and by that i mean my roommate is so incredibly miserable and i have to imagine she feels really lonely if she ever pays attention to it and i dunno. she’s really awful to me and that’s not okay and she’s pushing me out of my home and that’s not okay but that kind of shit doesn’t come from nowhere and i suffer i guess in a way where i never want my suffering to inconvenience someone else and i don’t think that has some moralistic value to it but i think going out of your way to be as unkind and unyielding as possible and demanding someone leave because you resent that they take up space….is just a level of cruelty that feels really unfair. she hasn’t spoken a word to my face in over a year btw. so all of the passive aggressive hostile nonsense is through text. i’m trying to be positive about it.
i love my home, i love my room (ive never lived in a room this big before ever), i love my neighborhood, even the landlord isn’t bad. i think she wants me to be as miserable as she is and this supreme need to control everything/ everyone. she resents me and my cat for taking up space and after almost two years of this i give up i guess or i’m asking myself what i’m holding onto. is a room and a neighborhood worth me never feeling comfortable or at ease in my own home? i think bouncing between three unstable and hostile living environments over the past two years is just getting to me. i just want to live in a nice home with my cat. that’s all.
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