i have been so demotivated to be on here since they personally dropped twelve nukes on my girlfriend in the street but. idk where else to go

someday i may exist again

its been a little over a week since we quit weed cold turkey and i am SOOO nausous. everyone on the leaves subreddit says that the week mark can be really tough so i am Grimming and Bearing it. we have been able to see a LOT of positive changes tho and that makes it easier

also, it feels like certain headmates are more comfortable showing up with different hosts/main fronters. Lilith has not been this active in a long time, but ones like Saturn were more active when Rome was host/comes around more when GFs dudes are active.

so i (clementine) am separate from bear. i think i split off of her because i took a lot of her with me. it makes sense for us to have formed a new host because it tends to work in 2-3 years cycles for us. i was originally goldcat before i had a name and identity, if we tagged anything that

pinterest is for observing 13 year olds develop moral OCD in real time

i an trying to quit smoking but i think i was designed to be anxious and scared forever

mfw reclusive shift is reclusive

based mom is pro self diagnosis

we have like no semblance of a headspace. sometimes i get jealous reading the experiences of others who have one. if we arent fronting, cofronting, or in the backseat then we don’t really exist. if i can hear them then they are at least in the back seat.

i think i am losing my mind . i dont think there is a future in being this disfunctional