hiii, it’s ex fiancée anon and yesterday i realized something, i don’t want to get married, at all. i love my ex sm but i really don’t want to get married this young and it’s so weird cause ive known my whole life that i wanted to get married until my late 20s or early 30s so i have no idea why i even said yes to his proposal to begin with. i have so much ambition and things i wanted to experience before i settle down and i think that as i approached all these wedding plans, i started panicking and i talked to my ex about that and he really understood it, but he was horrible at hiding his disappointment and he made it clear that he does want to get married, whether it’s in a few years or ten. but idk, that kind of made me feel as if i get back with him, the endgame is to get married no matter what and i don’t think i like that. it was definitely off putting to me bc here i am telling him that im not sure if i even want to get married and he’s talking abt eventually having a wedding. marriage just isn’t something im willing to commit to right now and i think a lot of external pressure from friends and family is what made me even agree to get married. the more i think abt it the more i realize that i was really just excited to wear a pretty dress and that’s it. it wasn’t like typical engaged couples who are so excited for the ceremony and planning and all that. i talked to family members who are married and everything they were looking forward to, i wasnt. ik i said i made a mistake calling off the engagement, but i think that was emotional speaking bc now i feel free in a way. idk if im going to ever get back with my ex, and it hurts, but i dont want to feel like im being forced to eventually have to get married either, so rn im just gonna focus on myself and my career. i just got a promotion that requires me to move which i think will be good for me. this whole thing just feels so bittersweet.
:((( give yourself time it’s a big decision!! i’m getting the feeling that you do love being with him, you just don’t love having the pressure of a time limit put on u. which i agree isn’t fair at all bc you are young. maybe talk to the people closest to you and firmly tell them that you don’t want to talk about it and think about it until you’re ready and if they can’t respect that you don’t wanna be around them for a while. it’s your life, don’t let anyone pressure you into making a decision about such a big commitment!