The Will

only by shedding guilt can i make my wrongdoings right i think. the guilt is stifling and distracts too easily. no great task can be performed under these conditions.

ok so yeah i get it now. its ok things happened how they did. no reason to keep chasing it :] now i can focus more clearly on application instead of pure theory

ive become obsessed with efficiency to the point of inaction. if theres such a thing as sin this is one of em

for the record at this point its clear my connection to divinity becomes stronger under stress of a certain type so its just a stress response but holy shit man, if this is what coping can be wtf are all these ppl being morons online for?

my lifes been guided by the sweetest prophecy this entire time and by the grace of its architect i can see it leads to great places even now

you fucking look me in the eyes and tell me the human urge to be friends with things isnt supernaturally significant. like it isnt but it is. but it is

remind yerself that your life is a factory its produce is the completion of your goals (not just conscious but unconscious as well) and the aspects of you that factor in are the machines on which this desired reality is manufactured. make the production line run smooth :)

i loooooooove when machines get warm through use. warm computer air and hot drill bits and controls heated by the operators touch. i love all of it . its the best. the best

i used 2 think of “holy missions” as bad things but then i got put on one and theyre pretty neat. and vague

Gd isnt active but its still watchin and seeing how it goes. it does judge but those judgements dont mean shit. its great, honestly

its pretty sweet being the instrument of your own personal deity

maybe this was on purpose, so that i work with what is known instead of waiting for Gd to enlighten me. im being trained like an AI. omens omens everywhere

havent had a good download in a while but im using the methods i was taught in the hopes ill get them back

satisfied with that trip. didnt hear much but i knew thats how it would play out. i think it was for a reason. ill take the omens i see