I'm still here, asshole

“I was made for another planet altogether. I mistook the way.”

“I was laying in bed one night and I thought ‘I’ll just quit…to hell with it.’ And another little voice inside me said ‘Don’t quit…save that tiny little ember of spark.’ And never give them that spark because as long as you have that spark, you can start the greatest fire again.”

“I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel―drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have―that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself what I further want to do, who I further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly.”