Artsy Idiot

Growth is about stretching, trying new things, and setting small, realistic goals for yourself, not picking a “good habit” you’ve decided you will be doing always and forever from now on. That’s not discipline. That’s pointless self-torture and unhealthy resistance to change.

What do I want to eat? Nothing

What to eat? I’ve got a granola bar in my desk drawer. That’ll do.

I’ve learned to stock my desk with easy to eat, vaguely nutritious foods, so when I can’t even fathom leaving my room to find something in the kitchen, at least I’ve got shelf-stable tuna cracker kits that’ll keep me alive. And a bag of chocolates to ward off dementors.

What do I want to watch? Nothing

What to watch? My current hyperfixation is Batman so I’ll put on the Animated Series and binge watch a depressed orphan try to improve the city around him when he can’t do much for himself. Alfred makes sure he eats and sleeps and doesn’t bleed to death. What a good friend. I’ve got friends like that. I can’t call them right now but I remember that I love them and that’s another reason to wake up tomorrow. Thanks, friends, for helping even when you don’t know it.

What do I want to do? Nothing

What to do? I guess I should wash my bedsheets? It’s been over a month, so it’s a thing to do.

When you can’t feel wants, just stop trying to. It’s wasted energy. Just get by. That’s all you need to do right now. Better days will come and maybe soon you’ll be singing in the kitchen, munching on an apple while you make cookies for that friend you remembered.

Decluttering

zuko, candid cam

I’ve been really happy that AtLA has finally dropped on Netflix USA - I know a lot of people haven’t seen it before, and I’ve been watching it virtually with some friends who haven’t either. I hope yall can enjoy it! Please see if you haven’t already!

Apart from some episodes from season 1, I’ve only seen it once while it was airing on tv the first time all those years ago, but it had such an impact on my life! And on our culture and western animation especially. I’m pursuing animation now, actually :D For this one I really wanted to practice with acting and facial expressions, and I feel like I’ve learned a lot. I hope you like it ;u;

I feel like I only ever draw fan art of Zuko lol…

“When you say “Looooong”, I think of my cat. Around 15 years ago, someone made me lots of collages of my cat. The cat is still alive and she is the longest living cat in our family!”

“Now she is 17 years old. She does not climb to high places anymore, but she is relaxing and living her life.”