SweetestSinner

I’ve had them my whole life. Cause my childhood. The feeling of no one wanting or loving you can really fuck a kid up mentally and haunt them for the rest of their life. From committing to a sport, a friendship, a relationship.

The only way that wall can be be broken down for good is for that ONE person to prove to them that they aren’t going to abandon them when they need them the most, that they are going to love them unconditionally, that they ARE WORTH being loved and being happy.

I’ve been trying so hard to stop pushing people away once I realize that they like me and that I’m happy. Caused that’s where I get scared.

So I push them away before they can hurt me, even if I have no idea if that will even be the outcome.

I don’t feel like I’m worthy of anyone’s love…. Sadly this all comes from my childhood & my mom abandoning me.