Missed Interview
I am sobbing at the moment because I missed the chance of my final job interview today. Until now, it doesn’t sink in in my mind that the small responsibility that I have to do, I haven’t done. It’s gone. The job position that I’m rooting for myself had flown away in one snap. I don’t know what I am going to feel, who’s going to blame or where/who am going to burst my rant but I know I am accountable to what happened.
Still, I can’t accept what just happened. I can’t understand it. If I need to be hard on myself or just let it go and move. Part of me saying, move on there’s a lot pf opportunities out there that is really for you, just try another job position on that company, who knows, you can make it. Another part of me still grieving and melancholic about what happened.
I don’t know why if it’s really meant for me, since the day that the company informed me about this last interview, time to time I’m checking my email. But the day that they sent me email, there’s no instinct, indication or inner feeling that I need to check it. And today, Voila, I missed it. Frankl, I am disappointed to myself. And I don’t know why who’s going to blame. I know to myself that I have to.
Thanks to my boyfriend, who’s always there for me. Comforting me. Yeah, he’s right, maybe the person who got hired to that position has a big needs. And maybe God has a much beautiful and bigger than that position. I know he’s preparing me for more. He knows what are the beautiful things for us and I trust him.
For now, I will let myself to give in and loosen up the stress that built because of what happened, I believe God will lead me in so much more. Thanks God in advance😊
