Hey folks, I just found this blog again after several years. It's kind of interesting scrolling through my old posts/reblogs. First of all, wow, I had a lot of trauma about autism that I don't think I'd fully processed at the time. The experience of growing up just, inexplicably different from all my peers and struggling to connect with others and be a person in the way I wanted.
A lot has happened! I got older, went from high school to college, made new friends. Being an adult, building up an identify for myself, and being surrounded by people who share my interests and zest for life, has helped a lot. I still have moments sometimes where I feel like I'm not a person, or I can't control my emotions, or my friends don't like me, or I'm doing it *all wrong*. But the fact that I'm disadvantaged at certain social activities, or that things don't come naturally to me like they do for others, isn't something that bothers me on a day to day basis. And anyway, the way I think and act brings me a great deal of joy. I wouldn't change it for the world.
So, I guess this is an update for y'all. It does get better. You'll get better at dealing with it. It'll change.
