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“babe! slow down!” felix laughs. he's been watching you pace the apartment for a few minutes now, watching you gather the last few bits and stressing over if you have everything.

his words are a buzz to you. not only are you stressed, but also nervous. you love travelling and visiting new countries. to be able to taste new foods and see new things – you just wish you could skip the whole airport and security check.

your heartbeat is so loud in your ears, thumping away, that you don't hear felix. you grab last minute things such as toiletries, charging cables and your nintendo switch.

you rush past felix who is sitting on the bed beside an open suitcase packed with clothes and shoes. felix watches you rush around and check the bags where the cameras and electronics are for the nth time.

he frowns before grabbing your wrist and pulling you onto his lap. you let out an audible gasp in shock before wriggling on his lap; but with his arms being tightly around your midriff you're reminded how strong he is.

“let me go!” you whine as you struggle in his grip.

“nope.” he grins.

“lix we have to pack and make sure things are in order before we leave!”

“babe, we have plenty of time. relax.” he nuzzles onto your neck, his nose rubbing against your skin as the tips of his hair tickle your cheek.

“l-lix! please.” you giggle.

“we have one hour until we get picked up darling. we are far ahead of schedule!”

“one hour isn't enough time, lixie! we have to make sure we have everything. make sure everything is packed and we have our passports and tic–”

felix silents your rambling with the feeling of his lips being pressed against yours. you melt into the kiss, feeling all your worries and stress melt away.

he pulls away slightly, lips lingering and close to yours as he tucks your hair behind your ear. “everything is fine. you'll get sick if you keep stressing.”

“yeah, i know but there is so much at stake here. i feel so anxious.”

“about what?”

“about the flight, the people, the vlogging–just everything!” you emphasis, waving your arms in the arm and pouting. felix laughs and gently flicks your forehead.

“relax baby. everything will be ok. you've got this! all you have to do is believe that you have this and be confident in your work and if you need guidance, i’m your man.” 

the sicky feeling in your stomach still evident but slowly fading away. felix takes your hands gently and kisses the back of it, the sick feeling being replaced with butterflies instead.

“do you think i’ll do a good job of the vid?” you chew the inside of your cheek. felix nods.

“of course! the manager personally asked you so surely he must see something in you. he obviously sees potential in you and rightfully so!”

“but… but what if it's bad? what if stays don't like it?”

“you’re overthinking baby.” felix pulls you into a bear hug, arms holding you tightly. you let out a sigh, clinging onto him gently. your anxiety slowly starts to calm itself (for the time being at least)

“i just know there's going to be so many reporters and fans. all the cameras in our faces and flashing lights.” you say with a hint of bitterness in your voice. 

“just do what we talked about. stay close to me. hold onto me if needed. and if you can't find me, look for chan or minho or better yet, jisung.”

you nod, sighing heavily. travelling in general always manages to surface your anxiety. felix's soothing words and touch are doing very little to soothe you right now.

felix cups your cheeks gently in his soft hands. his thumb brushes over the skin of your cheek gently before leaning in and pressing his plump lips against your forehead gently. you smile, eyes slowly closing for a brief second.

“you’ll be fine baby. i promise.” he mumbles. you hum, feeling him pulling away from your forehead. he leans in, lips brushing against yours and just as you're about to kiss – his phone rings.

“what a cockblock.” he mumbles bitterly. you laugh and watch him pull his phone out and answer it. “hi seungmin.”

his tone of voice is sarcastic but the type that's playful and has no ill intent. you watch his brows raise slightly before putting seungmin on loudspeaker.

“hey. we're close by.” the sound of a car engine and passing traffic as well as small chatter being heard in the background.

“already? i thought we still had time.”

“y’know for how many times we fly out every year, i would've thought you would understand how airports work.” seungmin laughs.

“ugh but still.”

“its always best to be at the airport early. y’know for security and passport checks. especially when you're an idol.”

“yeah, that's true. there's usually so many people just waiting for us. it's insane!” as felix and seungmin chat, you gather your bags and cases, putting them by the door so it's easier to upload them onto the car.

“ok well, we shall see you soon?”

“ten minutes. just turned the corner and we're almost on your street.”

“alright, see you in ten. bye.” felix and seungmin both say bye together, hanging up the call.

felix walks to you and helps you with the rest of the luggage before putting on shoes, coat, cap and grabbing a mask.

“passport, check! tickets, check. phone, check.” you both make one last minute check, making sure to have the essentials before hearing the sound of a car horn outside your home.

“ready?” felix asks as he swings his duffle bag onto his shoulder. you nod, grabbing your bags and suitcase. he extends his hand out to you to which you take. he kisses the back of your hand gently.

“let's go then.”

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as expected, the airport was packed.

fans crowding around the entrance, ready and waiting with their phones tightly in their hands. reporters and journalist pacing the open areas, phones on a stand as they live broadcast to youtube. 

as soon as the doors opened of the van and the members stepped out, screams filled the airport as well as the blinding flashes of cameras. you watched as each member poured out off the van, you being the last to leave.

the members all make a line, posing casually for photos. they smile and joke around with one another whilst you sneak off to grab your carry-on bags. 

you can feel your heart beating a little too fast for your liking. you grab a mask and put it on, putting your hoodie over your head. you let out a shaky breath and close your eyes, counting down from ten.

so lost in calming yourself down, you didn't hear felix, so when you feel a hand on your shoulder from behind, you jump.

“oh, sorry babe.” felix laughs. “didn’t mean to scare ya.” 

you laugh weakly and shake your head. “it’s ok.” you watch the manager hand the lads their carry-on luggage. felix puts on a facemask and cap, taking out his passport. his brows furrow together as he notices you zoning out.

