promise."
you nod, blinking slowly as you eat a chip, chewing lazily.
"besides, my crazy smart fake girlfriend can do anything she puts her mind to, right?" he says with a boyish smile, taking some chips for himself as he gives you another hug.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Five Nights at Freddy’s
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sun (Five Nights at Freddy’s)/Reader, Moon (Five Nights at Freddy’s)/Reader, Daycare Attendant (Five Nights at Freddy’s)/Reader
Characters: Sun (Five Nights at Freddy’s), Moon (Five Nights at Freddy’s)
Additional Tags: First ever work posted lets fuckin go, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Love Confessions, hoe you are smitten, No use of y/n, Potty Mouth Reader, playful bickering, kisses mwah mwah, not cannon to my au/just a stand alone, there’s references but that’s it, Reader-Insert, Insults as a Love Language, One Shot, Sun and Moon are the Same Animatronic (Five Nights At Freddy’s), gender neutral reader, post fire au
Summary:
Years after the fire that destroyed everything, you’ve regained a sense of normality in your life with Sun and Moon in tow, comfortably living with you in your apartment. Everything is great, perfect, just the way it should be.
So what do you do, then, when platonic “I love you”’s and common affection aren’t enough to satiate your longing desire for more? What do you do when you can’t stop yourself? Are you truly willing to risk your idyllic life with them over a heart that can’t put one foot in front of the other without falling?
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You weren't a technician, you weren't a security guard, you weren't a daycare assistant. You're just an employee. Staff. The ‘jack-of-all-trades’ employee with mediocre at best skills and specialty in none, tasked with doing miscellaneous jobs that robots couldn't do and human staff couldn't care to. The job is unpredictable, but it pays good and it's relatively easy.
Except for the part where all the animatronics are more sentient than you thought, and you're roped into a mystery surrounding the Daycare Attendants, who are bit too curious about you for your liking.
You don't think this was in your employee contact.
| Words: 225,814 | Chapters: 16/?
🌑Love, Death and Rollerskates by Spadillelicious
Rollerskater!Sun, Janitor!Moon, Metalstar!Eclipse x Staff!Reader
~~ [AU & Designs: @spadillelicious]
After moving to Crescent City in the 80s, you pick up a job at the local roller rink Party Planet. Ironic, considering roller skating is definitely not one of your talents.
On the bright side, you get to work with the friendly Sun. On the other hand, you also have to interact with the gruff janitor and security guard Moon on a daily basis.
But when staying after hours one day, despite being strictly instructed not to, you find out a terrible secret that changes everything you knew about Sun, Moon and Crescent City forever.
| Words: 98,091 | Chapters: 18/?
☀️Celestial Sundown by clutterspace
God!Sun, God!Moon, God!Eclipse x Human!Reader
~~ [AU & Designs: @pillowspace]
There was something slumped beneath a tree, and you had no idea what it was. The sunlight shone brighter where it laid, despite the leaves above not differing from any of the other foliage.
It was such a small thing to notice in comparison to everything else, but it brought a small hysterical giggle out past the lump in your throat as it finally clicked in place what you were seeing.
It was a god.
You are a peasant living in the middle of the woods, Sun is the god of day you brought back home with you, and Moon is the god of night tucked away in the Celestial Realm.
| Words: 83,805 | Chapters: 7/?
🌑In Deep Dreams Between the Waves by NaffEclipse (AO3 account required)
You see a fish, but the fish isn’t really a fish, because he looks up at you with big yellow eyes, wide with fright. Large black pupils dart around frantically. He’s small, less than half your size, which surprises you. You know mers are supposed to be big sea monsters that sink boats or cause storms, but you don’t see a monster. You think of a baby while staring at his chubby round face, creased with fear, and his small tail.
| Words: 55,644 | Chapters: 5/5
☀️Song Fish Amid the Stars by NaffEclipse (AO3 account required)
“If I may, Detectives, I believe that the score is set at a tie on how many times you’ve both let me slip away under your watch.” You grin at the sun and moon like faces of your opponents in this game of cat and mouse. The narrow slice of Detective Moon’s gaze becomes threatening, where Detective Sun curls and uncurls his fingers in anticipation of whatever scheme you’re concocting.
| Words: 174,134 | Chapters: 15/15
☀️Pisces Caelestis by S_V
Mermaid!Sun, Mermaid!Moon x Human!Reader
~~ [AU & Designs: @sortvaniliekrans]
Underneath the glowing eyes, a great maw opened to hiss at you, baring several rows of needle-like fangs, wicked looking and sharp and also glowing in the blacklight. As the thing hissed, the cries started up again, more frantic this time, and accompanied by- it almost sounded like scratching?
