Agony (pain)

Aries: Don’t belittle someone just because things didn’t work out how you wanted them to. Don’t let your anger at what happened become venom. Other people are hurting too. Other people are coping too. Taurus: Who the hell are you? Because we don’t fucking know anymore. You’re leaving us. And maybe it’s just my insecurities but you promised you wouldnt. But.. when was the last time you actually bothered or cared? Some of us are destroying ourselves  and you’re busy with your new life. It’s bullshit. Gemini: You could of died. I could of lost you. Ranks in my top 10 scariest moments. But.. you’re loved. You’re breathing. This storms got to pass eventually, you just need to hang on. This is temporary, I know it’s a repeated mantra but it’s true. Cancer: Some pain is meant not to heal. Some scars never really fase. It’s not a personal attack, just a lesson we all need to learn. Never forget how much their words hurt. Because then you might go back, and no one wants to see that. Leo:  Where’s your fight? Get up off your knees. Stand. Because this groveling never did suit you. Find your strength or find the battle that’s worth the fight. Because you’ve got an army by your side. Use them. Virgo: Just because their scars aren’t as deep doesn’t mean it isn’t real. Doesn’t mean they haven’t spent nights in agony like you. This isn’t a competition to see who is worse and who is sicker. Their hurting too. Learn to see that. Libra: Let go. Clean the house. Change your hair. Pull yourself together. Your true friends will stick by you and the ones who don’t care wont. Some things weren’t meant to last, as much as you wanted them too. Scorpio: Stop rereading old messages you’re only opening the door to ghosts. They don’t want to help they’re just trying to fuck with your head these days. Learn to walk the hell away. Because if you keep running back into the burning house eventually the smoke will consume you too. Sagittarius: what do we do now? Nothings the same. You were suppose to make it better, but we all put too much on you, I know we did. You were just as broken as the rest of us. But.. what do we do now? Capricorn: Give yourself time. Rushing towards another war isn’t going to fix anything, all it’ll do is cause more scars. Learn to heal from all the old battles before choosing new ones. Sometimes you just need a break. Aquarius: Let yourself grow. You were never meant to be this small. Never meant to be this destroyed. Find a new identity. Bury the old ones. There’s no other choices now. You can’t turn back time, believe me I’ve spent forever trying. Pisces: your old friends still miss you. I know you can’t see it but we do. You weren’t always perfect, but neither were we. We miss playing in the leaves together. Come home.

Tell me darling, would you still love me if I told you about the monsters I need to sing to sleep every night? If you understood the way I need to tiptoe across my own mind so I can fall asleep before daylight? If you knew where the nightmares came from, if you saw my scarred soul, would being with me terrify you? If you knew the full extent of the damage they have done to me, would you stay, would you still want to?