“hey. are you ok baby? you're looking a little pale.”

“huh? oh. yeah.. yeah. ‘m fine.” you laugh shakily, faking a smile as you take out your own passport. 

not convinced by your not-so-convincing lie, felix pulls you into his chest and holds you gently. he rests his chin on top of your head. you breathe in that calming scent of his, feeling your nerves and anxiety slowly trickle away.

“i don't think i can do this.” you weakly whisper as you grip onto felix. he rocks you gently, stroking your back in an attempt to soothe you. whilst grateful for his efforts, they sadly don't seem to be helping.

“i’ll be here with you and if you can't find me, look for chan. he is always at the back of the line.” 

you nod slowly before pulling away. felix takes your hand in his and holds it tightly, guiding you inside the airport. you pull your hood even further down as a way to try and look invisible as crowds gather and surround the members. the boys walk in a line, chan behind them to keep track of them and make sure they're safe.

screams and chatter of the fans buzz in the airport. they ask them random questions, call out their names to get their attention to take photos of them. journalist do the same thing, flashes from their cameras blinding you as you all walk to the check in area.

you dip your head low to save yourself from being blinded by the lights. at some point, you or felix let go of one another's hands and you're swallowed by the sea of people.

no one notices though. the fans ignore you, pushing and shoving you which causes you to trip several times. you look up in a panic and see the boys getting further and further away from you.

you pick up the speed, pushing and shoving past the people the best you can. you grip onto the strap of your bag, frantically trying not to lose sight of the members and staff.

you feel a lump form in your throat, your vision to blur and a buzz to ring in your ears. your chest feels tight and constricted, like someone is sitting on it. you can't breathe.

you open your mouth to call out for felix or chan, but all that comes out is a squeak. tears fill your eyes as you start to pant. you close your eyes and take a few shaky breathes in, letting yourself be dragged and shoved by the crowds of people.

“excuse me.” you hear a faint voice, a voice you know but due to how much your ears are buzzing and how foggy you feel, you can't distinguish the voice. “hey! yn, it's me. are you ok?”

you look up to see a concerned minho. his hands are on your biceps, his brows furrowed together with a concerned and worried look on his face. trailing behind him is jisung.

“there you are, yn!” jisung says through labored breathes. “we thought we lost you!” 

minho wraps his arm around your shoulder gently and pulls you through the crowds. jisung hands you a hard candy, claiming that sucking on it will help take your mind of things.

“you have your headphones, right?” he asks. you nod. “put them on. do what i do, it helps block out the noise.” 

you nod slowly and shakily. your legs feel like jelly. if it wasn't for minho's arm around you, you would have collapsed by now.

“we found her!” minho calls out. felix looks behind him and runs to you, grabbing you from minho's arm and hugging you tightly 

“i’m here. i'm sorry. i shouldn't have let go of you.” you shake your head no slowly, holding onto him gently. you can hear his fast heartbeat against your ear.

“i'm ok, lix. jisung and minho found me.” felix let's out a small hum. 

“we have to check in. will you be ok to walk still?” you nod. you put your headphones on and hold his hand gently.

felix squeezes your hand, scared of letting you go. chan and the manager walk closer to you, taking that extra precaution.

as if felix’s mood wasn't sour enough, the constant pushing and shoving from the fans is sending him over the edge. phones being shoved in his face. he's apologized to you many times for stepping on your toes due to being shoved into you.

his patients snap when you let out a small “ow” from someone's elbow hitting your ribs. he stops in his tracks, pulling you close to his side and looking at the fans.

“I understand that you're all excited and want to see us all but please, i ask of you all kindly, back up!” your eyes widen a little as do the fans.

“i find it incredibly rude how you are giving us little to no space, shoving your phones in our faces and pushing and shoving us to the point where i’m stepping on my girlfriend's toes and elbows are being shoved in her ribs. back up.”

his words dripping with authority as well as irritation. the fans mumble and take a few steps back. felix says a small thank you before continue the walk. some fans keep their distance and take photos and videos from afar, others disappearing and feeling like the day has be spoilt.

“that was hot.” you whisper. felix laughs and smirks.

“oh, was it?” you nod and grin. “maybe i should be like that with you then, yeah? more authoritative.”

“are you not already?” you tease.

“i can always teach my brat a thing or two.”

“like what?”

felix bends down to your level, lips ghosting against the shell of your ear. “like how to behave and be a good girl for daddy.” 

you feel butterflies flutter in your abdomen. all your anxiety is quick to disappear in an instant as the feeling of neediness and longing quickly takes over. felix smirks at you, loving the effect he has on you before taking your hand and leading you to the check-in desk.

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“god.” you groan, sinking into the soft seats of the aeroplane. “that was fucking stressful.” 

“are you ok, baby?” felix sits next to you as you remove your headphones and place them on your lap.

“i'm ok, lix. jisung and minho found me. jisung telling me to put my headphones on helped as well.”

“ok, that's good. i was so worried about you, baby. i turned and noticed you wasn't there. jisung instantly knew and went looking for you with minho. chan had to calm me down.”

“i’ve never seen felix so agitated before.” hyunjin pipes in from aisles as he wheels his carry on case past you both. “i swear i saw his heart drop down to his ass.”

you laugh softly as felix rolls his eyes but also laughs a little. you reach out and hold felix's hand gently. he caresses your hand gently with his thumb before giving it a gentle kiss.

“well, i’m ok and i’m safe. that's all that matters.” 

