close your eyes. try and rest.
a god should not be able to avert her eyes.
what a terrible thing it must be, to be monstrous and not even know it.
how can you remain neutral when it's your property being blown up?
sleep well, when sleep comes.
no one's safe. you know that as well as anyone.
it's happening. just like we talked about.
i need you to know i love you. i love you so damn much.
the road's always where i've been happiest.
everything burns out in the end. it has to.
we need to get you somewhere safe.
you must have an extraordinary heart, to carry so much in it.
i've never heard you say sorry.
i've got grievances. i've got questions i need answers to.
your voice is ____ than i remember.
you were always doing the best you could.
i don't have much, but i'm everything i always wanted to be.
do you have a family out there?
do you enjoy playing the part of ____?
you'll find another part. you'll become someone else.
it takes courage changing anything.
you were always brave enough to know what needed to change.
you're not the center of all things, past and future.
you're adrift. just like the rest of us.
there's no more truth to your fragment than mine.
maybe you just need a little inspiration.
we're all going to die screaming that we're not really dying, and we're not really screaming.
hell of a view from the top.
can i share something with you, in confidence?
fuck it. let's take a leap of faith.
none of our problems have gone away, but we're still here. we're still surviving, somehow.
i'm becoming what they see in me.
i want you to be more than i was.
we all thought ____ was making you up.
i can understand wanting to keep yourself apart from other people.
life cannot inhabit a vacuum.
you're not a person, are you?
no blessing comes without cost.
is this kindness, or just a predator circling before it feeds?
can you hear the song beneath the song?
this is where it ends, then?
you have to be lying to me. that's all i can think.
will i see my friends again?
i feel good. i didn't dream.
i promise not to leave without saying goodbye, at least.
i have nothing and no one left in this world.
agreeing is easier than anything else.
what will you be, now that there's nothing left to become?
i've had decades of comfort. none of it made me safe.
i'll go where you lead me.
i will be better than they are.
you do not need to be afraid of me.
i am not what they intended me to be.
i was honestly never too fond of families.
you wonder what kind of a world we're bringing children into, you know?
what can they do to us that they haven't done already?
they must not see you hesitate.
when you come for one of us, you come for all of us.
this is great. maybe i should've gone into acting.
you should have let me die.
kill them all, but let _____ live.
i'm not leaving you, you fucking idiot.
you can find meaning in anything, if you mess around enough with words.
it's just one thing after another, isn't it?
we can still fix this. this isn't our end.
i only want to live up to the lesson you taught me.
you think i tarnish my title, do you?
you have nothing to confess. nothing to be sorry for.
that's what people say right before they do something really stupid.
you probably know who i am, right?
i survived. i didn't think i would.
where are the tears of our god? where is its sorrow for us?
anything can be a stable foundation, as long as you've got enough cement.
all of us are capable of change. every single one of us.
i am not going to get better. nor will you. nor will any of us.
what do you think i'm going to do to you?
what did you want to be when you were small?
if this is my punishment, why am i smiling?
i did it. i'm to blame. i accept that.
how about what you did to me? can you bear that weight?
there will be a reckoning for what you've done.
you wouldn't be able to bear the weight, if you understood the harm you've done.
there's no way past it, and there's no way around.
it's a little like an apology, isn't it? explaining yourself?
we're entangled, you and i, in the ruin of one another.
hope is a twisting noose.
change will come. it has to.
we're all crawling grubs dreaming of butterfly's wings, told a fine tale by the birds above us. and while we're dreaming, they all come down to feed.
i hate you because i know you. better than anyone else has known you.
i hate you. i truly do. and i love you, too, in spite of everything.
i'm wise to what you really are. i can see the eyes beneath your eyes.
there'll be a place for you, and it will be beside me. that's my offering. that's all i have to give.
the best feeling in the world is seeing you walk away.
walk until you're lost to me. don't look back.
you'll laugh, i think, when you hear it.
i never really cared for any of you all that much, if i'm honest.
is it really such a bad thing, to be nothing?
it's never too late to change.
i'll wear whatever shape you choose for me.
no matter how it starts, it can end with love, can't it? it can end with kindness.
we talked a lot, but always about the wrong things.
you can find the beauty in almost anything, once you stop struggling.
it's not like ____ said it would be.