[Note: due to work I am currently on very low activity here till after August 7. Please feel free to continue to tag me in things. I love seeing what people are working on and I'm excited to be able to participate more once I get over this hump.]
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Hello! I'm Abby, an overworked phd student hiding in this corner of the internet. Pull up a cushion and just don't turn on the big light.
This spot is eclectic and partial to whatever I'm up to while procrastinating or awake at 3am.
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I love remembering that you can do whatever you want forever. you want to make your oc the most Mary Sue ever? go for it. you want your oc to fuck around with a canon character? great news, you can do that also. want to write a one hundredth version of the same fic? you'll never believe what I'm about to tell you.
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felt that animal fight (3.1k words) - Hawke/Merrill
Written for Dragon Age Kiss Week - Day 1 (Camp)
The night after defeating a dragon, Hawke dreams of the Dalish blood mage stuck to her like a burr.
Later while Hawke is cooking rabbit stew for them all, Merrill comes to sit by the cookfire with her. Merrill begins to talk about the final and most formidable dragon they killed along with the other creatures she’s seen in all her travels. Hawke catches herself laughing more than she has in a while at Merrill’s stories from Ferelden, then reddens with shame and frustration. Blood mage, she reminds herself. Apostate.
Merrill digs some leaves out of her pocket. She must have collected them just now, since they’re vibrant and unwilted. “Here, try putting this on the stew at the very end. They have a lovely flavor and grow all around the coast, but I haven’t seen any in Kirkwall.”
Hawke’s first thought is poison. Her second thought is accidental poison—who knows how different elven stomachs are from human ones?
[bangs on pots and pans] happy kiss week here's hawke/merrill unhealthy rivalmance! this turned out a bit darker and more fucked up than initially planned, but so it goes with rivalmance & a hawke who's under increasing mental and emotional strain and bad at dealing with her feelings. enjoy!
Hell is empty and all the Devils are here Book One: Dawn
Chapter 10
I was aware, in the abstract and theoretical way one is aware of things one has been taught rather than things one has felt, that love was not supposed to lead to murder. I knew this the way I knew the names of stars Hennan had drilled into me—correctly, completely, and without any particular emotional investment in the information.
I did not feel it.
Since we are fictional-mom posting, that moment where Leandra blamed Hawke for Carver or Bethany's death is legitimately the reason I love her character. It's such a small thing, but I think it was a great bit of writing.
We see Leandra throughout the story through Hawke's eyes. She is defined quite closely by her role as a mother. It would have heen very easy to have slotted her into an idealized vision of perfect motherhood- the platonic ideal of the "mother" - meek and self sacrificing and endlessly kind. I think weaker writing would have done this, believing it would make her death hit harder. I think it would do the opposite.
That moment where Leandra lashes out at Hawke in her grief shows us a glimpse of Leandra as something other than a paragon of virtue. It reminds us that she is a person with an interior life that we, as the player character, will never see in full.
Leandra's death hits harder because Leandra isn't perfect. Because Hawke has to carry those words, and carry that guilt, even if she apologized. Becuase Leandra knew, even at the moment of her death, that Hawke would blame themself for her death. And I also think it hits harder because we know that Leandra is a person - and a person who we, as Hawke, will never know in full in part becuase her life was cut so tragically short but also because they were each defined to some extent by their roles as mother and child.
And that all starts at that first glimpse at her complicated interiority.
Grief is often complicated because people are imperfect. We remember the harsh words as well as the warm ones when we lose someone, and there are so often questions unspoken, issues unadddressed. Death isnt clean, especially when it is sudden.
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I was tagged by many lovelies so thank you to @optimisticgrey @rdekarios and @dr4gonwriter -- I loved reading all of your responses !
Questions:
1. What's your blog title from?
Ah yes, the lore. So as a kid I would do this thing which involved flailing my arms and making this strange "rawer" sound which my friends decided sounded like a baby dinosaur. The nickname stuck. At camp it was my sworn duty to do the thing any time someone shouted "baby dinosaur! baby dinosaur!" When making my tumblr at the ripe age of 13 or so I didn't know what to pick for a name and naturally my friend suggested babydinosaur.
2. Latest movie? What did you think?
The last movie I watched was the first Toy Story with my little nephew. Apparently I combined the plots of the first and second in my brain since it had been forever since I'd seen it. Oh and then we watched A New Hope so I guess that's the latest.
3. What are you looking forward to right now?
Still working on my dissertation but I have regained a sense of personhood and feel excited about my work again. So I'm excited to finish but not in the "i just need this done" way but the "i'm excited to finish refining this into what I want it to be" kind of way.
