°𝕠.𝕆 𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕖𝕤𝕞𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕪𝟡𝟚

FOCUSING ON .. pushing through ones constant battle with grief & self loathing. trying to escape ones reality. dealing with childhood trauma. constantly wearing your heart and emotions on your sleeve. BAKED BY .. SPYRO.

she/her | thirty | gmt +10

⚠️ trigger warnings ⚠️   : written descriptions of paranoia - insomnia - hallucinations - ptsd & loss of memory. mentions of borderline personality disorder - avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder - written descriptions of hospital visits - mild descriptions of gore & horror like themes. | affiliated with @asynjja

˚₊‧꒰ა 🤎🚪💛 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ -> IT WASN'T LIKE THEY HAD .. planned to be out by the barn .. when this hit them. ellie had teased him first. she always did and when georgie teased back .. they knew that if they didn't find somewhere secluded .. her uncles wouldn't be very happy. so the old barn doors opened without too much resistance and they stumbled inside. the barn itself wasn't really used anymore - just stored a couple of things. namely a shit ton of hay and the ride on mower. do you even know what you’re doing to me right now? she had mumbled against his lips. while hers pulled into a massive grin. slender arms had risen to rest around his shoulders. fingers burying themselves into the hair at the base of his skull. he walked her backward - before her back found on of the pillars. his hands pulling at the button of her jeans - managing to get it open before he shoved one of his hands down her pants. she jumped slightly at the contact against her bare skin. before a massive laugh tore from her throat. ❝ jesus , georgie. ❞ ellie mumbled against his lips. ❝ i don't think that's possible. ❞ she managed to get out before a moan escaped her. ❝ but you do - ❞ she whines. ❝ you always take such good care of me. ❞

˚₊‧꒰ა 🤎🚪💛 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ -> SLENDER HAND GRIPPED HIS .. with strength she didn't even know she had. nails dug into the back of his hand. ellie didn't want to hurt jack - but the pulling on her shoulder was bad. very bad. it wasn't every day that ellie was unlucky enough to pop her shoulder out of place. hell - she had never really broken a bone before. so this was an incredibly shit experience. as much as she enjoyed the pitt - she hated being a patient here. eyes squeezed shut .. as her head fell back against the bed. ❝ i know. ❞ she mumbled. trying to ignore the fact that the other doc had lifted her elbow .. and was getting ready to slip it back into place. ❝ i know. ❞ she continued before ellie exhaled. ❝ at least i didn't lose a fight with a knife this time. ❞ the brunette joked. ❝ just lost one with a wall. ❞ ellie had only really inhaled a handful of drinks. she didn't think it was enough to make her lose her footing.

˚₊‧꒰ა 🤎🚪💛 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ -> SHE LOOKS OVER HER SHOULDER .. and a grin instantly spread across her lips. she had been leaning over the coffee table - the puzzle that the girls had been working on pretty much all day .. sat unfinished before her. and ellie always needed something to calm her brain down before bed. blue eyes found james .. who sat next to her on the couch. his arm was wrapped around her waist. ❝ i was what ? ❞ she questioned. her grin turning shit eating. she loved being right. and she sat in the praise for a couple of seconds .. before her brows furrowed and she turned around to face him properly. pulling her legs up underneath her. ellie leaned her body against the back of the couch. ❝ right about what ? ❞

˚₊‧꒰ა 🤎🚪💛 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ -> HEAD SHAKES AND HANDS COME .. to rest against the table. the metal was cool under her touch. the mess hall was noisy. busy. it was nice. felt lived in. didn't make her feel so alone. the enterprise was big. every version of the enterprise was big. but this one felt different. the whites. the silvers. the shiny floors. it was certainly different to the ship with the pink and green carpet. eyes focused on spock - before she heaved a sigh. ❝ i know. ❞ ellie mumbled. body leaned forward. hands lifting off the table - allowing her elbows to rest on it instead. ❝ but what if they're not just stories ? ❞ all stories were based off of something. some of them had to be true.

˚₊‧꒰ა 🤎🚪💛 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ -> NOSE SCRUNCHES UP .. but she has to turn her head away so he doesn't see her smirk. ❝ you are disgusting daniel. ❞ slender arms cross over her chest - as her butt rested against the edge of the desk. head shakes slightly before she faces him again. brows raised in a challenge before she sniffs and sits herself on the desk properly. ❝ how long until harry's free ? ❞

˚₊‧꒰ა 🤎🚪💛 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ -> ARMS WERE CROSSED .. low over her stomach. it was hot. sticky. the air was humid and ellie hated feeling hot. sticky. gross so early in the morning. granted this was nothing compared to where she lived .. it was just a different type of hot and humid. the ten year old looked out over the valley. it was pretty. though it was early .. the temptation to swim was strong. arms fell down by her sides and she turned on her heel .. blue eyes automatically finding hawkeye. she stood on the balls of her feet - before a grinned cracked over her face. ❝ can you take me swimming ? ❞ she asked.