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I just wanted to say "fuck you" to the guy who stole my friends' time, care, and attention from me!!! You know what, I've been trying my best but you always appear to my eyes whenever I'm with her. Can you please give us sometime to enjoy and try not to bother us?!?! Maybe she chose you, no!! She really chose you and you know what makes it more painful? I was taken for granted because she knows that I can and I will do everything for her. And you asshole never reconsider my feelings and never imagine how will I feel! Ugh! I treated you like a brother but what did you do? It was fine for me to be her lover but you stole everything. Nothing was left. I never imagine that everything will end up like this. Don't worry I'm done. You can have her and mind you!!! You chose her and her friends over us your long time buddies!! Many people might say that I didnt understand you but I do, you were just really an asshole who never knew what is really going on. Anyway, congratulations you won again for the 2nd time.

1. Being ignored 2. Those people you expect to be with are not present 3. You fail to make her/them happy 4. Others made her/them happy 5. Left behind

Sobra lang akong nasasaktan. :'( I choose to be stupid and taken for granted. Buong buhay ko nagmahal ako, nag alaga ako at nag ingat ako. Maaaring God has reasons but I still don't know. I want to know. Ansakit sakit. :'(

Kenny Rogers #spaghetti #foodporn

Future: Putangina. Masasaktan na naman ako.

Gusto kong ilabas yung nararamdaman ko simula noong mag medical ward ako sa isang hospital dito sa amin. Grabe unang araw pa lang ng duty na yun may crush na agad akong nurse, parang naging inspired na ako nung araw na yun until now. Natatawa na lang minsan ako sa sarili ko. Parang hindi naman ako ganito dati, oo may mga nurses akong crush pero not to this point na may something. 4 days lang yung duty ko at grabe sabi ko sa sarili ko pede bang dito na lang ako at mag extend ng duty. Pagtinitingnan ko siya at pag naririnig ko ang boses niya, :"> OMG!! haha. Ang ganda niya talaga. Wala akong pinagsabihan sa mga kaibigan ko at kahit sa mga kaduty ko, kasi magbibiro na naman yung mga yun. haha. Pamula Monday until Thursday kahit puyat ako, kahit mahilo ako pag aalaga ng pasyente ko kasi wala akong breakfast, kahit na halos magka sore eyes ako nung last day, pumasok ako sa duty para lang makita siya at marinig ang matamis niyang salita. Kahit na di kami nagkaka usap okay lang. haha. Nagagawa kong pang tingnan ang pangalan niya sa Nurses notes ng px chart. haha. Hindi ko ma explain yung nararamdaman ko. Minsan tinitingnan ko sa google yung name niya searching for her acct. sa from different social networking sites. Siguro nga crush lang or infatuation lang to kasi 4 days lang naman and I'm hoping na mawala na to kasi di ko na ulit siya makakasama sa duty kasi ibang area na ako. -__- Pero bakit ganto kahit anong gusto kong mawala yung feelings na to e parang hinahanap hanap ko siya, gusto ko siyang makita palagi. Kahit kailan magulo ang function ng hypothalamus. Minsan talaga sa buhay ng tao may mga bagay tayong hindi natin maintindihan na kahit gamitin pa natin ang ating kukote ay hindi natin mauunawaan,  mauunawaan lamang natin ang isang bagay kung atin na itong naramdaman. 

Public Relation Officer of Nursing Speech Society