i miss you two

Did I even talk about Than today? Maybe that's why I feel like death

The plans... They're all gone, aren't they? I won't get to see him play Ocarina or Wild. I won't get to show him Twilight Princess or Skyward Sword. All these things I was over the moon for. All gone? I... Why? I still don't know what I did. If I knew, I'd fix it.

I wasn't good enough to have friends yet. I don't think I'll ever be good enough. I can't stop feeling emotions. These stupid, intense emotions.

Oh please make a new host, one who won't be anything like me. Give us an unfeeling robot who can handle the day to day and break attachments like glass, please please please. Let me go dormant with him.

He wants away from me. And I don't know how to leave. I want to stay and be his friend. I want him in my life. But I think I have to die to spare him. I don't know how else to say goodbye. My heart can't handle the grief.

I just shouldn't be alive anymore. I wake up, it's a problem. I text to make sure things are okay, it's a problem. I feel, it's a problem. I want to understand what I did wrong, it's a problem. I need help for my heart condition, it's a problem. I need emergency calls, it's a problem. He said the fact I'm alive is a problem. I was only ever trying to be a good friend, a good human. But I'm still that stupid little girl who's a burden to everyone around her, wasting her time trying to be good enough to be loved. I'll never be good enough.

My best friend admitted to wanting me dead and trying to kill me.

too anxious you're gonna get mad at me for the sg thing im so dizzy and my chest hurts ugh... i cant just have an easy day apparently

singing Part of Your World, pretending to hold Lana, rocking her back and forth. hoping it might help her somehow