The piratess scowled at his words about her papa. âYer wrong, my pa is the pirate name. When they hear pirates, they think Hook.â She swallowed, she would always defend her pa, even though she hadnât seen him since before CJ died, considering in twenty-eight years and a couple of months, sheâd spoken to her pa once.
No one knew about the Lost Boys - not really. Everyone here believed that the Lost Boys were a bunch of tiny children who defeated the big bad pirates - Captain Hook. The look in his eyes told Harriet heâd seen the very nature of many of her nightmares. Neverland was not the pretty place this land without magic seemed to think. His mom. Of course. She knew exactly who his mother was. Her entire existence had been focused around her fatherâs need for revenge against his father. Sheâd spent the entire of her existence chasing crocodiles. Except, for a brief period, where a tall lanky boy was on the ship, and he wanted to play with her. He wanted her to be a kid.Â
âYe cannae say that. Itâs easy to say that crap in hindsight. I couldnae prove it to be true one way or another Bae. I woke up and ye were gone. No explanation. Ye were just gone. And pa was in a foul mood.â And why would he take her? No even her pa really wanted her. No even Harry. Ant would tire or her, CJ would grow up and leave her.
By all accounts she hadnât seen Baelfire in over forty years if you took her age when he left and the curse into consideration. She put the coin back in the wallet, and handed it back over, complete with all the money inside. Harriet might be a villainous pirate Captain, but as the saying went, there was honour among thieves. She still remembered sitting in Baelâs lap after she had gained the scar on her forearm, the lecture the teenager boy was giving her, because he had been so happy to find a family, just for a snot-nosed little brat to go and scare him like that. âI missed ye too Baelfire.â
âI⌠Iâve been alone too. My little sister CJ - Calista Jane, sheâs fifteen; she was born a year or so after ye left - she got hurt, and she died. Harry too, and Anthony - my⌠boyfriend. They all died. I went to the underworlds too find them. But I was alone for weeks - I couldnât find pa. Or he didnât want to find me, ye know?â
âNot in this realm,â Neal corrected, almost gleefully. âThey think Jack Sparrow, Captain Pugwash. Maybe even Blackbeard.â There was an almost unholy sense of delight in saying the last one. Neal remembered quite clearly some of the awful things spoken about the rival pirate. âCaptain Hookâs a joke. The kids of this realm arenât scared of him; they mock him.â Okay, so it wasnât accurate in any sense, but perhaps the Peter Pan story in this realm at least had something worthwhile about it.
âI know.â The despair in his tone had to tell anyone listening how upset he was by the fact he couldnât prove that he hadnât wanted to leave her, but he hadnât; his nightmares for months were of Harriet and little baby Harry being caught by the Shadow, being caught in a wreck, being unsafe all because heâd left. Once heâd been with Pan for a while, however, he had new nightmares; ones where the pirateâs children were stuck with Pan too. That, it turned out, probably would have been worse. âI canât prove it to you, Ettie, but I mean it. Iâve only ever been so sorry once in my life.â And that? That was when he let Emma take the fall for his crimes, like August had asked him to.
He took the wallet back gratefully, pleased to have his little treasures back in his possession, but now that he knew who had taken his wallet, it wasnât quite so important. Because one of the memories of his treasures, Ettie, had come back to him and that meant the world. Sheâd been like the little sister heâd always wanted, and he could feel the instincts screaming at him again already. But she wasnât five and he wasnât a teenager - somehow the age gap seemed to have increased, and he felt awkward.
The news that sheâd been alone - that he had another little sister, and CJ was officially his little sister simply by her relation to Harriet - struck him to the core and before he knew what he was doing, heâd wrapped both his arms around the young woman to pull her into a hug. âI get that you donât wanna hear it, but your pa is shit,â Neal muttered, holding her tightly against him. âIâm sorry, Ettie. Youâre not alone now.â