{dramonie's version}

I was looking into something to fill my ‘The disappearances of Draco Malfoy” shaped hole in my heart. This was the second fanfic I read after and let me tell you WORTH.IT.

This fanfic has the toe gripping character development from draco although in this fic he has it before meeting granger. In this she helps him “come out” of his depression and start actually wanting to live life. This is where the tenderness and love comes from, at first they are acquaintances then friends and then lovers. It's a slow burn but that still grips you from the beginning and keeps you going after they become a couple because it takes you more through their relationship. The focus of this fic is not so much as to them becoming a couple as too how they are as a couple. Never in my life have I liked to rad about a wedding in fics or books but OH MY FLIPPING FLIP. tThe cutest thing in the world. 

ALSO Draco's relationship with the grangers/potters is everything in thing, i miss it in the others and have yet to find a fic that makes me fill this warmth in the relationship.

The smut:  so like i was not expecting that, used to reading kisses and “thenthe bedroom door closed the end” this was jaw dropping, phone throwing, walking around the room literature. Smutt is not what I look towards but this was 10/10 and I learned a lot.

Oh. oh. Oh wow

I would leave it at that but I really want to let you know what to expect. I started reading because the plot idea is really interesting and it had a chance to be a really good elaborate story,however, I will tell you now, it is basically a slow burn smutt. With an actual story rather than just going into it with no background. Let me also tell you, I have a great poker face but there was a part that I simply had to take 10 minutes to chill. I was so embarrassed to read, do people really do that? HOW?? 

It literally, not over using this word, but it literally feels like my pre adolescent island like in inside out is crumbling, I feel physically sick. How do I just work and study and go about my day when constantly my mind keeps replaying him over and over and over again?

This was supposed to be a quick little comment but I just.. Idk I have a lot to say idk if I'll ever post it here, I know I'm going to spend my day Tom writing letters about this because I just can't.. It's just so....

So much grief for some one I never even got to see, never talked to, never met..

Hermione: *scoffs* make me

You know who would say this? Hermione to dracos parents.

or a house with a roommate

you'll only worry about uni

and reading

and learning

and growing

Every hour of you day with be filled with literature and cold coffees

Gut Turning songs like gigi perez, hoizer and Noah kahan

Not worrying about work

or about rent

not having to choose to sleep or study just to pass.

In another world you'll get to live in academic bliss

and vigor

not wondering if tomorrow is the day the world goes up in flames

or if it's the end on the horizon

In another world you'll be given a chance

in a another world you have a choice

"I try to change you? Me? Draco I didn't tell you to change I didn't tell you to leave the death eaters that was all you, you chose that yourself"

It didn't have to be like this, there was no geninue reason for a simple comment to turn into a heated screaming argument. Although if you'd have had the pleasure to ever being involved, truly involved with draco malfoy you would know these are regular occurrences.

"yeah great than if you don't care, why do you keep correcting me, your not my mom Stacy so stop acting like it" even during fights he never called her Anastasia, it's a common nickname but somewhere in first year peers jointly decided to call her Ana, all except one that is.

"you think it's okay to just say stuff like that about someone, who the hell are you to talk about someones appearance? I'll not allow it"

"ha! You do realize you're just proving my point don't you?" a sly smirk was starting to form on the corners of his mouth, Ana could see it.

"pqp que merda como que..que raiva como q alguém pode ser tão.. Pqp"

This made him drop the smile, a raised eyebrow instead falling into place and silence. Ana had her back turned to him, standing there for a few minutes taking this opportunity to breathe, to think again, calmy, about the reasons this mattered to her, why she didn't just let it go, why she stayed, why she believes it's a talk worth having. But when she turned dracos inquestive expression had felt and instead was replaced by something near to awe.

"stace I don't think I'll ever get over how amazing you are" draco could feel the air change back to how it always was it her. Life becomes petrichor.

Anger was gone with it the sense of justice and defense. it was never out of lust or anything similar, whenever draco praised her it truly was what he was seeing. This discussion would have to be finished on another day.

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Authors comment

I absolutely hate it but I'm trying to get back into writing so here is something terrible but at least it's something