I wanna do right, but not right now

When they're naked at night she whispers to him

I know you can make it alright

But the damage moves in like a ghost from within

Let's get one thing straight from the get go

So, to catch up:

In November, I quit my job to focus full-time on opening my restaurant. Since then, it all fell apart. The building was in worse shape than we thought and one of the contractors that was going to do a lot of the work dropped out on me. The result was that the construction was going to cost more than double what I was anticipating. Not an unfair amount for a restaurant, just more than I have to do it.

So, I had to pivot. The job market isn't great. There weren't a lot of good options out there. Then I heard that my last job before my most recent one was hiring. I wasn't crazy about it at the time. I spent 7 years there mainly because I liked the people and the company. But I applied and I start Monday. A lot has happened to me in the over 3 years since I left. I think I'm in a much better headspace now. I'm glad to have a work from home job that isn't gross every day.

In between, with my business failing before it ever got a chance to start, it's been rough. There's been a lot of nights I couldn't sleep due to anxiety. Not knowing where or what my future should be. Things you shouldn't still have to be figuring out at 48. (spoiler, I think you're still figuring it out long after this.) But as of today, I think I'm in a good place. I'm kind of looking forward to getting back in a rhythm of things. This will allow me to have some clarity on some things. A steady income, a steady schedule that allows me to do things I like to do.