Addicted To The Feeling

“I used to think of you as someone that would never hurt me. But I guess I was just hoping you would be the one person that never would.”

“I don’t miss you in a way that I’d want you back. But in a way that I wish we never had to end.”

“When I first met you, I could tell that you were broken stepped on, beaten, and shattered all over the floor But I saw you for so much more than your scattered pieces of broken glass and my only desire was for you to see it too So I tried fixing you I thought I could fix you But then you left. Turns out, these hands weren’t made for constructing because I had cut myself to try and piece you back together And now that you’re gone all you left me with is an empty heart and some open wounds Now who’s going to fix me?”

“I always thought it meant something special the way you would always come back. But I forget to take into account how many times you had to leave”

“I don’t think it’s possible to claim you love someone and hurt them as much as you did with me”

“Yeah I miss you and sure I’m sad. But you fucked me up so bad and screwed me over more than you’ll ever know. So don’t you dare let it mislead you into thinking that I will ever want you back.”

“I think true true love like not some high school bullsht is when two people get to know each other and instead of just liking each other on the surface it’s when you both put in the same amount of effort and get to know each other on the deepest level and know everything about them flaws and all and not only love them despite that, but love them even more. And it’s like once you get that connection with that one person who you just go through life continuously getting to know & you just know that they’re the one. So fuck any guy that screws us over on the way there because honestly it’s how we respond that shapes us. Like are we going to just sit here and mope around about it for the rest of our lives? Hell fucking no. Like I don’t wanna just carry that with me and have the life sucked out of me and suck it out of the people around me. We need to be completely honest with ourselves and realize that what we had with those boys is not the kind of love we want and so we shouldn’t fucking settle for it let alone be sad that we lost them. I don’t think losing people that screwed us over and fucked us up is really a loss”

“It’s not that she expected too much from him. She just knew what she deserved.”

“Baby girl I know of the nights you will lie in bed, hours on end wondering what you did to deserve this. You will lose sleep losing your mind but as you search for reasons, I promise you will find none. Fact of the matter is not that it was you, it was him. You poured everything you had into him and all he did was take and take until the life was drained out of you and this routine became all you knew. The more you felt like he needed you the more you loved him. Oh but honey he wanted you for all the wrong selfish reasons. So listen to me when I say that nothing you could’ve done would be enough to deserve what he put you through. It’s just some people are put into your life to teach you lessons and give you examples of the kind of boys you don’t want and he was just one of the many you will come across. So calm your mind and get some sleep. You didn’t deserve this, he just didn’t deserve you. And I promise you, one day down the road he will wake up in the middle of the night realizing what he lost and for him, those sleepless nights will never end.”