Thanks @michanvalentine for the tag!
I have a lot of ideas for fics that have been bouncing around in my brain but I haven’t actually gotten them down on paper (or my Notes app lol) yet. But this tag gives me a good opportunity to brainstorm so here’s what’s been in my brain!!
This is for a later chapter in Beyond the Bite.
They threw their clothes back on quickly before Myrin lied down in the grass in front of Astarion’s grave. Astarion decided to join her. He lied down beside her and took her hand in his.
“I love you too, by the way” Myrin broke the silence.
Astarion looked at her like he was unsure what she was referring to.
Myrin noticed this and gave him more context. “You said you love me…before we had sex” she said “I just wanted to say that I love you too, I just didn’t want to ruin your moment”
Astarion’s ears turned a bright shade of pink. “Well…thank you.” He replied “That means a lot.”
Astarion had couldn’t remember the last time he ever felt genuinely loved by someone. Not until Myrin. If he had a lover in his life before Cazador, he had no memory of it. Being loved was a strange feeling to him but one he enjoyed. Myrin had shown him nothing but love, even in the their first few days together, even when he quite frankly didn’t feel like he deserved it.
He had been a jerk to her. But she had seen right through him and loved him anyway. He was grateful for that. Because now he was here, with her, showing her something he hadn’t shown anyone else before. And he had just had sex with her and it wasn’t…disgusting. There was still some leftover trauma there but he was actually able to enjoy it for himself for the first time in two centuries. He didn’t know sex could feel so good. It was amazing when it was with someone he loved.
Myrin broke the silence again. “So your last name is Ancunin?”
Astarion replied “I guess so…I haven’t used it in 200 years”
“I like it.” replied Myrin “Do you remember anything about the parents who gave it to you?”
“I can’t say that I do.” Astarion replied, sad that people who were probably a crucial part of his previous life held no memory in his brain. “After being under Cazador’s rule for so long, I just started to…forget everything. I don’t know anything about that Astarion. Who he was, who he loved. Lately, after being free, I’ve started to wonder about my family. Do they miss me? Are they even still out there somewhere?”
“I’m sure they loved you a lot and miss you greatly” Myrin responded. She could tell he was starting to be sad about the things Cazador had taken from him. She decided to change the subject to the one thing Cazador hadn’t taken from him.
“How did you feel tonight? After making love? I remember you said you have a rough relationship with sex.” she asked.
“You know, it wasn’t perfect, but I actually quite enjoyed it. Turns out I can still get aroused on my own! I was starting to think that wasn’t possible with all the love potions and spells I’d have to cast on myself to be able to bring victims home for Cazador. But, being with you, it feels…different, in a good way. Sex felt less like a chore and more like a bonding activity with the woman I love” he replied.
Myrin blushed at that. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.” she said, “I did too”
“I might need a little more time to be fully comfortable but I do know that I quite enjoyed that and definitely want to do it again sometime”
Myrin looked into his crimson eyes. They were sparkling, it was beautiful to her. He was beautiful to her. She leaned in to place a kiss on his lips and he returned it.
“We should head back to camp” she said after they broke apart. “Before everyone comes looking for us.”
“You’re right. I fear if they found out what we were doing we may never live it down” he blushed.
They got up and took each other’s hand and started walking back to camp.
No pressure tags: @andromedaancunin @poetsiren @desperateani @spillingteanotpermitted @jessiemeows @missfortunetherogue @elceewunjo @aristenfromwarsaw
