Im Alienated

-im a guy

-turned 16 kinda recently

-gay furry but of course I haven’t told anyone irl about that because I’d fucking die

-school is hell and I’m hoping that I can have a fresh start at college when I graduate in 2 years

-I make art both traditional and digital (I post on my Instagram @4zh3r but DO NOT COMMENT THAT YOU CAME FROM TUMBLR THERE BECAUSE I DONT WAT ANYONE IRL FINDING OUT THAT I EVEN HAVE A TUMBLR)

-I’m an outcast

-I have some “close” friends that I don’t want to be close to anymore because I think they wouldn’t like he real me and they also make insensitive jokes

-I love music literally couldn’t live without it (favorite bands I can list of the top of my head is Can’t Bear This Party, I Set My Friends On Fire, and Weezer)

Ok that’s all I can think of writing for right now. If u read All of this that’s cool

Also here’s my old first post if ur curious:

It’s 5:45 am I’m kinda tired but I don’t want to go to sleep

It’s 5:45 am I’m kinda tired but I don’t want to go to sleep

It’s 5:45 am I’m kinda tired but I don’t want to go to sleep

I also don’t want to stop being on my phone and just sleep because I’m afraid of feeling really sad or depressed while waiting for myself to fall asleep. Idk if anyone else relates with that probably some people out there do considering there’s more than 8 billion people on earth lmao.

Pretty lame life I’m leading :D so to outweigh the lameness I need to keep on grinding making music and also I need to really make more digital photography.

I wish I could just hang out with some of my alien friends and walk with each other rn at 5:00 am and watch the sun rise because that would just make me so good. The lack of sleep I’ve been getting combined with seeing the night turn to day while being outside walking with my alien friends would make me feel euphoria. And this is so corny to say (BUT THATS OK) but the vibes would be immaculate 😭😭 and omg I would also bring my iPhone 6 to take more pics of the sun and sunrise and use them in my digital photographies.

I would tell my alien friends about how I’m feeling shit but not too much since I also just want to have fun with them while walking and not ruin the mood. And I’ll feel good because they’ll know how I’ve been kinda feeling like shit but all of us together would uplift each other and just have fun talking to each other and walking and looking at the scenery around us and how beautiful it is to see the sun come up.

Also I’m currently listening to this gato flingo gay furry video as I am writing this post and it’s pretty entertaining and funny to me. It’s making me feel better. Combined with writing another alien friends fantasy of mine, that is also making me feel somewhat better. Ok I should go to sleep now it’s 5:14 am.

I’m now way more interested in digital photography and making music. So basically I haven’t drawn in a long time and I also just don’t post much anymore on my main account.

Also in general while drawing, I always get burnt out easily and I also get more stressed out and overthinking as the drawing progresses as I don’t want to ruin it. I don’t have to experience any of those fears with making music and doing digital photography once in a while.