4. If you could do anything at all today, what would it be?
I would probably aspirate into my friends house and several of my other friends would also appear and then we would just hang out and lay around together because we all need the rest. And then there would be craft time and game time.
5. Drink of choice?
I am both a tea and coffee fan but my standard drink of choice since childhood has always been cranberry juice. I have a weird obsession with it and I drink it all the time. When stressed I have been known to just carry around the jug of cranberry juice around the house with me instead of pouring it into a cup or something. My old roomate got me a very long straw that I can use. 😂
6. Hair routine?
Depends on the day. I have very curly hair so on wash day it's shampoo, conditioner, product and plop. Then I'll let it dry a little while plopped up and if I'm feeling really fancy that day I will use some duck clips at the top of my head to help the curls at the top get some volume and then diffuse. On lazy days I just let it air dry and what will be will be. Between wash days I usually just spritz it with a little water and refine some curls or throw it into a big clip. I've become a big fan of hair sticks lately too.
7. Favourite way to travel? Is there another you want to try?
I don't know that I have a favorite way, I just travel however necessary. I don't mind long car rides but I struggle to be the one actually driving because I will get sleepy. I do fly a good bit especially when I lived away from home but planes do admittedly freak me out a bit.
I think a train would be fun. I like the idea of being able to move around a bit more and also have a view.
8. Favourite month and why?
Hmm. I've always liked June because it is my birthday month and it's in the summer which usually means lots of time with friends. But in terms of vibes I usually prefer the fall, I enjoy the rain and cooler weather where I can wear all my big sweaters. So maybe October. Plus that's renn fair season.
9. Favourite time of day and why?
Sunset. I love watching the sky but it also marks a point in the day where my brain calms down. I'm much more at peace in the evening. I like feeling like the rest of the world is shutting down and going to bed and getting quiet and that's usually when I like to have me time to play or be creative.
I do also enjoy sunrise and mornings but once it hits noon I get anxious. I think i prefer sunset because that period of time lasts longer for me.
10. Do you play or follow any sports?
I have never really followed sports though my family keeps trying to get me to do fantasy football with them. My mom told me it would be "just like DnD!!" the one time they got me to do it and my friends--it is not.
I did grow up doing all kinds of sports. I did ballet, gymnastics, and swimming up through middle school. In highschool I ran cross country and track because I lacked the coordination for much else. 😂
11. What kind of music has been stuck in your head lately?
"spidey and his amazing ! spidey and his amazing ! spidey and his amazing friends !!" (Can you tell i've been with my nephew recently?)
Okay but other than the anthems of my nephews current obsessions lately I have had "this mountain" by Faouzia stuck in my head.
12. Dishes or laundry?
Probably dishes. I have a much easier time getting them out of the way but I will let my laundry basket get allll the way full before I deal with it. I think dishes just feel more immediately achievable whereas there is a lot of waiting with laundry. I also do not like clutter so even if I really hate it I will do the dishes just to get them out of the way because it makes my brain feel better after.
13. Something you learned recently?
Dalmatians became fire house dogs because they were initially popular coach dogs. They are known for making particularly close bonds with horses and could also keep up with a horse and carriage. So they were often guard dogs for the horses and in the days where fire stations used a horse drawn carriage they would have dalmatians to help clear the path for the coach ahead and then guard the horses and equipment while they dealt with the fire.
14. What would you talk about if you could give a TED talk on anything?
I mean I'm a phd student and scholar of religion so 🤷🏼♀️. I'd probably start with a talk on early christianity because I think popular belief tends to assume christianity was a monolith when it was always incredibly messy and diverse. If I had to pick something other than my field of research---probably mermaids. I'd just go of about mermaids. Or perhaps shiny rocks.
15. Piece of advice you find yourself giving a lot?
I feel like I often end up telling people to talk it out. I'm a big fan of communication. But I also try to recognize when communication is no longer beneficial and at that point its time to set a boundary.
16. Piece of advice you would give yourself five years ago?
Oh gosh. Five years ago me was in my first or second year of my graduate program. My friend more or less made me start therapy again and seriously bless her for that. So I think my advice to myself would be to ask for help. Things would have been a lot easier if I'd done that sooner.
