Augustwonderer

I barely noticed it at first

I’d wake up and find little petals

Scattered on my bed in an abstruse pattern

They were few in the beginning

But I feel like there’s something growing inside me

And every time you walk by without noticing, its growth rate mulitplies

You’re sealing my death

But don’t feel bad about it

The flowers are pretty

Even when I vomit and there’s blood all over them

White and red never mixed so well

So go on and live your life

I’ll be here, on the sidelines

Suffocating

Painfully breathing through each and every minute

But I can’t even beg you to let me live

This disease is already taking hold of me

So the only thing I ask for is simple:

Let me breathe

And if it’s just a second, that’s ok

Because you take my breath away anyway

And I just hope my last one will be when I kiss you

If you feel like you don’t know where to go or giving up.

Remember why you started in the first place.

Love yourself more and do the things that makes you happy.

Be who you truly are.

But if there comes a time where you don’t know who you really are, then never try to go to another person to ask to complete you.

No one else is gonna save you from your misery but you.

You’re the only one who can discover who you truly are.

No matter what people may say about you.

You are you.

Never be ashamed of that.

“Pag mahal mo ipaglalaban mo.” Sikat na kasabahin na madalas nating marinig. Pero ang katotohanan ay kung mahal mo talaga ang isang tao, handa ka’ng masaktan at palayain siya kung kita mong napipilitan na lamang o ayaw ka na niyang kasama. Yung tipong di na siya masaya na kapiling ka. Yung andiyan nalang siya dahil naawa siya sayo. Wag mo’ng pilitin. Pag hindi ka na mahal, ayaw na. Imbis na pilitin mo na mahalin ka pa niyang muli. Hayaan mo at magbigay ka din ng oras para sa sarili mo. Magisip, magdrama, uminom o kahi ano na paraan para lang ma-okay ka. Tatandaan na yang sakit na nararasan mo ngayon ay hindi panghabang buhay.

“Try to invest something that would last for a lifetime not to the temporary things that gives you temporary feelings only.”

Have you ever felt like giving up on almost everything in your life? Like you don’t care anymore of what will happen next in your life. That feeling wherein you don’t know if you even deserve all these things you’re experiencing now or do anybody feels the same way as you do? The feeling like you want to stop everything that you’re doing and just lay in bed, sleep or try to think random things and just cry it over until the time you’re gonna get tired of it. 

If you feel like you don’t know where to go or giving up.

Remember why you started in the first place.

Love yourself more and do the things that makes you happy.

Be who you truly are.

But if there comes a time where you don’t know who you really are, then never try to go to another person to ask to complete you.

No one else is gonna save you from your misery but you.

You’re the only one who can discover who you truly are.

No matter what people may say about you.

You are you.

Never be ashamed of that.