“you’re right. no point in worrying now.” you nod and sit back in your seat. the members sit in their designated seats, putting on their belts as you all wait for lift off.

you listen to the announcements and safety instructions before the aircraft starts to move. felix was kind enough to give you the window seat, knowing its your favourite seat, so you look out of it and watch the world zoom by.

the engines kick in and rumble as the plane lifts up. the mechanics of the wheels fold up and under the craft as the pilot steers the airplane so it's on its course.

once the craft is steady, various clicks of belts fills the craft as the members focus on whatever tasks they will be doing in the meantime.

hyunjin draws. jisung, seungmin and jeongin sleep. minho decides to read whilst chan listens to some music and podcasts whilst changbin brainstorms some lyrics in his well used notebook.

felix sits back in his seat, arms folded across his chest and his eyes close slowly. you look out of the window and watch the soft clouds pass by. they look like cotton candy, the plane passing through them as if they’re nothing as you become surrounded by them in the clear, blue sky.

the soft snores of your boyfriend cause you to look at him. you smile softly to yourself before placing a blanket over him and tucking it under his chin. his chest rises up and down slowly in time with his breathing, his lips parting slightly and hair flopping to the side as his head slowly slides and droops to the side. you would get him his neck pillow, but you don't want to disturb him.

it's probably been just as stressful for him as it has for you. the added stress and anxiety he must've felt when he realized you weren't by his side must have knocked him out cold once it subsided.

you give his head a gentle kiss before resting in your seat. you put on your headphones, lean back and listen to crime podcast as your eyes close slowly.

before you know it, you too, also fall asleep.

a few hours go by and you're woken by felix gently shaking you, whispering your name gently.

“yn. baby, wake up. some food and drink is here.” you groan slowly, rubbing your tired eyes and taking off your headphones as you pause your podcast.

“huh?” you say in your groggy state, not quite comprehending what felix is saying or where you currently are.

“food and drink. the cabin crew came round and gave us all something.” you stretch out your stale limbs and sit upright in your seat. you massage your neck a little, noticing a dull ache on your right side.

“what food is it?” felix laughs at your groggy state and your low, sleepy voice that's close to being a whisper.

“i wasn't sure on what you wanted so i thought we could share a salmon pokebowl. got you some water too.”

“mhm, thank you.” you reach out and grab your utensils, scooping up some food and putting it in your mouth.

the flavours tickle your tastebuds and you're instantly awake from how surprisingly flavourful it is.

“oh wow. this is good!” felix laughs softly and digs in.

“how was your nap?”

“eh.” you shrug. “its not the same as if i was back home but it's something at least. you?”

“pretty much the same.” felix watches you take your phone out and take a few photos of the food before you hold the phone up to him.

he takes it off you and takes a picture of you before leaning in close and taking photos of you both together before handing back your phone.

you think for a second before turning it from picture to video mode and pressing record. making sure to keep your voice low (because the other may still be asleep), you talk about your journey up to this point. you make sure to include the airport incident, the food and show felix briefly before stopping your recording.

you both munch on the food before feeling full, drinking the water and sighing softly in relief. it feels good to have food in your system.

you look at how much time you have left of the flight on the screen that's on the back of the seat in front of you – 1 and a half hours left.

you let out a soft groan, feeling boredom sinking in fast. you look over at felix and grin.

“hey baby.” felix hums and looks over at you. “ever had sex on a plane?”

his eyes widen a little before clearing his throat quickly. your question clearly caught him off guard but he's quick to regain composure. 

“can’t say that i have. why?” his question laced with suspicion, eyebrow raised as he watches you grin from ear to ear.

“wanna try? we have one and a half hours left.”

“are you asking me if i want to fuck my girlfriend right here, right now?”

“well, not exactly here but maybee–” your gaze drifts to the bathroom to which felix follows your gaze before looking back at you.

“you cheeky –”

“is that a yes?” you lean in close to ear, making sure your lips ghost against the shell and breath fanning against his skin “master.”

felix shivers and let's out a small growl. his hands clench into fists against his thighs as he feels blood rushing straight down south.

“you’re playing a dangerous game here.” his voice is barely a whisper as he watches your hand trail up and down his thigh, your fingertips grazing ever so slightly.

you all but hum. any second now and felix will snap. your hand trails higher and higher up his thigh until you're at his crotch when you grab and squeeze. his hips buck and a suppressed moan tickles the back of his throat. he grabs your wrist, glaring at you.

“bathroom. now. and don't make me wait a second longer, brat.”

you shiver and are quick to move to your feet. you walk down the isle, thankful that the members have either gone back to sleep or are too consumed in their activities to see your flush state.

you open the door of the bathroom, feeling slightly claustrophobic as you step in and close the door, awaiting felix. as you wait, you're hyper aware of how tingly and warm the pit of your stomach feels, how excited you are to be doing something like this.

you and felix have spoken about public sex before but never acted upon it, it was merely just a thought – until now.

you're nervous but very, very excited. judging by the way felix spoke and behaved a few seconds ago, you know it's going to be difficult to keep your voice down.

you don't have long to wait though because felix practically bursts through the doors and closes them at quickly. he glares at you, eyes narrowing into thin slits as he looks down at you with disrespect.

it's all an act. master and brat. but even so, no matter how many times he acts or looks like this, it manages to still shake you to your core.

you watch felix massage and squeeze his penis. he uses the palm of his hand to rub up and down his shaft, groaning a little at the harsh friction. you watch because he hasn't given you instructions and you don't want to upset him anymore than you already have.