17. Do you believe in luck and superstition? Do you carry any lucky items or follow any?
A little, mostly because I think it gives the world a little whimsy and I enjoy that. I do have lots of lucky objects. Not so much because I think they truly change anything other than bring me comfort which is helpful. I have a fidget ring that doubles as a worry stone which I'm always wearing and I have several other worry stones that I will often bring with me on anxious study days and had with me through all of my comprehensive exams. I'll pick different ones depending on the scenario. I will often wear certain pieces of jewelry for strength or luck or to keep a particular person close. Ever since my grandmother passed down her old watch to me I wear it whenever I give presentations. She never completed highschool but has always been super intelligent. She's well into her 80s and sharp as ever. But she's always been super proud and supportive of my academic career and I like to honor her in all the ways that I can.
18. Are you musical (play any instruments, sing)? Would you ever perform for an audience?
I grew up playing the violin and singing in the church choir. I also took voice lessons for a few years. I did play and sing in front of people, usually for church. I no longer attend a church regularly but if persuaded I will still occasionally perform at my moms church for special things. I do still get a bit of stage fright though. My voice will shake a little but since I'm a soprano I try to pass it off as vibrato and I'm told it works. Someone once described my voice as "hauntingly beautiful" after a solo at church and I think that is still the greatest compliment I've ever received. 😂
19. Write, type or speak?
It honestly depends. I think i mostly type these days but I do still love writing on paper and in journals. I will often default to that if I'm trying to think through something or do more stream of consciousness for both creative and academic writing.
I only ever use dictation or record thoughts if i'm in the car. I do have some very fond memories of my friend in college telling me to just talk at her when I was struggling with a writing assignment. She sat with my laptop and I rambled while braiding her hair and when I finished she showed me the paragraph and had organized all of my thoughts in a way that made sense.
20. What do you wish someone would ask you?
Hmm. I'm not sure. I think I just like when people ask me anything at all. I'm usually that person that needs a sense of permission to participate or engage with others. So I'm always super grateful when someone reaches out or asks a question because that feels like letting me in the circle so to speak. I suppose more sincerely, I appreciate when people ask "how are you doing" or "are you okay" as a genuine question rather than a passing greeting.
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That's all folks ! Gentle tags for @perpetualmaladaptivedaydream @maagisterpavus @litsenn @sucksinlosers @spillingteanotpermitted @softeasun @bladesingerlily @necromanticsoul @scoldingdarjeeling @brennacedria and anyone else who would like to play!
(Blank questions under the cut)
Questions:
1. What's your blog title from?
2. Latest movie? What did you think?
3. What are you looking forward to right now?
4. If you could do anything at all today, what would it be?
5. Drink of choice?
6. Hair routine?
7. Favourite way to travel? Is there another you want to try?
8. Favourite month and why?
9. Favourite time of day and why?
10. Do you play or follow any sports?
11. What kind of music has been stuck in your head lately?
12. Dishes or laundry?
13. Something you learned recently?
14. What would you talk about if you could give a TED talk on anything?
15. Piece of advice you find yourself giving a lot?
16. Piece of advice you would give yourself five years ago?
17. Do you believe in luck and superstition? Do you carry any lucky items or follow any?
18. Are you musical (play any instruments, sing)? Would you ever perform for an audience?
Most adorable Tav on the internet @cep-stories tagged me…you can see her answers here.
Name your OC as if they are a Game of Thrones character.
Add as many ridiculous tiles you can think of…
I will restrain myself, because…well, Lily is nothing if not a little ridiculous
📸 by @alstromeri-a the magnificent, as always
Lilianthalis Arviendel Moonflower Silverfrost
Lilianthalis the Bright Blade
Heir of Evereska
Scion of the People’s Song
The Last Bladesinger
Arvandor’s Promise
Selu’taar en Tel’Aran (High Mage of the Noble Art)
Beloved Bright Star (I keep telling you Gale likes Keats)
Tays for @mellybaggins @missfortunetherogue @dr4gonwriter @arlynx @hollowharp @gortashsrighthand @tynithia @rdekarios @kt-catt @tieflingsorcerer @the-font-bandit @babydinosaur930 @ele-millennial-weirdo @glitterandmoondustofficial and as always, because I am an unorganized ADHD having type person…open tag for anyone who thinks this might be fun.
First post to share a stunning Tim Downie Cameo, trying to talk down fighter Fiora (Tav) who refuses to let Gale sacrifice himself. I was weirdly expecting comic (trying to push her through the portal but she is way stronger than him etc), but instead received something heartfelt and sincere and of course, so true to Gale.
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I know … that somehow, all of this mess
Is just my attempt to know
The worth of my life
Made of precious metals, precious metals
Precious metals inside
Created for @datvcompanionweeks' Harding Week
Day 4 - The Stone | Lyrium | Isatunoll
tagging ppl for this one bc tumblr decided to hide yesterday's Harding piece and I spent FAR too many hours sorting through layers for it to do the same here