And it was coming from behind you.
The bleeding creature had never been the one wailing.
| Words: 76,588 | Chapters: 13/?
🌑Wintersweet Spirit by NaffEclipse (AO3 account required)
Your visit to a beautiful, tucked-away mountain town leaves you curious about the beliefs of a mythical beast who watches over the peaks and snowy ranges. An ill-advised trek toward the summit sends you tumbling directly into the mythical beast's domain as you must accept his guiding hand to endure the harsh mountaintop.
He is power and brightness, and the only one who can carry you through the snow.
| Words: 34,212 | Chapters: 3/3
☀️Celestial Omens by BamSara
Siren!Sun, Siren!Moon x Human!Reader
~~ [AU & Designs: bamsara]
When you are ten years old, you find two creatures, bloodied and injured, trapped a net on the beach near your home. You save them, make friends with them, and return them to the sea, leaving you to wonder later if your friends with the Sun colored scales and fins that shone like the full Moon were real or imagined up by a childhood of loneliess.
Time passes. You hear stories of monsters, Sirens in the water, one that is a good omen if spotted, promising your safe voyage as long as you respect the rules of the ocean, and one that sinks ships and eats people for fun. Just folktales meant to scare children.
A decade later, they return the favor, though they don't plan on leaving you so easily this time.
| Words: 36,318 | Chapters: 3/?
🌑Sources of Light by JackOfAllRabbits (AO3 account required)
Alien!Sun x Alien!Moon x Human!Y/N x Alien!Eclipse
~~ [AU & Designs: @maudiemoods]
Space has always seemed so far away until now...
Your life was mundane and simple; work, eat, and sleep. Taking small joys as they come to you and trying not to worry. Then, a summer night like any other takes a dramatic turn when you encounter a pair of aliens who had not anticipated meeting a human. In a panic you find yourself swept away onto their ship and now must navigate a universe of unknowns, starting with your strange abductors and the secrets surrounding them.
| Words: 120,077 | Chapters: 15/15
☀️Signs of Life by JackOfAllRabbits (AO3 account required)
Alien!Eclipse x Scientist!Y/N
~~ [AU & Designs: maudiemoods, @jackofallrabbits]
A new scientist has been hired to the Faz Co. research facility in the heart of the desert where any number of secrets can be kept. You are full of curiosity and are especially interested in a particularly fascinating subject that Faz Co. is holding.
A certain dangerous alien. Will you get too close for comfort? Is it worth the risk?
This fic is something of a sequel fic to Sources of Light and will revolve around Eclipse. This fic can stand on its own but there might be mention of past events.
| Words: 127,034 | Chapters: 13/?
🌑Cryptid Sightings by NaffEclipse (AO3 account required)
Perhaps this would scare a person, being all alone in the woods in the dark, but not you. You’re too intertwined with the paranormal and inexplicable. It’s in your blood. That doesn’t mean your heart won’t pound with terror when you face something with fangs and hungry eyes for flesh, but you don’t run away, and that’s what matters most.
You will face the monsters.
| Words: 253,823 | Chapters: 21/21
☀️What the Tide Keeps by Cipher_the_Sidhe
Mer!Sun, Mer!Moon x MerHandler!Y/N
~~ [AU & Designs: @cipher-the-sidhe]
Welcome to Freddy Fazbear's Mega Water World, the premier aquarium in the world! Enjoy our state-of-the-art rides and attractions, our dazzling animal performances, and prepare to be amazed by the stars of our show: live mers!