“what are you waiting for? play with yourself. make sure you're nice and wet and ready for me. we don't have time.”

you nod, pulling down your pants and underwear. felix watches you, making sure you follow his silent and unspoken words.

he watches your hand slide down your stomach to between your legs where the pads of your fingers rub slow circles on your clit. you swallow your moans, biting your bottom lip gently as you toy with yourself.

meanwhile, felix’s eyebrows raise in satisfaction as he watches you slowly, but surely, lose your composure. his hand disappears into his pants and into his boxers, a soft grunt emitting from his lips as his palm makes contact with his hot shaft.

you watch him, eyes glued onto his crotch as you see the movements of his hands being show in his pants. felix takes advantage of this and kicks his head back as he moves his hand up and down his shaft faster (which is a little impossible due to the restrictions of his waistbands) 

“aah, fuck.” he groans. the deepness of his voice travels down your spine and to the pit of your stomach. you throb, feeling very hot and bothered as well as desperate.

“f-felix.” you pant. you use two fingers to slide between your folds where it's glistening and soppy. your fingers get coated nicely and you dare to slip your fingers inside your aching core. 

you chew your bottom lip and look at felix, silently asking, begging, to slip your fingers inside. he hums and nods once. 

you push your fingers inside your throbbing core. it warm and wet, pulsating and begging for something bigger, thicker. you push your fingers in as far as you can, slowly pulling and pushing them in and out before picking up the pace. 

“felix, it's not enough.” you whine. felix hums, not acknowledging the desperation in your voice. “lix, please. i need more.”

“not yet, little one.” he purrs.

“but why? you said so yourself, we have to be qui–” you stop yourself from talking due to felix raising his brows and sliding his free hand up you chest to your neck. he wraps his fingers around it, squeezing ever so slightly as if to warn you what's to come if you carry on.

“good girl.” you let out a small whimper and sigh of frustration but carry on pleasuring yourself. felix keeps his fingers around your neck as his other hand stokes and rubs his cock.

he can't deny that the soft whimpers and silent pleas along with the wet sounds of your cunt is making him feral. he wants to turn you around and shove his cock deep inside you to make you scream and shiver in pleasure. he wants his friends to hear you both and know what you're both up to. he wants someone to open the door and catch you both in the act which is why he's left the door unlocked.

his patients is wearing very thin. the sound and sight of you pleasuring yourself for the him and no one else is making him feel dizzy. his cock is hot and rock hard in his hand. his slit leaking pre-cum. 

i want to be inside he thinks to himself as he watches you desperately move your fingers in a uncoordinated fashion. your legs start to shake and knees buckle from under you as you whine and whimper.

he's had enough. that thin line snaps.

his lips crash against yours with such force and hunger, it knocks the air out off your lungs. he pulls your body close to him, pressing his erection against you and grinding on you. his hand slides up your torso to your breasts where he massages and squeezes them through the fabric of your t-shirt.

his tongue is quick to push past your lips, meeting your own. a small battle of dominance plays out. felix swallows each whimper and moan that slips past your lips. each others saliva is mixed together and swallowed by one another and soon, you feel his hand leave your breast to travel up your neck. 

his fingers wrap around your neck. he gentle squeezes the sides, applying a very small amount of pressure. you choke out “more” to which he obliges by applying more pressure until it’s just the right amount for you.

it’s enough to make you feel hazy and for background noise to sound muffled but it's not enough to cause serious harm. felix is rutting against you hastily, smirking against your lips as you copy his moments.

the actions are cut short, however. felix pulls away slightly and releases the pressure from your neck. you both pant against each others lips, letting air fill your lungs again. but this peaceful, serene moment is quick to disappear.

he grabs you by your shoulders so you're facing the sink. you grip onto it as felix grabs your hips and pulls them out closer to him. he uses his foot to spread your legs as wide as they can go.

“felix..” you whisper. he hushes you and grabs the base of his cock. he rubs his tip between your soaked folds, shivering and groaning at how warm and wet you feel for him already.

“this wet from just a few seconds of kissing and your fingers, mhm? i guess you don't need me considering–”

“no! please. i need you, felix. please.” you beg, pushing your ass into felix and grinding on him slightly. he hums and pushes his tip past your folds and into your entrance. you both sigh in relief, that fire and ache you both feel in your stomachs feeling somewhat satisfied – but it's not enough. in fact, its far from enough.

“felix, please. i can't–”

“that's not my name.”

you press your lips together in a thin line as hot tears of frustration threaten to spill. you take a deep breath in before speaking.

“daddy, please fuck me! i need to feel your cock deep inside me. i need to be filled by you. no one can satisfy me the way you can!” felix leans over you, chest to back, as he whispers in your ear.

“no one?” he growls. you shake your head no.

“no one.”

“not even your fingers?” a slight hint of jealousy and possessiveness drips from his words.

“not even my own fingers.” you confirm. happy with your response, he pushes his length slowly inside of you. you both hiss and groan at the feeling. his size is something you will never get used to. 

his thick cock stretches you, making it burn slightly the more he pushes. you endure it because you love the feeling. you feel so full and to him, you're so warm and inviting.

“god! you feel so fucking good around me. so warm, so tight. fuck!!”

felix doesn't give you time to adjust as he grabs your waist tightly and starts thrusting fast. you grip onto the sink, eyes squeezing shut and teeth bearing down into your bottom lip as you struggle to suppress your moans.

pleasure courses through your veins and tingles down your spine. the pit of your stomach feels numb but also tingly at the same time. toes curling in your shoes and head dipping low as sweat is quick to coat yours and felix's body.

“felix. i cant..” you squeak out. one hand leaves your waist to cover your mouth. your hot pants and moans are muffled against his hand as felix swallows every single moan that tickles the back of his throat.

