Julian, in his loose light training clothes, was lying on his back near the west window, talking to Mark, who had his head stuck in a book and was doing his best to ignore his younger half-brother.
âDonât you think âMarkâ is kind of a weird name for a Shadowhunter?â Julian was saying as Emma approached. âIÂ mean, if you really think about it. Itâs confusing. âPut a Mark on me, Mark.ââ
This⌠this is one of the most emblematic passages to understand the development of Julianâs character.Â
The boy you see in the passage has nothing in common with the character you meet in TDA. Try and compare the naive, young and carefree boy who makes stupid statements to his brother just to annoy him to the man who has to run an entire institute and hide his uncleâs real state of mind because otherwise he would lose his family, the man who is prepared to do everything (included vicious things) to keep his family safe and the very same man who has to suppress his own pure feelings because of the danger they carry.Â
In my opinion, that passage was intentionally put there because that clueless boy represents everything Julian could have been and would have been if he wasnât forced to kill his own father to protect his brothers and sisters. That boy represents how much Julian has had to sacrifice in order to keep his family close and the best part is that he doesnât care, he would throw everything in the fire if it meant keeping his family safe. All those things he had to endure alone because he wouldnât dare burden other people, not even Emma because her pain was his pain too.Â
All that pain and hardship heâs been through all this time carved him into the person he is today.Â
And people are right, heâs not entirely good, entirely moral and heâs certainly not perfect simply because he doesnât have to be. he doesnât have to be perfect to be one of the best characters Cassandra Clare has ever created.Â
And thatâs why I love him.Â