ASK NERU & HAKU

“How’s the Progress!” by OwataP featuring Neru and Haku will be playable in the rhythm game WACCA!!

If i'm completely honest, i started this blog when i was 18 and got into uni, i had a lot of free time in the summer to askblog and i truly miss that hhh. Right now, i have had for a couple years a very precarious ""job"", very exploitative and not super legal. Between that and trying to find something better to iron out my situation i find myself juggling work, courses and interviews that lead to nothing, studying, applying to tons of things, trying schemes and art projects to see if something sticks. It's a lot.

I wish to have a regular job with a regular schedule one day so that at least i know my days off and holidays i can dedicate to my passions and hobbies (this blog included) but this hasn't happened for me and it will not happen easily at all, maybe ever. I'm a difficult person to employ because of poor life choices and an unrecognized neurodivergency (in my country) and my country has the highest unemployment level and competitivity when it comes to job hunting in the world. I'm trying alternative paths but again in this period of uncertainity i just... can't slack on askblogs i have so much to do.

I'm hoping i will find a window of free time to do something cool for the askblog's 10th (idk what yet) but it may end up being a text post or something if i'm too overwhelmed, i can't make big promises.

I never wanted to add a donation button to this blog because i genuinely make it because i love Neru and Haku so much so it would feel very tacky to me... but when something doesn't bring the money when you become an adult struggling for coin it goes to the backburner.

Hey guys happy New Year. We weren't able to be online for Haku's anniversary because we got our goddamn electricity cut off for a while. To be fair, even CAFFEIN forgot her birthday. The hell.

I got various part time jobs now so while I won't have as much time to dedicate to this blog, the internet situation is solved we are here. Sort of.

...Someone tell Haku to move her ass and help out .

This summer we will have been posting here on and off for a wholeass decade. And this is how some people go on to become worldwide divas while others get sucked into the internet and waste their life on it. Choices.

But we can't be the only ones because somehow, some people still follow and read this pointless blog. Some have even been following since the beginning. Stop it, get some help.

Here's to another year of irrelevancy.

After 5 long years, Crypton/Piapro finally acknowledged Neru and Haku’s existence (outside of the standard SEGA DLC copypaste from previous games) and included them in an official display at Magical Mirai 2020

Hooray

With NT rolling in and how Neru and Haku have evolved since I started the blog in 2011 when they used to get a lot of love from Crypton and SEGA and how much that's changed, this is also the start of a new chapter for this askblog. If Tumblr doesn't get really mad about it (because themes break so easily now) the description and so forth will be updated to reflect that.

Since they can't leech from Dell anymore Neru has taken up her old editorial job and Haku is doing arubaito. So this also explains why they don't have as much time to answer asks anymore as before. More things changed like relationships and such. But of course I will leave those reveals to asks.

I was aware of the songs, I still keep up with all this stuff even if I haven’t been in the RP mood in a while.

I hope to get back to it one day when I stop feeling hurt by the “new” Vocaloid fandom, and thanks for all the messages.

Happy 89!

Hello and sorry, first of all... mod here breaking character once again.

Mod has been extremely consumed by a specific job these past two years. A lot of hardships have happened in that span of time, not just talking about the current climate but horrible things happened in 2019 as well, related to family loss. But besides that....

This month marks the 9th anniversary of this askblog. In a really boring summer now almost 10 years ago, a younger version of me created askneruandhaku, and the Vocaloid fandom and my love for Neru and Haku only grew and consumed me since. Oops.

I want to make a proper post going in on what this askblog means to me, but I don't think this is the moment because there is something else I need to get off my chest. So I rather make this anniversary a bit more bitter and leave all the praises and good memories for the celebration of a decade of cringe in 2021.

There is something holding me back from posting, aside from how busy I am and other mental health problems. Call it an RP-block of sorts.

I'm having a very difficult time with this askblog.

I'm really thinking and considering how I could even make a comeback.

In the past three years the Vocaloid fandom has changed. A lot. Even more so if we compare it to when I started this blog, almost 10 years ago in 2011 (that is insane). Mod has grown, all the original askblog mods have grown, right, but a new generation of fans has entered the chat. On one hand, it's great! to see that the fandom is still alive and thriving despite Yamaha pulling the rug from under our feet, and specially that in the midst of all that, some fans still care to draw and support Akita Neru and Yowane Haku. I really didn’t think they would make it this far (they are also still pretty beloved in Japan). However, the way younger newer fans view Vocaloid, their sense of humor, their tolerance for certain interpretations, jokes or whatever. Totally different from mine and other.. "Vocaloid elders", lol.

The humor of this blog has always been very “out there”. I've never shied away from being extremely rude, using insults, cussing, putting characters in compromising situations and doing many a thing that is now treated as if you should be reported to the police for drawing it. Neru in particular has always been very crass, and I've used her in the past to take joking digs at the fandom. She is very fun to RP. In a way, I project to both of these characters, because I also suffer from diagnosed depression, I'm also petty and sarcastic, and as both of these characters, I’ve also always felt like an outcast, or less popular or beloved compared to my peers.

Ironically, lately I have been completely outcasted outside of the askblog world by the popular voices in the fandom. It has also lead loads of people to turn their back on me. Some that I even met through this little askblog itself, and it does hurt. I don't want to get into detail because whatever mod does outside of askblog should not impact the askblog. But I bring it up because it lead me to think, if I'm not well recieved when I'm being myself and drawing my serious non teasing art, how will people recieve me when I'm literally playing a rude character? When I'm calling Miku a bitch, in the age of people kinning Miku and projecting their person extremely hard onto her? When I'm calling anons weirdos, weeaboos or telling them to get a life?

I never truly mean those things (spoiler alert: mod actually loves Miku... though not as much as Neru and Haku), I'm portraying a troll, a cowardly jealous keyboard bully, which is who Neru is.

However, in times of people losing their mind in anger at the mere mention of magnet, how can I trust fans to tell?

When I have seen people on tumblr cover Neru's midriff and arms with an undershirt because that's showing "too much skin"?

When new fans pearl clutch and write hate towards NeruxHaku shippers?

When it's been spread by the loudest vocaloid wiki editor to new fans that Neru and Haku were created as tools of hate to insult and bully people?

Even the clothing magic anon from just two years ago has aged terribly to the standards of new Vocaloid fans that are all over Tumblr. Despite it's humor being very well recieved then.

I'm torn, guys. I don't know. I don't know how much of my audience is still sticking around after all these years. I don't know what a new audience would think about this hot mess of an edgy, rude askblog. I think there is to love if you look past the troubled, disjointed surface, just like how I see these characters as being. But I think most new fans look for some kind of "purity" that they are not going to find here. They are looking for the flawless idol cardboard cutout Miku. Not for my problematic rude, jealous, slightly abusive Neru, or my problematic depressed Haku that copes with substance abuse.

Do they still answer questions?

No.

Will they ever come back to answer questions, though?

((Neru and Haku in MEGA39′s confirmed!!

((Mod is very mentally unwell but she still wanted to draw something for Neru’s 12 anniversary...!! so sick she drew her with an extra finger, woops