“oh fuck. oh shit.” his voice hoarse and breathless. his hair sticking to his forehead and beads of sweat foaming and dripping from the base of his hair and down his neck.

your body rocks forward with each push and snap of felix's hips. he's so deep inside you, that you can feel it in your stomach. your body sometimes hits the base of the sink and you know that you're going to be covered in a few bruises after this.

felix goes from groaning to a few moments of silence before back to groaning again. skin slapping on skin, echoing in the small, enclosure space and mixing with the various moans and groans.

“felix. i can't.” your voice is barely a whisper. the open mouth moans you've been doing has caused your throat and mouth to dry up and feel tender. however, that's not the issue.

the issue is that you can feel your legs slowly giving up on you. they have been for a while so you simply tensed up your thighs until they burned. but the more felix thrusts, the harder and fiercer he becomes, the more your legs shake and knees buckle.

felix looks down and notices your legs shaking uncontrollably and your knuckles turning white from gripping onto the sink to keep yourself up right. he wraps his arm around your stomach to hold you up whilst pushing you closer to him and forcing you to stand upright, back to chest.

“are you ok, baby girl?” his breath tickling the shell of your ear. all you can do is hum and nod. with felix holding you up, your muscles can relax a little as you shift all your weight onto him. “good. just hang on a bit longer baby, i’m close.”

all you can do is nod. your energy is slowly depleting and mind becoming hazy with each glide of felix's cock. your walls convulse around him. wet, sloppy sounds of your pussy bouncing off the walls and making you feel somewhat embarrassed.

it burns in your stomach. it's fluttering and tightening into a small, tight ball. felix has become sloppy. his lips on the back of your neck, kissing and sucking with the occasional biting. his hands under your clothing, fondling your breasts expertly whilst his deep, rugged voice tickles your ears and contributes to your fast approaching orgasm.

“babe, i'm so close but i don't know–”

“i-in me.” it's taking every bit of your remaining energy to speak. “please. i want it in me. i want it all and to be full of you.”

“but–”

“felix, please!” you beg “oh god, please! i'm on birth control so it's ok. i want it. i need it.”

felix swallows and squeezes his eyes shut. his plump, swollen lips part into a perfect ‘o’ shape. his hips stutter and falter, the tempo being lost as he chases his high.

“b-baby.. cum.” you nod as a way to say same. with one final thrust, felix release inside of you with long, throaty groans. his muscles twitch and spasm as does his cock with each release. the feeling of his warmth filling you up is enough to send you over the edge and reach your own orgasm.

walls convulsing around his twitching cock. he holds you tightly, whispering sweet and gentle words as he thrusts slowly to ride out his high and help you in the process.

he slowly pulls out of you and you let out a disgruntled grunt. before felix pulls up his underwear and jeans, he brushes your hair to the side and whispers in your ear: 

“now be a good girl and keep it inside. don't spill a single drop.”

you nod once as you reach down and pull up your underwear and pants. it's uncomfortable. you feel sticky and gross between your legs however, this is what felix (and you) want so you oblige.

“think anyone heard us?” you ask as felix reaches out to open the door.

“maybe. maybe not.” he says with a shrug. “why? embarrassed.” he smirks.

“m-maybe. was i loud?” felix laughs and kisses your cheek.

“nope.” he grins. it's a playful grin, a grin that tells you that yes, you were in fact loud.

ah fuck. you think to yourself as you mentally prepare for the giggles and playful teasing from the boys. the door opens and you and felix walk down the isle, back to your seats.

luckily, only chan and jisung are awake and chan is too consumed with his work to even notice his surroundings. you pass by jisung who looks at you, raises his brow and smiles.

“have fun?” he whispers. you feel heat onto your cheeks, clearing your throat as jisung laughs softly. “don't worry, i won't tell.”

you pout a little before giggling. felix lets you sit first before he sits down. you rest your head on his shoulder as he grabs the Nintendo switch, booting up the legend of Zelda.

“tired?” he whispers as you yawn. you nod. you want to nap. with the adrenaline and hormones calming down, exhausting is setting in slowly but surely. you feel sore from where felix has grabbed you. the back of your thighs and hips hurting and feeling tender from his ruthless thrusts.

and to top it off, you feel gross. you want to strip and shower. your clothing is sticking to your body  and you both probably smell of sex. you can feel felix's cum threatening to spill and trickle out. you wouldn't be surprised if it hasn't already.

sure, you feel gross but you also feel content.

“hey, there you both are!” felix looks up to see chan has popped his head around to speak to you both. you pretend to be asleep. “is everything ok?”

“huh? oh, yeah. yn was feeling a little travel sick so i accompanied her in the bathroom, just in case.”

chan's brows furrow together in concern. meanwhile, jisung is listening in and scoffs to himself. felix looks over at him quickly.

“riiiight. travel sick.” he mouths to felix, using air quotations. felix politely tells him to shut up which causes jisung to laugh.

“oh fuck. is she ok?” 

“yeah, she's ok. she's tired but i think once the plane ride is over, she'll be ok again.” felix flashes chan a convincing smile, his thumb stroking your hand gently.

throughout the whole conversation, you were ‘asleep’, struggling to hold in your laughter. you felt like a pair of naughty school children getting caught in something they shouldn't be doing. 

chan nods and sits back in his designated seat as the pilot announces that they're close to their destination. felix takes this opportunity to gently nudge you ‘awake.’ you fake a yawn and stretch, sitting up and looking at felix. 

