thought i might post my ao3 account, since everything is also cross posted over there. that and uh. masterlist? i guess?
im a 23 year old psychology student, my pronouns are she/they, but if im being honest, I don't mind any. I can do requests, but can't really promise anything, lmao. im flaky
im queer, talkative and open for pretty much anything. this is a safe space. you feel like you need to yap, im all ears. also, I believe in the don't like, don't read/interact rule. unless it's constructive criticism i specifically ask for, keep shit to yourself. ok thats all. remember to take care of yourselves in this god awful world
my ao3
give me a reason, i'll be the cruel one+the winner takes it all (smut) (ghost x reader)
it takes strength to be gentle and kind (ghost x reader)
make it real, make me forget (john price x reader)
the cat chases the mouse (some things we just don't talk about) (keegan p. russ x reader)
a butchered tongue still singin here above the ground (ghost x reader)
wasn't ready, wasn't willing (and you hit me like a truck) (kyle 'gaz' garrick x reader)
will you still love me (if it turns out im insane?) (john 'soap' mactavish x simon 'ghost' riley)
i love you like the ashes in my cigarette box (frank woods x reader)
how long will i bleed? (digging my own grave) (ghost x roach)
the only way i know (is you) (john price x reader)
you may not like it, but you better learn how (it's your turn now) (cpt john 'soap' mactavish x f!reader)
i don't know where else i can go (soil is falling over my head) (gen, 141 x reader)
im all used up, im carrying my bag of bones (soap x roach)
you've become my ceiling (simon 'ghost' riley x reader)
i don't need the symbol of a scar (simon 'ghost' riley x reader)
wind me tighter than a wire (john 'soap' mactavish x reader)
i loved you like the sun (ghoap)
'cause i can feel ghosts (keegan p. russ x reader)
worth (simon 'ghost' riley whump)
and when broken bodies are washed ashore (who am i to ask for more?) (captain mactavish x reader)
nothing's gonna hurt you baby (ghoap)
bark like a god (baby, let's get down) (ghost x reader)
under the burden of solitude, the weight we carry (is love) (keegan p. russ whump)
i left a part of me (i wanna see if you can try to bring it back) (ghoap)
being with you (makes the flame burn good) (simon 'ghost' riley x gn!reader)
my only love is control (loving you's my only house) (john price x gn!reader)
my ghost (where did you go?) (thomas a. merrick x f!reader)
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i know ive already posted the smiling one but for some reason i felt like i should keep all the smiling drawings together (and it turns out there r only two of them)
ghoap doodle someday ill get tavs face right UGGHH
also i dont think ghost has a particularly sweet or cute smile. it's probably a bit fucked by tissue damage from glasgow smile and scars in general pulling his mouth every which way. + just not being used to the movement
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mactavish tortures himself sometimes; wonders if roach wanted to beg and plead, if in his mind he kept calling out to his captain, wondering where the man who's supposed to protect him is, a responsibility weighing heavy. soap's mind keeps going back to that split moment where he realized what was happening. that the first time he's allowed himself to be fully separated from his men, he's doomed them to die. it festers, slowly burning away at his chest ā revenge and grief leading him by his hand, a sure death coming to claim him.
it would be the least of what he deserves. his failure, or what he deems it to be, must be punished.
He might be unhinged but thatās still my goat frā¦
So the MW4 trailer came out about a week ago and I have some thoughts about it that I donāt want to get too much into detail here.
But to sum up my thoughts:
I think that the franchise is trying to do something new for once instead of releasing the same game over and over again with a mediocre story attached to it (I might be wrong but weāll see).
For that, I was quite glad and a bit excited, but what sours my initial excitement about this game is the lack of Gaz in the trailer.
Iām more irritated than disappointed about it than anything else. This shit happens all the time in media so itās no shock that itās happening here.
What makes me the most upset is the fact that back in 2019, I was so excited to finally play as a prominent black protagonist in the franchise.
With me dealing with anti-blackness within the fandom at the time (and still dealing with it now if Iām being honest) this ONE thing made my overall experience with the franchise better.
Having Gaz be sidelined so heavily in the series has left me feeling more and more irritated with each game that releases.
Itās quite clear that Call of Duty (and Activision in general) could care less about its black and POC characters and would rather use them as a way to prop up their white male leads instead of actually doing something productive with them.
(I could ramble on more, but Iād rather stop while Iām ahead before I start saying some dumbass shit out of anger. Sorry if thereās any grammatical errors itās late while Iām typing thisā¦)
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Also the original illustration that this based on is by Gus Bofa. An interesting illustrator to learn about if youāre into art history!
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captain mactavish is like a pathetic wet cat to me. suicidal, dependent on alcohol and his not-so-dead captain that he has a totally normal relationship with. guilt ridden, overwhelmingly concerned with his team but acting like he could care less. almost dies like seven thousand times, and then actually does. disaster of a human being
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ghost who doesn't realize he's been thrust into a relationship. he knows something is going on, but he's so obtuse when it comes to feelings that he doesn't even stop to think that what he has with you is more than just camaraderie. meanwhile, you're very aware of his emotional constipation and decide that unless he objects completely, he has to be carefully herded and gentled, just to form cracks in his walls and settle in there; when he finally clocks that he's actually been in a relationship for a while now, all he can do is blink and think: well. alright then
