Thinking about S who breaks J out of prison. It's not like he cares about J, he basically hasn't seen J in years after all, and J seems to have forgotten him too. It's just that, with J in prison, the police has had more time to deal with other criminals. And they've been getting closer to catching S — one almost did, S is lucky he managed to slip out of his grip and run away. But he needs a distraction now. Someone who really makes a huge spectacle. And it just so happens that someone is J.

Breaking into prison was no easy task, but it seems like luck was on his side. Then comes next step, finding J's cell. Getting close to the doors, he hears muttering from inside — J being interrogated. Or, at least an interrogation is attempted, but it's failing as J doesn't focus on the questions, instead flirting, either just for heck of it or because he's actually interested in the woman asking him questions. Either can be the case, knowing J. S rolls his eyes in annoyance before starting the next step of breaking J out of here.

Hmm... Thoughts on that next step. So, obviously, it would be breaking the door down and interrupting J's fun. There's few ways I could think of that could be done. But an explosion would be most dramatic. A loud bang, doors getting deformed, smoke everywhere and filling up the small cell, both making it harder to see and breathe. Quickly getting in to grab J, before rushing out, before the smoke can clear. On their way freeing J properly as they make their way out of the prison before the backup can catch them. Maybe few start to shoot to try to get one of them. Maybe a bullet or two ends up hitting S. But due to adrenaline, he doesn't focus on it much — he feels the pain on one side of his body as it spreads out like fire, but right now he can't stop. He can tell where he's been shot though, and firmly presses with one hand at the spot to stop the bleeding, trying to keep the pressure on the wound while keeping up with J who's running ahead of him. And fuck is that difficult, hell, trying to keep up with J in general is hard given the height difference. J at some point looks back and sees what's happening. Without even asking, which would be pointless to begin with, he picks up S to carry him — and S of course complains... even though part of him is relieved to not have to run.

Once they're away far enough and to the safety, it's time to tend to S's wounds. He protests each step of the way, claiming he can take care of it on his own — even though he's getting dizzy, hands growing cold and trembling, and he messes up his words. And J ignores him, knowing better than to listen to S. J, having more experience of living this kind of life and dealing with his own injuries in the past, provides S with care. By no means proper care, but it's better than nothing. No pain relief of any sort, stitches afterwards are a mess, etc. S barely conscious, but even then, able to somehow throw curses at J.

After that, it takes a long while to heal. They both have to lay low for a while too. During this time, at some point when the pain isn't as bad, it hits S that he's in very bad situation. Sure, he knew J in the past. But he also knows J is dangerous. In fact, he was dangerous even back then. And yet, here they are, together, just the two of them, while S is injured, vulnerable. Especially with how J seems to have forgotten him, it feels like living with J will be even more risky.

S is constantly on his guard. Always worried if food might be poisoned. Scared when J's hand moves slightly closer up when J is hugging him from behind to keep him warm while they share a sleeping space, thinking if that hand will go up to his neck while J assumes S is asleep. Afraid of doing anything that could potentially upset J. Even things he hates, he allows J to do. He generally hates being seen naked by anyone, and he'd usually insist that, even with injuries, he doesn't need help with stuff like taking a bath or shower. And yet, he stays quiet when it's time to wash up and J helps him out, J being careful to keep the bandaged spot dry. While J is doing that, S has the thought at the back of his mind that J could drown him here at any point.

Everything J does, is done with such care and gentleness, and yet, S can't get himself to trust J. Then again, S hasn't trusted anyone, but it surely makes sense to not trust someone who doesn't care about lives of other living beings and even sees an artistic beauty in killing them in creative ways.

Oughh, thinking about,,

Thinking about Asaichi trying to reenact his trauma

Showing Yoru how it should be done properly because Yoru has difficult time hurting Asaichi

But

Once Yoru does do it properly, it ends up being triggering for Asaichi, and Yoru immediately stops the scene as he sees tears streaming from under the blindfold, taking it off and seeing an expression both genuinely scared and distant as if he doesn't even see Yoru in front of himself. Yoru kissing Asaichi and wiping his tears away, telling him everything's okay, that he's safe. Unlocking the metal handcuffs, which have digged into Asaichi's skin due to him genuinely struggling to get away. Taking Asaichi's hand and gently kissing the wrists around which the mark left from the metal is. Asaichi avoiding eye contact and moving his head away to avoid Yoru seeing him, because he's the one who asked for this and yet he ruined it all.

Asaichi avoiding the topic after that and they go back to usual routine.

Yoru then taking hold of his hands to have Asaichi let go of the pillow. Grabbing Asaichi's wrists and holding them above Asaichi's head. Not letting Asaichi hide himself, wanting to see Asaichi's face. And Asaichi could at any point free himself, he's stronger than Yoru, and yet, he allows Yoru to hold his wrists in place, and doesn't move them away.

Maybe eventually, he has an idea to try it again. To even open up about wanting to try again tho, it takes Yoru coaxing it out of him, because he tries to backtrack and avoid the subject despite also being the one to start it. Since it failed the first time, and he doesn't wanna repeat that, but also, what if it maybe works out better this time? Once he does open up, this time it's Yoru taking the lead so they don't do it all too fast. They start of slow. And it takes few tries too. First Yoru easing in inside Asaichi slowly (trying not to finish too soon). Asaichi tries to hide away, grabbing a pillow to hide his face, and that too feeling embarrassing to do. Wishing he was turned around instead.

I feel like Asaichi would complain about it though, like, Yoru suddenly acting dominant, thinking he's in charge. Yoru isn't really acting like that, but Asaichi still complains about it as if he is. It's no real complaint tho, it's just to make it seem like he's not willingly giving up control, that it's Yoru being the one who's different from usual.

Yoru unable to help himself but start kissing Asaichi, Asaichi's face, down the neck, to chest. It ends up turning the scene into a lot more gentle one than it should have been (as if it wasn't gentle already), but they're too into it in the moment to care.

There's no immediate effects of this helping, but by next scene, they re-introduce handcuffs. It doesn't make Asaichi as uneasy as before to be handcuffed, and during the act, it doesn't trigger the trauma. Part of it is likely because he can see it's Yoru in front of him, Yoru touching him, Yoru being inside him. This time aeound, the metal wristcuffs don't leave those deep marks in the skin.

Next scene, blindfold returns. And for a moment Asaichi feels all of that was for nothing as the sense of fear starts to bubble up inside him, a tight feeling in his chest like he can't breathe, hands growing cold. But then he feels Yoru's touch that he recognizes, hears Yoru's voice. And with a blindfold on, it feels like he's so much more sensitive all over. At some point, Yoru adds a gag, and noises spill out that Asaichi wishes he could hold back.