Therapy is changing so many things for me in unexpected ways, talking to someone who can actually help me, other than a friend trying their hardest to understand me when it isn’t their job to, healing feels the most relaxed I’ve felt in a long time and it’s like I have to keep reminding myself that. But my therapist is lovely and it’s nice to feel heard for once and not having someone start an argument with me for being sad:) I’m blessed to be in this position I’ve wanted therapy for so long. Now I’m finally able to talk about things since I have a grasp of who I am as a person, for so long I just felt so out of touch with myself and how I felt, I still don’t see much of a future for me other than a relaxing one somewhere calm, better than wanting to be dead I suppose 😅, maybe by the end of this I’ll feel somewhat okay again and not be so scared to go outside let people think whatever the fuck they want, and for me to not care anymore about what others think, sometimes when your so alone the voices in your head spewing negativity will have you thinking the most outrageous things about yourself because you’ve had no one else for so long, unlearning these beliefs is so much harder than I realised
