Benson Egghart

SHOWERBEER

Then stop Do whatever you can And stop I clearly wasn't worth it And if that isn't clear Then forfeit Every pleasant memory Because the rest of me Is worse And sharing pleasantries Won't work I know what I've done We challenged the sun Our time wasn't fun And our lungs Are worn out Just breath now And know I don't define you Just find Truth Whatever it is Get married; have kids And live. Above all; just live.

All is fair in love and war, And really, what's the difference? I've had to deal with both before, Like kissing you for instance Barbed wire trenches, guts and gore Grenades and bayonets Warm park benches, clothes on floors Cliched silhouettes I, a paratrooper, taking fire from below You, a bedspread Cupid, taking cover in the snow When armies clash, Do you blame the mass Of bodies left behind? Or simply mourn A lovers scorn, The fate of humankind Each city burned A lesson learned The earth still turns in space Let man progress Love nonetheless The game of chess, embrace

It never matter how many circles around her I ran It wasn't my pull that kept her in the sky It never mattered how many nights I stood by her Showing her the light For her my light was a sad imitation of the one who brightened her days Yet I stayed aloft Driven by the hope in her oceans I clung to the knowledge that in some small way I was important to her orbit But on the nights when her creatures came from the darkness to call to me I wanted nothing more than to howl back Nothing more than to return the lonely cries To tell her that I know how it feels to revolve around a heavenly body With no hope of touching

What she wanted What she needed Was a sun Something around which to orbit But I couldn't light her world I existed light years away She could only admire my light In the darkness I had burned out long ago

For years I'd say Blue And it was true My love grew with every hue Of optimistic gloom Even painted my room The darkest shade the store made Couldn't hate the rain The way the sky changed To the grayest parade Of glum navy waves As if to depict It's capacity to tint And keep my interest fixed Until the day the dawn betrayed The hazy way the heavens layed The firmament burning With willpower learned Tangerine! Amber! How Helios churned! Each stroke awoke A long buried hope To hold safe and close Until the days close When dusk says You must bed Just as you arose Tomorrow you'll learn What the golden sun knows

I went to the balcony I looked off the edge And it was just not far enough A few toy cars and a city bus But it was just not far enough Time seemed to slow when I flicked my butt But it was just not long enough It came to a head and I stood on the cusp It was just not steep enough So if I take that leap If I just give up I hope I'll have done enough

I’ve seen this all before 
I’ve been lured 
To impure blurbs from 
The core of my unsure
Heart
But you were my other part Whether half or more
You had cured my slur
For the moment
And I’ll hold it
In place of holding you
Because holding you back 
Is all I ever knew
With charms and arms
And smoke alarms
And selfish actions
That I still do And you
Act like it was never true
I can live with myself even
If I don’t want to My lines are written to be read between
Everything I said out of love I still mean
And I’m not out searching for someone new
I’m just looking for the man that met you
Clean your wounds and stay sober
Because only septic cuts scar over

I'm the opposite of every man that I have ever seen her with I can't grow facial hair and I listen to rap music She sees a city slicker drowning slowly in a fifth I'm stifled under light pollution, burns and cuts and bruises She's never seen me pick up my beaten old guitar Build a fire under the stars in the greatest of outdoors Gut the trout I spent five hours to catch and cook and char Sleep on dirt or grass and never think to ask for more My soul is older than the coldest boulders that rolled into the riverbed There's a bearded pioneer in here who seemed to disappear but never fled Don't judge covers.

New year, same me. Same fears, same sheets. Same peers, same feats. Unclear career preserves Blather rinse repeat

Find Seraphim within dwindling skin undressed

Past a black basket, a charred chalice, plaque can't grasp it for all marred malice

The truth of potent youth was proof i haven't the tooth for sweets