It's morbidly fascinating to me that Vox is so susceptible to Alastor's "You're nothing on your own" rhetoric when he's the one doing everything he can to take care of the other two.
Like, he physically protects them, warns them off from messing with more powerful people, makes sure Valentino eats and gives him things to occupy himself with during meetings. Val and Velvette both know he'll come deal with the former's tantrums if called, and not only does he do so, he clears his schedule, makes sure Velvette can handle things on her end before he leaves her studio, and goes the extra mile to help Val actually feel better instead of just calming him down. Vox is clearly committed to their physical and emotional well-being.
But it's like he just. Doesn't think it's enough. Or doesn't think any of it is noteworthy. Because Alastor tells him they're the ones supporting him (while implying that they would rather not), and within a few weeks he's gone from calmly (trying to) shut it down without engaging to not-so-calmly trying to defend his own contributions. And even then, he's only trying to defend his role in the Attack Heaven plan, not his place in the Vees as a whole. He knows he needs them, but doesn't seem to realize they need him too.
Coincidentally or not, his messaging starts changing at around the same time. Bad With Us is very much about his success, and calling on the other Overlords to join the Vees' crusade against Heaven. But at the rally, he starts presenting it as picking up where Lilith left off, and leans more and more heavily on her reputation as time goes on. Like he's lost all confidence that anyone would follow him, but he knows they'd follow her.
Even the way he's always copying other people, it's like he doesn't think he has any value of his own. He has to be someone else, because no one would want him.
And while I don't think the other Vees are even aware that he thinks that way about himself, they do unintentionally reinforce it. Because again, Vox does a lot for them, so being accused of only making time for them when he needed something had to have hurt. Even if (especially if) it was technically true at the time, it could have felt like confirmation that nothing he'd done for them balanced out how much he needed from them. I'd imagine it triggered his fear of abandonment, too, to see them getting mad at him and pulling away when everything had been going so well.
All of this is probably a big part of why he broke down the specific way he did. Because if nothing he does is ever going to be good enough, for anyone, why should he care what happens? If no one he'd ever cared about had ever done more than tolerate him in return, and they all turned on him the moment he asked a little too much, why not let the world burn?
It's going to be interesting to see how things play out now that he's not in a position to do the things he used to do for the other two. Either he'll realize they actually do need him, or he'll just feel more worthless than ever. And I'm actually not sure which is more likely.
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