A Scenic View

L took us on a little beach vacay, we stayed at a resort, we beached, we pooled and we explored around Duck for the better part of a week. He had never been to OBX so I showed him my fave spots.

We watched the heat lightning and red sprites dance over the water at night, and sat by the resort’s fire pits before splitting some key lime pie and going to bed. (Lots of time spent there…)

L makes me feel loved and appreciated in a way I haven’t felt in a very long time.

That’s all anyone can really do most of the time.

TW Senior Pet Loss —> (Figured I’d start with that since any pet owner knows how much it hurts to lose them.)

I feel like that’s normal. 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s nice to be perceived positively.

McGinnis and I have been taking it easy. Watching Ted Lasso, going on extra walks. Playing some fetch in the cooler hours. Enjoying some quality porch time - trying to cheer each other up ❤️

My day is so different without him. The house feels off without him too. Quieter, less special.

McG keeps sleeping in his last spot and won’t finish all of his food. Poor dude. 💙

I lost my big puppy guy yesterday 💙

Used the long weekend to do some more unpacking, nesting and spend quality time with L ❤️

Also trying to regularly grow my army of tiny paintings.

I’m actually getting paid for some scenic sign work I did for a nearby private school, and my friends are going to pay me to do some accent mural work at their house.

He planned a whole weekend for us in my neck of the woods, and I loved every minute of it.

This was a love I never saw coming, but it feels so damn good to be cared for and considered like this.

Since the job hunt is in a rut (but ever continuing) maybe it’s a good time to figure it out? Maybe the side biz idea can float me along while I continue the search.

If not financially, at least as a good mental outlet.

A few interviews, one with my former employer for a different job open in the same department.

I wasn’t even going to apply for it, but I was encouraged to.

I got to round two then cut before the panel interviews (which I was told I would be included in).

Found out via HR that I was out of the running, no direct word from the hiring manager who I worked closely with for 11+ years.

Kind of shitty - I’m sure it’s a policy, but not very human of them.

Got to a round two with another nonprofit, cut before the panel. I could definitely do that job in my sleep, but I bet I said something weird in my 2nd interview. Being honest doesn’t always land well, I guess.

It’s hard. Many rejections. Gotta keep doing the things over and over, but it sucks.