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the next morning was as expected. you awoke to the sound of your alarm blaring at you. with a heavy groan, you turn it off before slowly opening your eyes. you flop back down onto your back to allow yourself some time to awake and adjust to the day. 

as expected, your apartment is quiet. where felix sleeps is stone cold. your heart sinks. all you want is to wake up to him. to see his face puffy with sleep. to see his lips parting and chest rising. to hear his soft snores. your heart feels heavy and feelings turning sour.

it's not fair. it's not fair that he has to be away all the time. you want to have at least one day, one full day with felix. you don't want to share him with anyone else, but alas, you know that won't be possible any time soon. 

you rub your face and let out a soft groan, pushing the negative feelings aside as you sit up in bed and grab your phone. you smile at your screen, suddenly forgetting why you were so angsty when you see a notification on your screen from your lover.

you grin as you reply to his message before hopping out off bed. making your way to the bathroom, you gather some fresh clothes and underwear before doing your morning routine. you take a quick shower, drying and dressing yourself as you decide what to do for the day.

you've caught up with most of your university stuff so that's something you don't have to worry about. you now have a lot of free time and it feels so alien to you. you settle on watching some tv, to see if there's anything good on however, it's daytime and nothing good is ever on tv during the daytime.

after flicking through the various channels, you throw the remote to the side with a hefty sigh. you pick up your phone, replying to a few messages before opening instagram. you're met with a picture felix posted on his personal instagram of him and jisung.

they're in the dance studio dressed in their usual attire of t-shirt and sweatpants with a cap. both of them posing together doing the peace sign whilst the members in the background pull various funny faces and photobomb them.

you laugh, double tapping your screen to change the blank heart into a red one before leaving a sweet comment under the phone. you miss felix so much that it pains you. you miss waking up to him in the mornings and having morning cuddles, sex or both! you miss seeing him full of light and energy. these days, he's so tired and energy less that he drags his feet on the ground.

he tries his best to make up for lost time and you feel guilty because of it. you know when he comes home he just wants to jump into bed and sleep for a week but he spends all the remaining energy on you. you adore him for it and know that he wouldn't do anything he didn't want to.

that being said, you notice the bags under his eyes as well as everyone else's. the schedule is getting to them all. late nights and three hours of sleep, four if lucky, it's bound to catch up to them all. you know that felix is going to be at the building all day and possibly early morning.

he wants to do his best and he always feels like he has to one up himself. you, as well as the members, have told him countless times that it's ok and that he shouldn't work so hard to the point of exhaustion (which has happened before) but does he listen? nope!

as well as living close to the jyp building, you also live relatively close to a café. you grab your purse and phone, put on your shoes as well as a jacket before heading out to the local café to buy felix and everyone else a quick pick me up.

you order everyone's favorite coffees as well as brunch for them all. brunch consists of ham and cheese bagels, brownies, flapjacks, sandwiches, salads. you made sure to buy a variety as well as a lot of it because they know how to eat well! 

juggling the bags and coffees, you carefully and slowly make your way to the building. you make yourself be know at the front desk before taking an elevator up to the studio/dance room. stepping out, you make your way to dance room three, where the boys are.

“knock knock!” you announce yourself as you push open the door with your body. the members stop dancing, noticing you from the mirrors that cover the walls.

chan is the first to rush to you, holding the door wide open so it doesn't retract back and injure you or cause you to drop everything. you thank him briefly, becoming preoccupied by two familiar voices that are coming your way.

“she's my girlfriend!” felix protests, frowning at jisung who is currently pushing felix away gently by the shoulder.

“she's my best friend and i want to help her!”

“here we go again.” minho sighs from the back before rolling his eyes. his attention quickly focuses on jeongin, who asked for help on a particular dance move.

“you're so annoying, ji!” felix whines, pouting when jisung gets to you first. jisung mocks felix before smiling sweetly to you and taking the bags off you.

“thank you, sungie!” you breathe a sigh of relief, arms like jelly from carrying everything all at once.

“anything for my bestie.” jisung says sweetly as he passes a sulking felix. you laugh as you approach your boyfriend. jisung looks up at chan, asking him if it's ok for them to take a small five minute break. 

“i guess we can. yn did buy us all this stuff for us so, a five minute break sounds perfect!” with a cheer, the members rush to the array of coffee and food, each one of them thanking you and sitting on the wood floor whilst they take time to regain energy and compose themselves.

“don't sulk, baby. there's enough of me to go around.” you hum as you walks to felix (who is still sulking) felix hums as he holds your waist. he pulls you flush against his body as he leans in and whispers.

“don't forget who you belong to.” his voice is deep yet soft. sickly sweet and calm but it's enough to make you feel butterflies in your stomach and your cheeks to heat up.

“yes felix.” you whisper as you swallow. his hands stroke your waist ever so slowly and teasingly, a sly smirk resting on his lips.

“good girl.” you frown at him before clearing your throat.

“are you ok, yn?” jisung asks, noticing how pink your cheeks are. his lips in the perfect o shape as they wrap around the straw. cold ice coffee coats his tongue and throat.

you nod and clear your throat several times. felix holds you close to his side, his hand stroking the small of your back.

“is felix teasing you again?” jisung's eyebrow raises before his eyes roll as he notices the smug look on felix's face. he walks to you both, handing felix a coffee and sandwich.

“me? tease yn? pft, never.” you slap felix's arm gently, huffing and rolling your eyes. jisung grimaces at his friends antics, taking you by the arm and pulling you towards him.

“if you don't mind, felix, but i haven't seen my best friend for a while and would very much like to gossip! you're free to join us anytime.” 

you laugh softly as you let jisung drag you to where the members are, who are currently sat on the wood floor and taking a small break. you look behind you, shrugging at felix to which he playfully rolls his eyes at and follows you both.

you situate yourself next to jisung, felix on the other side of you. you share felix's coffee and sandwich as you realize that in the midst of buying for everyone, you forgot to buy for yourself.

