Wonderfully Made

A little screen grab from my TikTok video the other day because this version of me deserves to be celebrated. 💖

It’s been weeks na sobrang stress ako sa pag hahanap ng malilipatan. Honestly, madali… kung….. hindi ako busy sa work and other stuff. And ang hirap mag move out lalo kung nag accumulate ka ng madaming gamit, I learned to let go of my other stuff and just focused on what is only needed.

Ang dami ding gastos, jusko! Hindi na nga ako nag hire ng cleaners eh, ako nalang naglinis ng bawat sulok ng house hanggang balcony. Hindi rin kasi ako satisfied sa linis ng mga cleaners, madalas may naiiwang madumig surface. Saka okay narin ‘to atleast nakapag exercise ako. Hahaha

Yun nga lang, ilang araw ng pabalik balik yung lagnat ko, siguro ilang araw narin akong pagod at wala pang maayos na tulog. Dibale, konting konti nalang makaka settle na ako at makakapag rest.

Also, habang unti-unti kong inaalis yung mga gamit sa bahay, bigla akong nalungkot. Ilang taon din ako dito, kaya bigla akong napa relapse sa mga good and bad memories. But that’s how it is! Sometimes we have to let go of the past and focus on what’s coming next.

Got hit by a motorcycle while I was on my way to a property viewing. I ended up with a couple of injuries, tho not too serious naman, thankfully, but enough to slow me down for a bit.

The problem is, I don’t really have the luxury of slowing down right now. I have to move out this week, and there are still so many things I need to process and take care of. Papers, packing, errands, responsibilities…everything just keeps piling up.

Adulting is really tough. Like, what do people mean when they say “take care of yourself” when you’re in the middle of urgent adulting shit that won’t wait for you to heal? When life keeps demanding things from you kahit pagod ka na, kahit masakit pa katawan mo, kahit gusto mo lang humiga at magpahinga.

I know recovery is important, but sometimes it feels like life doesn’t pause just because you’re hurt. So here I am, trying to heal while still showing up for everything that needs me.

That sudden tightness in your chest. That small ache that appears whenever they cross your mind. That unexpected tear that falls before you even realize you’re hurting.

Is it because you miss them?