You are a mer handler at the illustrious Mega Water World. Or, you were, until something happens to the mer in your care and FazCo buries it all under red tape. Driven by grief and guilt, you team up with a fellow handler to uncover and bring to light the company’s unethical practices surrounding the mysterious mers they keep on display.
But what do you do when your search for the truth brings you face to face with two abandoned mers wasting away in the ruins of one of FazCo's old holding facilities? The mers are hurt and scared, but you are determined to make up for your past failure. You are going to take care of them, even if it kills you. And with two traumatized mers to contend with, it just might.
When you're invited to the Kingdom of Pleiades to try and woo Prince Sun or Prince Moon's hands in marriage along with many other suitors, you are less than enthused.
During your stay however, you get acquainted with their court jesters Dawn and Dusk; two performers with such wild personalities much different to that of royalty. Dawn with their bubbly personality and quick witted jokes, Dusk with their small pranks and sleepy like attitude. You can't help but want to spend time with them instead of the princes you now avoid.
If only you knew that Dawn and Dusk, Prince Sun and Prince Moon, were one in the same.
| Words: 20,692 | Chapters: 2/?
🌑Apex Polarity by NaffEclipse (AO3 account required)
In the Arctic, all is beautiful and cold and lethal. You tread over ice and underneath, a dark, powerful siren stalks you. Though you try to resist, you succumb to the lure of the mer and his decision to have you.
How do you survive an apex predator?
| Words: 125,998 | Chapters: 12/12
☀️Long Road Ahead by bubbiesaur
Samebody!Sun/Moon/Eclipse x Human!Reader
~~ [AU & Designs: @bubbiethesaur]
You didn't want a PleasureBot. You didn't need a PleasureBot. But here you were staring at a box from PleasureWorks (subsidiary of Fazbear Entertainment) and cursing your aunt. Just because you were alone doesn't mean you were unhappy. At least that's what you told yourself.
But when you open the package, you get a lot more than you bargained for. There's a long road ahead for the three of you...as long as you survive the first night.
| Words: 206,115 | Chapters: 18/?
🌑(Don't) Fear the Reaper by muzzle
CampCounselor!Sun, CampCounselor!Moon x Human!Reader
~~ [AU & Designs: @muzzlemouths]
Ten years after the tragedy that befell Camp Cosmo, something stirs in the woods, growing restless. A simple phone call embroils you in the fate of six guilty counselors, haunted by their past and a vengeful shadow that won't soon let them forget.
Your own innocence is called into question when friends become enemies, placing a target on your back, and you're met with a choice: play along, or become the next victim.
| Words: 61,870 | Chapters: 7/10
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☀️Product Testing by Bearitt
Samebody!Sun/Moon x Staff!Reader
You’re not exactly sure why you were chosen for this specific task they gave you, other than that you basically signed your life away in the fine print of your work contract and can’t really refuse what they ask of you but nonetheless it still makes you wonder.
| Words: 2,152 | Chapters: 1/1
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🔞The Pizzaplex Nighttime Mechanic by crickyluv
Same body!Sun/Moon, Glitch!Eclipse x Mechanic!Reader
~~ [AU: @crickyluv. Sun Design: crickyluv. Eclipse,Moon Design: crickyluv, deliasmoothie]
You finally got the job as the nighttime mechanic at Freddy Fazbear's Mega Pizzaplex! Unfortunately, you get a double shift. At least you get to spend time fixing the animatronic you knew best: Sun!
This is a slow burn that eventually turns into NSFW. There is a TON to get to before the spice comes.
| Words: 223,793 | Chapters: 49/?
🔞I Watched You Become a Stranger & How to Lure a Handler by IcedMetalTea (AO3 account required)
Mer!Sun, Mer!Moon x Handler!Y/N
~~ [AU & Designs: @icedmetaltea]
You work at one of the few aquariums cleared to house merfolk as a handler for twin mers who live in a sort of petting pool targeted at kids, as they've proven to be harmless to humans through the years. You spend your days taking care of them and supervising their interactions with the public.