“so, how's life been?” jisung asks as he wipes his mouth.

“ji, we spoke literally yesterday. we text each other every day.” you laugh

“i know but am i not allowed to ask how my best friend is? texting is different than talking face to face yknow.” 

“mhm, you have a point.” you huff before going into detail about what you've been up to, which has mainly been university work. you talk about your recent project you just finished, about your professors before turning your attention on you and felix. you talk about how life has been since moving away from home to be with your one true love.

“it gets lonely at times, i won't lie. i do miss my family.” you mumble sadly, fiddling with your jeans. jisung frowns and looks at felix who is looking at you with a concerned look. 

“hey, is everything ok, darling?” his voice is soft and gently. his hand on your leg as he strokes it tenderly and soothing.

“yeah.. it just sucks yknow.” you say with a shrug. felix gives you a sympathetic smile. the atmosphere in the room shifts to a somewhat calm feeling as the members gather around you.

“i know it can be hard darling.” felix holds your hand gently. his skin is warm and comforting, washing away your worries in an instant. “but you have us. i know it's not much bu–”

“this is all i need.” you interrupt without meaning to. “this is more than enough felix. to have you and everyone here accept me, accept us is a blessing. and not just that, even the staff and fans like me so that counts for something, right?”

felix gives you a warm smile and nod. “of course darling.”

“y’know, if you ever need someone to talk to, we're all here for ya, yn.” you look up at chan as the rest of the members nod their heads and mumble in agreement.

“if you need a time out, my door is always open for you. we can read or create some art together.” hyunjin grins.

“or i can take you out to a really good Korean BBQ!” changbin gives you a goofy grin. you look around at everyone as your heart swells with love and admiration for everyone.

“we all care and love you yn.” jisung speaks from the side and squeezes your shoulder. your eyes well with tears, happy tears, as the amount of love you currently feel is overpowering.

“thank you everyone.” you choke out and furiously blink back the tears. felix laughs and gives your cheek a gentle peck.

“alright guys.” chan bellows out with a clap of his hands. “enough chit chat. we have practice!” 

the many groans and sighs of the members makes you laugh. chan chuckles softly and rolls his eyes.

“the quicker we practice, the sooner we can leave the building and call it a day!” chan encourages. with a mumble, everyone puts down their cups and stretches in front of the mirrors. you're quick to stand on your feet and as you're about to walk to the side to sit and watch, Felix pulls you in close by the waist.

“sure you're ok, baby girl?” he whispers. you giggle and nod your head, acknowledging the flutter in your core from the nickname. 

“i’ll be ok, daddy.” you whisper as you stroke his cheek. felix hums softly and kisses your lips gently. it's short of a simple peck with it slowly turning into a slow and passionate make-out session.

a cough from the side causes you both to sheepishly pull away from one another. chan staring at felix in an authorized way which makes you both feel like two kids being told off.

“i’ll just.. go over here.” you mumble before giggling as you walk to the wall and sit on the floor. felix nods and clears his throat, his cheeks a noticeable beet red as he joins the rest of the members.

“done sucking the face off yn?” jisung asks in a playful yet mocking tone. felix gently shoves jisung by the shoulder which causes him to stumble into minho and laugh.

“shut up.” felix mumbles, clearly embarrassed. jisung gives him a cheeky wink before getting into position for dance practice.

as the music blares and the members dance, you take the time to look at your university schedule. you cheer to yourself as you see you don't have much left to do before a week break, a break in which you can hopefully spend with felix.

once done, you browse on your phone for a little while before getting bored and deciding to watch the members dance. their fluid motions paired with the playfulness and changbin scream every once in a while makes you proud to be part of something. you love felix but you also love the guys just as much. they have welcomed you with open arms and with love. they’re your family.

every now and then, you and felix make eye contact. he winks and blows you a kiss to which you catch and blow one back before you both grin. minho starts complaining about seungmin making a small mistake to which seungmin argues back. it's a playful, light hearted argument, but that doesn't stop chan from stepping in and ‘breaking up’ the small dispute (with a big grin on his face)

you grab your phone and open up the camera app to take a video once everyone becomes serious again. you take a fifteen second video of the group, the first few minutes being serious before it all collapses and they’re back to being their chaotic self again. you laugh as you watch the video back before posting it on your tiktok account captioned “behind the scenes. can’t even be serious for fifteen seconds before erupting into chaos! 😂” 

comments and likes come flooding in. you read the comments, smiling to yourself. one thing you have been terrified of since coming out to the public about you and felix, is how the fans would take it. you feel warm to know that the fans welcome you and accept you as well as accepting the relationship you both have. of course, there were a few over the top fans in the very beginning that tried to cancel you and the relationship as well as spewing hateful words at you, but with felix’s reassurance (and the members) you soon learnt to ignore them and not give them the attention they want. soon enough, the hate died down.

“hey yn!” you look up from your phone and smile as stray kids manager approaches you. he squats down to your level, a mask covering the lower portion of his face. he adjusts it before speaking again. “you want to get into graphic design and vlogging, right?”

you lock your phone and place it beside you as a sign of respect and manners before replying. “yes. graphic design is what im studying right now and vlogging is a small side hobby of mine. why?”

“i have a favor to ask you. if it’s ok with you, do you think you could be able to film a behind the scenes for the next skz talker?” your eyes widen a little. excitement bubbles in your stomach.

“of course! but why me? what happened to the usual camera man that films them?” 

the manager rubs the back of his neck before sighing softly. “unfortunately, they're sick and will be for a while it seems.”

