pick me.choose me.love me. 🖤

See it's funny to me how it's all just bullshit. How you say somenone is nothing but yet the second you leave they cone right back. So now I wonder if I was right all along. Did she ever leave? Did your friends know? I just think it's funny how everyone does nothing but talk shit about people and then hang out with them and then I get called introverted because I finally reached my limit of how much they treat you like shit. I waste my time trying to help always and just being there and now I just wonder what was the point of it all. If that's all you wanted then why waste my time why do everything and go through everything with me to just go back to the person that broke you the last time. Why waste your time hanging out with people who you constantly complain about why go through life being miserable but just making it look good for social media. Sometimes I wonder why did I stay when people told me to leave. Why love someone who clearly makes you upset and choses everyone over you and to be honest I probabaly would have just dealt with it because I was just blindly loving what we had and how we started. However, it's clear to me that you abandoned me maybe right from the beginning so maybe that's why I felt so alone anytime that anything serious happened. I guess when someone has been broken by someone they love they either keep it with them and pass it on to someone else or let it go. But the main difference here is I wont move on to someone and make them feel like they are my world on social media but nothing of importance in my life and I'll also never listen to the whole it was nothing shes just a friend no matter how long ago the friendship was. I will always listen to my gut instincts because atleast I would have been better then than I am now. So please if you decide to love someone again let it be an actual true feeling not something made up and not so you can mentally and emotionally destroy someone who loves you. I will repair what you broke and never let my guard down for toxic people again. I will still be here wishing you luck in everything you do because that's who I am while you do whatever you do and act like your happy. I hope that smile comes true and you find everything you wished for. I will just be here wondering if it's just an act or if it's just another show. It's okay though I may not believe in a lot of things anymore but I believe in karma big so enjoy your toxic love fest.