Diary of a Kpop Fan

I'm seriously going crazy if I don't tell someone what I have to say. I am following the news about Kris and SM the hole day already. Everyone said something else and everyone has another opinion about this. Everytime I read a new Information / rumor / update or statement I crash again. When I think I finally get the situation, something else comes around the corner and just crash all of my thoughts again. To see EXO members confirming that thwy actually write all the stuff on Instagram, weibo and twitter (and not some SM staff) makes me pretty sad. What became out of the slogan "WE ARE ONE?" I will feel betrayed when I hear it from now on. And then there is SM turning them against each other.  I don't know what to belive anymore. Every post from the official accounts can just be a controlling SM Noona. This makes the situation not even a bit better. It just turns all the Fans against SM and in the end maybe even against EXO. I am shocked that it came this far. Just because this company wants to keep the image and money. EXO brought me into Kpop. Since I have EXO I don't care anymore what people say about my taste of music or fashion or whatever. I AM FREE. Because of EXO I never gave up on learning chinese in my exchange year in Taiwan, no matter how hard it was! Because they showed me the things I am interested in and what u can reach when u work hard. I wanted to unterstand what they say and what they sing about. EXO ARE MY KPOP PARENTS! The ones that encourage me. I love them. every single member... Seeing them drifting apart makes my heart aches and my stomache hurts. The thought that it's never ging to be the same kind of crashes my music world and is giving me headache. Sitting here since hours and feeling bad, don't know what to do... It's the worste feeling I ever had. And I'm afraid of the things that might come in the future. This case gave me the feeling of being betrayed ever since I entered the Kpop fandom. WHAT IS REAL? WHAT IS FAKE? AND DOES THE IDOLS ACTUALLY HAVE ANY PRIVATE PLACE WHERE THEY CAN SAY THEIR OPINION WITHOUT BEING CONTROLLED?