if you cant donate, this post is okay to reblog. thank you so much
im juno, im a 20-year-old mentally ill/disabled, chronically ill nb lesbian. im currently living with my emotionally/spiritually/psychologically abusive parents. this is against my will. i was living in an apartment at the beginning of the year until my parents convinced me to move back in with them, promising me that it would just be for a couple of months so that i could save money, and then in the fall semester i would start college and move onto campus. it is now december and my parents have revoked that promise at the last second twice now, and have been lying to anyone who asks about it (including my therapist) that i am living with them again in order to be more involved in their church.
they know i am gay and they want full control over my social life, so they have decided not to send me to school this year at all so that my only social outlet is the small church they co-pastor. this way they know every single person i’m spending time with and where we are at all times (all of these people my parents have herded me towards are straight, conservative, homophobic christians.) on top of this, said church is regularly attended by the man who abused me when i was a kid, so i have to see him every weekend, and i cant say anything about it because he and my dad are best friends and my brother is close friends with his sons. my mother is also trying to force me to see a neuropsychologist who is known for refusing to diagnose autistic people as autistic, because she wants to prove to me (and my therapist and my current psychiatrist) that i am not really autistic and that she wasnt wrong to punish me for showing autistic traits as a kid or ignoring my obvious need for help.
i am not allowed to leave the house without telling my parents where im going and who i’ll be with (im 20 years old and lived independently for several months.) i am mocked mercilessly for my hygiene problems and eating habits (both caused by my mental disorders) and told constantly not to use my mental conditions as an excuse (which means, dont show symptoms of being mentally ill.) my mother refuses to allow me access to medical care for my physical conditions unless i go off my psychiatric medication. i have no friends or social life outside of my parents’ church and nowhere to go.
im currently working full time as a housekeeper, trying to save up money to leave, but my supervisor is a petty, vindictive bully who has driven four other maids to quit without notice in the past two weeks alone. im literally terrified of her and am constantly on the verge of an anxiety attack as long as she’s in the same building as me, so i’m probably going to have to quit two months earlier than i’d planned for my own mental health. i might be able to get another job, but because of my mental state right now im not sure i can handle full time employment without a breakdown. im desperate and need to get out of this entire situation in any way i can.
im $200 short of my $1000+ goal, which i plan to use to move into my car and get somewhere safe, preferably out of state. if you can/want to donate, my paypal is [email protected]
tl;dr, im a cr*zy trauma survivor lesbian who’s been tricked into living with my abusive parents and going to their abusive church against my will, i have to leave work due to my mental health issues, and i need money so i can get out ASAP. paypal is [email protected]. every dollar will help me. thank you so much.
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