the divine effeminate

it doesn't help that it's constantly erased by people who expect us to sexually think and behave in accordance with our assigned sex! the erasure of the concept of bodily dysphoria has definitely benefitted people who want to extract sex from us. even by addressing this I feel like a square, because it's not cool for trans women to have boundaries and limits regarding our bodies. it's cool to be sexually available and repress your dysphoria. it's cool to let people take advantage of you

then we get to go to the bedroom where we are EXPECTED to perform those same penetrative roles, often being fucking coerced into them by rapist pieces of shit

One summer's eve

watercolour on arches paper cold pressed

"After they overheard that ICE was at the courthouse to arrest someone, they improperly accessed court databases to determine who was not born in the United States," a DOJ detention filing says. "They then snuck every suspected illegal alien who was at the courthouse out a back door, where ICE, who was waiting in the parking lot for their target to leave the building, could not see them."

Depending on where you are, it might be illegal to buy or to possess, or it might only be illegal on the seller's end. Either way, you can look into whether this is something trans people are actually arrested for where you are, to assess risk.

In most countries, buying T for personal use still isn't something you should expect significant legal consequences for. You can mitigate risks even further by never giving your personal info, ordering to somewhere other than your home, and using crypto or other payment methods (but even without these safety measures, don't let anyone make you believe this is a high risk activity when it's not).

Many of us commit small crimes on a daily basis, from streaming films to minor theft, knowing the risk of punishment is so minimal that we barely think about it. I need people to pick up a bit of that energy for DIY HRT, instead of being convinced it's impossible to access. This includes testosterone.

“Ghosts aren’t real” it’s very fair and rational that you believe that

“Ghosts aren’t real anymore” I’m about to hear a poem or very sad story