major tw for ed

you guys ever purge and see something you don't remember eating and then stare at your puke while trying to identify wtf you just vomited

it doesn't matter what weight you start at, i will never judge you. we're all sick and we're all going through it.

My dad told me to lose weight, but not take the easy way out. It is clear he was talking about ed. Bro, you think sitting in front of fried chicken and keeping my hand down is easy? You think working at 2 restaurants and not eating is easy? You talk about not eating for an entire 20 hours because of work, your keeping busy. I'm sitting and scrolling tumblr at 30hrs of my 48 hr fast. It is so easy to get up and grab a snack, but I'm sitting and chugging water. You can shut up about "the easy way out" because Ana is the most stressful thing I have ever come across, and I'm in geometry. Dad can screw off.

It hurts me everyday knowing I'm never gonna be loved as much as I love.

I truly believe that being skinny will solve all my problems