You arrive at the exhibit for your early morning shift and, as you prepare for the day's visitors, the automatic door to the room malfunctions and slams shut while you're inside. You find yourself trapped with no sources of food, and the two creatures who have a very big appetite.
You decide to try and summon a demon to destroy the world as a big bang to end all of humanity. Then earn the lavish life you wanted when you went to hell.
Instead you get two small demons who say they can satisfy your very desire, except the desire you called them for.
You worked as a researchers for endangered species at a sanctuary.
One day, two of the newly discovered seahorse merfolk species come into the sanctuary after being caught in a net left in the ocean. Instead of releasing them back to the wild, the upper ranks at the sanctuary decide to use them for a breeding program.
Over the next few months you must decide to help your new friends escape or force them to spend their first mating cycle trapped inside of the sanctuary.
| Words: 28,299 | Chapters: 2/2
🔞We Can Serve You Better, Than They Can by Bearitt
RoyalGuard!Sun x RoyalGuard!Moon x Princess!Y/N
~~ [AU & Designs: @flusteredfools]
It wasn’t your fault, none of it was but you were the one who was punished and both Sir Sun and Sir Moon hated that. It was the King’s affair with the Sorcerer that caused your unfortunate fate. He played with the wrong heart, made too many promises with no intent to keep them; and you, kind, sensitive, beautiful, youngest of seven royal children, last in line to the throne, originally the King’s favorite child, you took the punishment.
A curse of lust, only to be cured by someone who truly loves you for more than what lies skin deep filling you up entirely; true love, they scoff. Every day as the sun sets, your body lights with an inner fire, every touch you feel feels hundreds times more sensitive to you and you yearn and beg for someone to hold you, fill you and ease the flames you feel burning inside.
In the King’s attempt to keep his secret and your curse hidden, he built you your own annex; a few trusted servants, staff and just you, furthest away from everyone else until you were able to find your true love and lift the curse.
| Words: 26,266 | Chapters: 5/5
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🔞Reeling You In by BrainrotObsessions
Mer!Sun, Mer!Moon x Handler!Y/N
As their handler, Sun and Moon relentlessly attempted to court you, often in ways that just came out needy, as cute as it was. As much as you loved them, you constantly had to hold back from returning those affections. But over time, it was slowly cracking away at your resolve.
A new tactic is what finally gets you to break.
| Words: 12,965 | Chapters: 2/2
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🔞Tempting the Stars by H_Grail
SamebodyAndroid!Sun/Moon/Eclipse x Technician!Y/N
You’re a Repair Technician that lives at the Pizzaplex, nothing weird about that. The days are filled with the hustle of making sure that the characters are in tip-top shape, well all the characters except for the Daycare Attendant.
You’ve never seen them and they have their own tech, but what happens when suddenly that tech has to take an indefinite leave of absence and you are the one that is responsible for filling in the position?
If you have any fic you wish to recommend me, please do! Though that will not guarantee it entering this list. And do consider that, as the title says and as I stated at the start, the fics added to this list are soley X READER/YN thus the relationship between the reader and the DCA is romantic or queerplatonic to some degree or can be interpreted as so <3
"Why are you looking at me like that?" You glared at him. You could take his apathy, his indifference, shove it somewhere deep inside and convince yourself that you felt the same.
"Like what?" His eyes burned into yours.
"Like you're jealous or something."
"What if I am?"
relationships: Choso x Reader, Nanami x Reader, Gojo x Reader (multiple endings)
content: MDNI !! angst and fluff and smut !! roommates-to-lovers, reader sleeps around, piv sex, fingering, oral (m! + f! receiving), shower + period sex, office sex, semi-public sex, spanking, arguments, breakups/makeups, heavy flirting/tension, threesome, mating press, blindfolds, whipped cream, jealousy, slice of life, domestic fluff, tension and teasing, messy relationships and complicated feelings
was very surprised to see sunday morning come in second for that poll on long fics !! did not think that many of you actually read this one (esp bc it's SO long LMFAO)
what part would you want next?
choso's ending one
gojo's ending two
nanami's ending one
Voting ended onMay 8, 2025
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