harvard

I know! The other day I was writing and eating and JJ and Melody just started crying. I was eating their rusks and they were really worried. It’s a weird and scary journey but I wouldn’t change it for the world. My babies mean so much to me.

The same thing actually happened to me the other day. Although, I was drawing, not writing and I'm sure Silas was really worried because I was eating the dinner that I had made for him. He was seriously, probably thinking that he wasn't going to get  to eat, because mommy was eating what he was supposed to eat. Luckily, I caught myself quick enough. But, I don't know, things like that happen to everyone, I'm sure. I know how you feel, though. I wouldn't trade my baby for anything. I love him way too much.

Aw, well, thank you for saying that. But, truth is, I really don't want to. I've already burnt myself out in that department. I guess that's what you get when you party all the time in high school, and it ends up badly for you, though.

I was wondering why JJ was pouting at me, then I realised I was drinking his apple juice.

I do that to Silas all the time, without even knowing it. Like, I'll be absentmindedly eating the breakfast that I had originally made for him. I don't know, man. Becoming a mother has been a weird journey -- I don't even known why, or how, I do most of the things that I do now. It just kind of happens, y'know? 

I don’t know why a girl would say yes to someone who demanded that to them like that though. It’d just be so… vulgar. 

I don't know, either. Like, I would never do that. But, I suppose you and I are a lot stronger than most of the insecure girls in this world, let alone in this city. It is disgusting, though.

No, what you should be getting from it is that I don't want to suck a dick. That's the whole reason I started to conversation. The first part of my rant was just a joke, sweetheart. 

Only tools really use that comeback though. I mean, what guy says that to a girl?

Yeah, no, I feel you on that. I think it's awful when guys use that insult on girls. I don't know, maybe they think that they're actually going to get something out of it? That would be my guess.

  Yeah but most guys who say that are nasty and their junk is rarely clean, praise god for making me a girl, don’t know what I’d do if I were a dude. In all honesty, guys who say that obviously never get the v that much and for that I truly feel for them, unless they are like a badass and have girls on them 24/7. Next time a guy says that to you just say “No, you suck my dick.”

Dude, same. Like, I kind of feel bad for my son. I love him to absolute death, but I still feel bad for him. Ya' know? I don't want him to have to grow up in a world with insults of the caliber. It's really nasty and what you're saying is exactly right. And that's kind of why I don't like to let him see his father, as much as I should. But, that's basically because he was exactly the guy that you were describing, when I was with him, and it's just disgusting, to be honest. Yet, somehow, he had all the girls in the school crawling over him. When he was mine, which pissed me off. But, yeah, I thought that was weird.