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the memories, the dreams, everything

we can never go back to what it used to be

all that’s left is to say goodbye, goodbye

just say bye, bye, bye

Goodbye, goodbye

step one (it’s hard)

step two (gotta move on)

no looking back

can’t stay here

the future is calling us

change is coming

leave the past, the past

learned to forgive and forget

no need to linger on

just leave me alone

you don’t have to tell me you’re excuses

cause I won’t be listening

go away, far away

(from me)

stay away, all the way

(from me)

I don’t want you next to me, close to me

cause now you mean nothing to me

just a stranger to me

you don’t have to try so hard

just let me be

you don’t have to keep my number

cause I won’t be calling

just go away, far away

(from me)

stay away, all the way

(from me)

I don’t want you next to me, close to me

cause now you mean nothing to me 

only to bring yourself down

disappointed in all that you couldn’t do

when you only looked at the bad parts of you

you know you’re better than that

do much better than that

but you think too much, worry too much

make mistakes, put so much at stakes

have regrets, you overestimate

lie too much, to hide that you’re just a fake

why why why

you’ll only end up questioning your life in the end

only having yourself to blame in the end

cry cry cry

you’ll become the loser you always predicted you be

i act like I don’t care 

seeing you living without me

in the sadness behind my eyes

I’ve hide the longing of my wounded heart

when my feet can’t moved

from the spot you left me behind

day by day

I’ll try to erase you completely

so my heart won’t know the pain

of loving a person like you

day by day

I’ll try to live happily

so I won’t be reminded

but you crumble and fall

down and down you go 

nowhere else to go on

you stand up tall

try to be brave and all

but you’re nothing but a fake

a clown in disguised

now the jokes on you

ain’t it funny now

let the tears drowned you in sorrow

(I’ll come to you)

let the scars covered you till tomorrow

My heart cries a little bit more

Don’t make sense no more

I’ve become a little bit crazy some more

Cause I got, got nothing left to lose

Now nobody don’t know, will never know

It ain’t easy being me

I’m going to sing it one more time

Let all the words I’ve swallow out

Tell the world one more time

In my melody I will have sung

My sad story and basked in my one last time glory

Where my fears has stop me

And my future have always seem so meek

And I’m just loser who has become so weak

I get lost and round and round I go

Back again where I first started

Love I Could Not Give - The Ice Prince

It’s a story about a witch who was cursed with immortality. This witch who have lived for so long, couldn’t love herself. She was so very lonely and grew to hate everything until she met a very kind heart prince who taught her how to love herself. She fell deep in love with him but he did not love her the same way she had loved him. But after knowing his true feelings for her, she felt hurt and betrayed. He was her only friend, companion, and the only person she could confined her true feelings to. Everything was still okay until she found out the true reason why he couldn’t truly love her. He was in love with someone else. Someone who was younger, prettier, pure, and everything she could never be. She grew mad out of anger, jealousy, rage, sadness, loneliness, and envy. When she found out he would be marrying this young lady, her feelings exploded. How could she find someone else who would treat her like he had treated her? How could he not love her? Was she just a joke to him? Had he played with her feelings all along? She told him everything, reveal her secrets, and even helped him when he needed help. But now he betrayed her. So, she found a curse to put upon him. A curse where he could never love or feel love ever again. But to give such a curse, there was a price to pay for it. The price was her immortality but she was happy to give it away. All the time that she had lived, nobody truly love her or wanted to be with her. Maybe in her heart, she had always known all along that she was forever to remained lonely.

So on the day of the prince wedding, the witch put the curse upon him. The prince fell into a deep sleep and when he woke up. He was in another place. A place he has never been before. A place that was covered in snow and ice. But something was wrong, very wrong. He felt his heart but there was no warmth, no heart beat, no nothing. It was a weird. It was even weirder as he could not find anybody else. All alone in what’s look like an abandon crystal castle.

“Where was he?” He thought to himself as he searched around calling for somebody, anybody but there was no answer. What the witch also didn’t know was that she passed her immortality onto him. She had given up her life up to get revenge upon him. Struck with confusion, the prince continued living inside the castle unable to venture out into the snow.

Thus, began the story of the “Ice Prince”