“oh. im sorry to hear that.” you frown “but i will happily take the opportunity!”

“brilliant! is it ok if i have your number? just so i can text you the location and plans. business only.” he laughs.

you chuckle softly and nod, telling him your phone number. you watch him take it down in his phone before sending you a quick whatsapp message. you save his number to your phone before standing up as he does.

“wait. aren't the boys scheduled to go to Tokyo for the next talker episode?” you realize, brows furrowed together. the manager nods.

“yes. that's why we need you and that's why the main camera man can't clearly fly when he is sick.”

“but.. that's in a few days and i don't have a ticket..” realization dawn's on you. too caught up in the excitement, you failed to see the bigger problem – you're a broke adult who is at university and can't afford a plane ticket in time.

the manger rolls his eyes and laughs softly. “don’t worry about that yn. leave that to me. just make sure you have a passport and it's in date and make sure your case is packed,.”

“are you sure?” 

“positive. we really need someone yn and you're the first person that came into mind. leave everything else to me.”

you nod as the excitement returns. you trust the manager knows what he is doing so you put all your faith into him.

“thank you so much! i am in your care!” you give him a wide, toothy grin that makes your cheeks hurt before bowing out of politeness.

he hums before bowing and laughing softly. “i trust you will do well, yn. thank you again.” 

you nod before watching him walk out of the studio. you squeal a little to yourself before clapping your hands excitedly before sitting down. felix watched the whole interaction between you both and is curious as ever to know what was said to give you that grin, but alas, practice must come first.

“alright everyone. let's take a quick water break. wipe the sweat of your brows and rehydrate.” 

everyone disburses, chests heaving up and down as the sounds of panting fills the air along with the musk scent of sweat and body spray. felix walks over to you, towel around his shoulders as he dabs his sweaty forehead with the end. 

“hey baby girl.” you look up at him and beam brightly at him. 

“hey. how was practice?” felix sits next to you with a groan. he leans back against the way, legs spread out in front of him. jisung walks to felix, handing him an ice cold bottle of water. water droplets and condensation drip down the sides of the bottle as felix opens it and takes a massive gulp.

jisung sits opposite you, water bottle in one hand, towel in another.

“practice was.. well –”

“brutal? tiring?” jisung laughs as he finishes off felix's sentence. felix hums and nods in agreement as minho walks behind jisung and gentle taps him on the shoulder. he hands him a tissue to which jisung takes and presses it against his forehead, mimicking minho's habit.

“well, seems like you're all going to be busy for a while.” you say with a pout. felix hums and pouts also.

“‘m sorry darling. i promise to video call you and text you every day when im away!” 

you look up at him and grin. “oh, that won't be necessary.”

jisung and felix exchange confusing looks before looking at you, encouraging you to continue and wondering what you mean.

“why not?” 

“well, you saw the manager come and talk to me, right?” felix nods. “well, looks like i will be coming with you all!”

“wait, reallly?!” felix's face lights eyes, his eyes shining bright with excitement as he sits up straight

“you’re looking at the new, and temporary, camera women! i was asked to film some behind the scenes content for skz talker!”

“are you joking right now?!” you shake your head no as felix engulfs you into a big hug. jisung smiles and pats your shoulder.

“congratulations yn. look forward to seeing what you put out! i’m super proud of you.” 

“thank you, ji! means a lot to me.” you manage to say as you're currently being squeezed to death by your proud boyfriend.

“this is a dream come true for you yn! i’m so proud of you and excited too!” felix let's you go for a brief second for you to breath.

“thank you, lix.” you mumble, suddenly feeling bashful and shy. he kisses your cheek gently.

“i guess we should start packing. the trip is only a few days away!” 

“yeah.. i can already feel the stress!” you grumble which makes felix laugh and pat your head.

“don’t worry yn. i’m here and i can help you pack. plus, it's only for a few days so you don't need to pack that much, just the necessities!”

“i know i know but it's the stress and anxiety of going on a trip. it's the whole process!”

“mhm, i get ya yn.” you look at jisung, “the packing and then the panicking of ‘where is my passport?’ and ‘do i have the ticket?!’ and then when you get there, there is the stress of going through security check and the photographers and–”

“oh fuck. i forgot about the huge crowds. all the people that will be there to see you guys.” felix takes you now clammy hands into his as the colour drains from your cheeks.

“hey, you'll be ok yn. me, ji, chan, binnie, hyun – all of us will be there for you if needed.”

“but–”

“shh. i know darling but you will be ok, i promise you.”

“just do what i do yn. put on some noise cancelling earphones, a big hoodie so you can put the hood over your head and earphones and just cling onto one of us. it helps calm the anxiety down.” jisung smiles softly at you as you nod slowly.

“we can always take panda with you.” felix speaks softly. panda is you pocket sized plush that you squeeze when feeling any sort of negative emotions. you mainly use it for when you're feeling anxious and squeezing/cuddling it helps you a lot.

“really?” you ask hopefully.

“of course darling! he's small enough to be put in your carry on bag so you can take him through security and onto the plane with you.”

“i’d like that a lot, lix..” you mumble. felix kisses your forehead gently.

“no use thinking about it now darling. that's tonight's problem.”

“yeah, you're right lix.” you grin before kissing him gently and standing up.

“where are you going?”

“going to tell chan and everyone the good news!” you grin before rushing off. jisung and felix watch you be surrounded by the members, all of them hugging you and looking ecstatic in the news.

felix feels a sense of pride and love welling up in his body. he's so glad that everyone has accepted the relationship between the two of you. truth be told, even if they didn't accept, felix wouldn't have listened and would've ran away with you.