I'm a Warrior and a Fighter.

I always felt out of place in the world, even now as an adult. Things that people my age like to do, I don’t. I rather stay at home on a Friday night, then go out to drink and dance. Same with small talk, I honestly never really understood the point of it, it just never made sense to me. At first when I talked with the psychiatrist, my concern was that my depression had caught up to me again, but it haden’t. But she did suspect that I might have Aspergers or ASD, I was a bit surprised cause I never thought about it, but when I got home I started looking into what Aspergers was and the traits that was connected with it. The more I read, the more things from my childhood made sense, how I would obese about things I found interesting, and why I would copy peoples behaviour I was around. I would try and copy the person/s I was with, in my attempt at blending in, as I very often stood out and I was often told that I did not fit in. Getting the Autism diagnose has helped me so much, I have come to understand that I am not alone or weird because I don’t act like others. I have realised that it’s okay that I like to be alone because I feel most at ease on my own, and that saying ‘no’ is not a bad word.

I have never felt like it, like I even had any issues while in New York going into stores and being around many people, but now just I hate going into small store like the 7/11.

Inktober 2020 Day 1

Bachelor research and writing at library

Bachelor writing

It’s like I wanna scream and cry, but I can’t. I feel nothing. BUT I know that if I want to feel anything, I have to lower my medication, in which I get my emotions back, but the anxiety attacks becomes a constant feeling of Fight/Fly in my head, which make it impossible for me to go to school or do anything beside shaking.

Network security exam revision #studygram #school #revision #study #christmas #cybersecurity #student https://www.instagram.com/p/BrnFYIQhJzy/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vqy16sjr1t55

Saturday night Belladonna Blake drawing

InkOctober drawing

Ink October Drawing of Blake Belladonna

Finished drawing of Blake Belladonna from RWBY

Found the perfect spot in the library for reviewing lecture notes. #school #studygram #library #studyspace #lecturenotes https://www.instagram.com/p/BoRJGc3CSRf/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kcehfe6iec7m